Stolen_JJ Innocence_NN1 :_: My_APPGE Story_NN1 of_IO Growing_VVG Up_RP in_II a_AT1 Polygamous_JJ Sect_NN1 ,_, Becoming_VVG a_AT1 Teenage_JJ Bride_NN1 ,_, and_CC Breaking_VVG Free_JJ of_IO Warren_NP1 Jeffs_NP2 I_PPIS1 can_VM still_RR smell_VVI the_AT Dutch-oven_JJ roast_NN1 on_II the_AT table_NN1 the_AT night_NNT1 Dad_NN1 announced_VVD we_PPIS2 were_VBDR getting_VVG a_AT1 new_JJ mother_NN1 ._. 
Even_CS21 though_CS22 there_EX were_VBDR already_RR two_MC mothers_NN2 in_II our_APPGE house_NN1 ,_, receiving_VVG a_AT1 third_MD was_VBDZ cause_NN1 for_IF celebration_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ nine_MC years_NNT2 old_JJ and_CC a_RR31 little_RR32 bit_RR33 confused_VVN ,_, but_CCB mostly_RR I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ excited_VVN because_CS everyone_PN1 else_RR at_II the_AT dinner_NN1 table_NN1 was_VBDZ acting_VVG so_RG happy_JJ for_IF our_APPGE father_NN1 ._. 
It_PPH1 did_VDD n't_XX seem_VVI at_RR21 all_RR22 unusual_JJ that_CST we_PPIS2 would_VM have_VHI a_AT1 third_MD mother_NN1 --_NN1 or_CC that_CST our_APPGE family_NN1 would_VM continue_VVI to_TO grow_VVI ._. 
That_DD1 was_VBDZ just_RR a_AT1 part_NN1 of_IO the_AT only_JJ life_NN1 I_PPIS1 had_VHD ever_RR known_VVN as_II a_AT1 member_NN1 of_IO the_AT Fundamentalist_JJ Church_NN1 of_IO Jesus_NP1 Christ_NP1 of_IO Latter_DA Day_NNT1 Saints_NN2 (_( FLDS_NP1 )_) ,_, a_AT1 group_NN1 that_CST broke_VVD away_II21 from_II22 the_AT Church_NN1 of_IO Jesus_NP1 Christ_NP1 of_IO Latter-day_JJ Saints_NN2 --_NN1 more_RGR popularly_RR known_VVN as_II the_AT LDS_NP1 Mormon_JJ Church_NN1 --_NN1 so_CS21 that_CS22 they_PPHS2 could_VM continue_VVI to_II practice_NN1 plural_NN1 marriage_NN1 ._. 
Sure_RR ,_, our_APPGE home_NN1 already_RR had_VHN two_MC mothers_NN2 and_CC almost_RR a_AT1 dozen_NNO kids_NN2 ,_, but_CCB many_DA2 of_IO the_AT children_NN2 I_PPIS1 knew_VVD had_VHD far_RG more_DAR than_CSN that_DD1 in_II their_APPGE families_NN2 ._. 
It_PPH1 seemed_VVD to_TO make_VVI sense_NN1 that_CST we_PPIS2 would_VM get_VVI another_DD1 mother_NN1 ._. 
It_PPH1 was_VBDZ just_RR that_DD1 time_NNT1 ._. 
Back_RP then_RT ,_, I_PPIS1 did_VDD n't_XX really_RR understand_VVI much_RR about_II the_AT FLDS_NP1 ,_, but_CCB I_PPIS1 knew_VVD that_CST we_PPIS2 were_VBDR different_JJ from_II the_AT people_NN living_VVG around_II us_PPIO2 in_II our_APPGE Salt_NP1 Lake_NP1 City_NN1 suburb_NN1 ._. 
For_IF one_MC1 thing_NN1 ,_, we_PPIS2 were_VBDR n't_XX supposed_JJ to_TO play_VVI with_IW other_JJ kids_NN2 in_II the_AT neighborhood_NN1 ,_, and_CC we_PPIS2 usually_RR kept_VVD the_AT curtains_NN2 in_II the_AT house_NN1 drawn_VVN to_TO protect_VVI our_APPGE privacy_NN1 and_CC the_AT secret_JJ life_NN1 we_PPIS2 led_VVD ._. 
Unlike_II most_DAT of_IO the_AT neighborhood_NN1 kids_NN2 ,_, we_PPIS2 did_VDD n't_XX get_VVI on_II the_AT yellow_JJ school_NN1 buses_NN2 and_CC go_VV0 to_II public_JJ schools_NN2 ._. 
Instead_RR ,_, we_PPIS2 went_VVD to_II a_AT1 special_JJ place_NN1 ,_, Alta_NP1 Academy_NN1 --_NN1 a_AT1 huge_JJ ,_, unassuming_JJ white_JJ brick_NN1 house_NN1 that_CST had_VHD been_VBN converted_VVN into_II a_AT1 school_NN1 for_IF members_NN2 of_IO the_AT FLDS_NP1 ._. 
We_PPIS2 also_RR dressed_VVD differently_RR from_II everyone_PN1 else_RR ,_, wearing_VVG long_JJ church_NN1 undergarments_NN2 that_CST covered_VVD our_APPGE entire_JJ body_NN1 and_CC stretched_VVN from_II the_AT neck_NN1 to_II the_AT ankles_NN2 and_CC the_AT wrists_NN2 ._. 
On_II31 top_II32 of_II33 these_DD2 ,_, the_AT girls_NN2 and_CC women_NN2 wore_VVD frilly_JJ long_JJ pioneer-style_NN1 dresses_VVZ year-round_JJ ,_, which_DDQ made_VVD it_PPH1 hard_RR to_TO play_VVI in_II the_AT backyard_NN1 and_CC even_RR harder_JJR to_TO stay_VVI comfortable_JJ in_II the_AT summer_NNT1 heat_NN1 ._. 
Whereas_CS most_DAT kids_NN2 would_VM go_VVI out_RP in_II shorts_NN2 and_CC a_AT1 T-shirt_NN1 ,_, we_PPIS2 did_VDD n't_XX own_VVI either_RR ,_, and_CC even_CS21 if_CS22 we_PPIS2 did_VDD ,_, we_PPIS2 would_VM not_XX have_VHI been_VBN allowed_VVN to_TO wear_VVI them_PPHO2 ._. 
At_II the_AT time_NNT1 ,_, I_PPIS1 did_VDD n't_XX really_RR know_VVI why_RRQ everything_PN1 had_VHD to_TO be_VBI so_RG different_JJ ;_; all_DB I_PPIS1 knew_VVD was_VBDZ that_CST I_PPIS1 had_VHD to_TO "_" keep_VVI sweet_JJ "_" and_CC not_XX complain_VV0 ._. 
We_PPIS2 were_VBDR God_NP1 's_GE chosen_JJ people_NN --_JJ and_CC when_RRQ Judgment_NN1 Day_NP1 came_VVD ,_, we_PPIS2 would_VM be_VBI the_AT only_JJ ones_NN2 allowed_VVN into_II heaven_NN1 ._. 
Judgment_NN1 Day_NP1 was_VBDZ known_VVN to_II the_AT FLDS_NP1 people_NN as_II the_AT day_NNT1 the_AT destruction_NN1 of_IO the_AT Lord_NN1 would_VM sweep_VVI across_II the_AT earth_NN1 ,_, bringing_VVG fire_NN1 ,_, storms_NN2 ,_, and_CC death_NN1 in_II its_APPGE wake_NN1 ._. 
The_AT wicked_JJ would_VM all_DB be_VBI destroyed_VVN and_CC when_CS it_PPH1 seemed_VVD like_II none_PN would_VM survive_VVI ,_, the_AT Lord_NN1 would_VM lift_VVI the_AT worthiest_JJT people_NN --_JJ us_PPIO2 --_NN1 off_II the_AT earth_NN1 while_CS the_AT devastation_NN1 passed_VVN beneath_II us_PPIO2 ._. 
Then_RT we_PPIS2 would_VM be_VBI set_VVN back_RP down_RP and_CC would_VM build_VVI Zion_NP1 ,_, a_AT1 place_NN1 without_IW sadness_NN1 or_CC pain_NN1 ._. 
We_PPIS2 would_VM reside_VVI there_RL with_IW God_NP1 and_CC enjoy_VVI a_AT1 thousand_NNO years_NNT2 of_IO peace_NN1 ._. 
My_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, Douglas_NP1 Wall_NP1 ,_, was_VBDZ an_AT1 elder_NN1 in_II the_AT FLDS_NP1 Church_NN1 ._. 
For_IF him_PPHO1 ,_, and_CC indeed_RR for_IF our_APPGE whole_JJ family_NN1 ,_, receiving_VVG a_AT1 third_MD wife_NN1 was_VBDZ a_AT1 major_JJ blessing_NN1 and_CC an_AT1 important_JJ milestone_NN1 on_II the_AT long_JJ road_NN1 to_II eternal_JJ salvation_NN1 ._. 
The_AT idea_NN1 of_IO having_VHG more_DAR than_CSN one_MC1 wife_NN1 had_VHD become_VVN an_AT1 integral_JJ part_NN1 of_IO the_AT Mormon_JJ religion_NN1 after_II Joseph_NP1 Smith_NP1 founded_VVD it_PPH1 in_II 1830_MC ,_, but_CCB the_AT Mormon_JJ Church_NN1 officially_RR abandoned_VVD the_AT practice_NN1 of_IO polygamy_NN1 in_II 1890_MC ,_, in_RR21 part_RR22 ,_, so_CS21 that_CS22 Utah_NP1 could_VM gain_VVI statehood_NN1 ._. 
Still_RR ,_, some_DD of_IO its_APPGE members_NN2 continued_VVN to_II practice_NN1 in_II secret_NN1 at_II the_AT risk_NN1 of_IO being_VBG excommunicated_VVN ._. 
By_II 1935_MC ,_, some_DD of_IO the_AT men_NN2 who_PNQS 'd_VHD been_VBN expelled_VVN from_II the_AT Mormon_JJ Church_NN1 formed_VVD their_APPGE own_DA breakaway_JJ sect_NN1 ,_, first_MD known_VVN as_II "_" The_AT Work_NN1 "_" and_CC decades_NNT2 later_RRR as_II the_AT Fundamentalist_JJ Church_NN1 of_IO Jesus_NP1 Christ_NP1 of_IO Latter_DA Day_NNT1 Saints_NN2 ._. 
They_PPHS2 viewed_VVD plural_JJ marriage_NN1 as_II a_AT1 central_JJ tenet_NN1 --_NN1 and_CC the_AT only_JJ way_NN1 to_TO attain_VVI eternal_JJ salvation_NN1 ._. 
Members_NN2 of_IO the_AT FLDS_NP1 believe_VV0 they_PPHS2 are_VBR following_VVG the_AT true_JJ Mormon_JJ religion_NN1 as_CSA it_PPH1 was_VBDZ first_MD envisioned_VVD by_II Joseph_NP1 Smith_NP1 ._. 
One_MC1 of_IO its_APPGE central_JJ teachings_NN2 is_VBZ the_AT idea_NN1 of_IO celestial_JJ marriage_NN1 ,_, in_II which_DDQ a_AT1 man_NN1 must_VM have_VHI a_AT1 minimum_NN1 of_IO three_MC wives_NN2 to_TO gain_VVI admittance_NN1 to_II the_AT highest_JJT of_IO the_AT three_MC levels_NN2 of_IO heaven_NN1 ._. 
That_DD1 Dad_NN1 was_VBDZ getting_VVG a_AT1 third_MD wife_NN1 meant_VVD that_CST he_PPHS1 had_VHD begun_VVN to_TO secure_VVI a_AT1 place_NN1 in_II the_AT Celestial_JJ Kingdom_NN1 for_IF himself_PPX1 and_CC his_APPGE family_NN1 ._. 
Eleven_MC of_IO Dad_NN1 's_GE twenty-two_MC children_NN2 were_VBDR still_RR living_VVG at_II our_APPGE home_NN1 in_II Salt_NP1 Lake_NP1 City_NN1 ,_, Utah_NP1 ,_, when_CS he_PPHS1 broke_VVD the_AT news_NN1 that_CST Saturday_NPD1 evening_NNT1 in_II October_NPM1 1995_MC ._. 
Many_DA2 of_IO my_APPGE older_JJR siblings_NN2 were_VBDR married_JJ and_CC had_VHD moved_VVN out_RP to_TO start_VVI lives_NN2 of_IO their_APPGE own_DA ._. 
My_APPGE family_NN1 lived_VVD on_II a_AT1 quiet_JJ street_NN1 in_II a_AT1 suburb_NN1 called_VVN Sugar_NN1 House_NN1 ,_, about_RG thirty_MC blocks_NN2 southeast_ND1 of_IO Temple_NP1 Square_NNL1 ,_, the_AT headquarters_NN of_IO the_AT Mormon_JJ Church_NN1 ,_, located_VVN in_II downtown_JJ Salt_NP1 Lake_NP1 City_NN1 ._. 
Established_VVN in_II 1853_MC ,_, six_MC years_NNT2 after_II Brigham_NP1 Young_NP1 guided_VVD the_AT Mormon_JJ pioneers_NN2 into_II the_AT Salt_NP1 Lake_NNL1 Valley_NN1 ,_, Sugar_NN1 House_NN1 was_VBDZ named_VVN for_IF the_AT sugar_NN1 mill_NN1 whose_DDQGE contruction_NN1 had_VHD never_RR been_VBN completed_VVN there_RL ._. 
Still_RR ,_, the_AT name_NN1 stuck_VVD ._. 
Our_APPGE house_NN1 was_VBDZ set_VVN back_RP about_RG twenty_MC feet_NN2 from_II the_AT road_NN1 ,_, with_IW views_NN2 of_IO the_AT Wasatch_NP1 Mountains_NNL2 in_II the_AT distance_NN1 ._. 
Large_JJ pine_NN1 trees_NN2 and_CC shrubs_NN2 in_II the_AT front_JJ yard_NN1 obstructed_VVN much_DA1 of_IO the_AT view_NN1 and_CC made_VVN the_AT house_NN1 appear_VV0 smaller_JJR than_CSN it_PPH1 really_RR was_VBDZ ,_, but_CCB Dad_NN1 had_VHD always_RR loved_VVN this_DD1 location_NN1 because_CS it_PPH1 had_VHD a_AT1 big_JJ backyard_NN1 where_CS the_AT kids_NN2 could_VM play_VVI ._. 
More_RGR important_JJ ,_, it_PPH1 afforded_VVD a_AT1 degree_NN1 of_IO privacy_NN1 ,_, which_DDQ was_VBDZ crucial_JJ ,_, since_CS we_PPIS2 did_VDD n't_XX want_VVI people_NN to_TO know_VVI too_RG much_DA1 about_II us_PPIO2 ._. 
Because_CS plural_JJ marriages_NN2 were_VBDR forbidden_VVN in_II Utah_NP1 ,_, our_APPGE family_NN1 ,_, like_II all_DB families_NN2 in_II the_AT FLDS_NP1 ,_, was_VBDZ concerned_JJ about_II the_AT attention_NN1 we_PPIS2 could_VM receive_VVI if_CSW the_AT outside_JJ world_NN1 knew_VVD what_DDQ was_VBDZ going_VVG on_RP inside_II our_APPGE house_NN1 ._. 
What_DDQ helped_VVD families_NN2 like_II ours_PPGE stay_VV0 under_II the_AT radar_NN1 in_II Salt_NP1 Lake_NNL1 was_VBDZ the_AT fact_NN1 that_CST our_APPGE numbers_NN2 were_VBDR few_DA2 and_CC we_PPIS2 were_VBDR all_DB scattered_VVN throughout_II the_AT Salt_NP1 Lake_NNL1 Valley_NN1 ._. 
At_II the_AT time_NNT1 ,_, there_EX were_VBDR about_RG ninety_MC FLDS_NP1 families_NN2 residing_VVG in_II the_AT area_NN1 ,_, and_CC if_CS we_PPIS2 had_VHD all_RR lived_VVN together_RL in_II the_AT same_DA location_NN1 ,_, our_APPGE way_NN1 of_IO life_NN1 may_VM have_VHI drawn_VVN more_DAR attention_NN1 and_CC brought_VVN repercussions_NN2 from_II the_AT state_NN1 government_NN1 ._. 
My_APPGE father_NN1 was_VBDZ beaming_VVG that_DD1 Saturday_NPD1 night_NNT1 as_CSA he_PPHS1 sat_VVD at_II the_AT head_NN1 of_IO the_AT dinner_NN1 table_NN1 ._. 
On_II either_DD1 side_NN1 of_IO him_PPHO1 sat_VVD his_APPGE two_MC wives_NN2 ,_, the_AT mothers_NN2 of_IO the_AT family_NN1 ,_, who_PNQS would_VM have_VHI to_TO make_VVI room_NN1 for_IF one_PN1 more_DAR at_II their_APPGE table_NN1 ._. 
Sharon_NP1 ,_, my_APPGE biological_JJ mother_NN1 ,_, was_VBDZ my_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE second_MD wife_NN1 ._. 
Audrey_NP1 ,_, my_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE first_MD wife_NN1 ,_, was_VBDZ known_VVN to_II me_PPIO1 as_CSA Mother_NNB Audrey_NP1 ._. 
The_AT atmosphere_NN1 was_VBDZ filled_VVN with_IW excitement_NN1 as_CSA we_PPIS2 looked_VVD at_II one_PPX121 another_PPX122 with_IW the_AT expectation_NN1 of_IO a_AT1 good_JJ future_NN1 ._. 
My_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE face_NN1 seemed_VVD to_TO swell_VVI with_IW pride_NN1 as_CSA we_PPIS2 talked_VVD about_II how_RRQ we_PPIS2 would_VM prepare_VVI for_IF the_AT ceremony_NN1 and_CC make_VVI room_NN1 for_IF our_APPGE new_JJ mother_NN1 ._. 
My_APPGE older_JJR sister_NN1 Rachel_NP1 and_CC some_DD of_IO my_APPGE other_JJ family_NN1 members_NN2 began_VVD preparing_VVG a_AT1 song_NN1 that_CST we_PPIS2 children_NN2 would_VM sing_VVI in_II honor_NN1 of_IO our_APPGE new_JJ mother_NN1 's_GE arrival_NN1 ._. 
But_CCB when_CS the_AT revelry_NN1 of_IO the_AT night_NNT1 gave_VVD way_NN1 to_II the_AT realities_NN2 of_IO daylight_NN1 ,_, the_AT anxiety_NN1 of_IO the_AT situation_NN1 became_VVD palpable_JJ ._. 
Receiving_VVG another_DD1 mother_NN1 into_II the_AT family_NN1 is_VBZ supposed_JJ to_TO be_VBI a_AT1 wonderful_JJ ,_, joyous_JJ occasion_NN1 ;_; we_PPIS2 had_VHD always_RR been_VBN taught_VVN that_CST this_DD1 was_VBDZ a_AT1 gift_NN1 from_II God_NP1 to_TO be_VBI celebrated_VVN and_CC revered_VVN ._. 
But_CCB beneath_II our_APPGE outward_JJ joy_NN1 ,_, a_AT1 larger_JJR ,_, ominous_JJ tension_NN1 lurked_VVD ,_, as_CSA no_AT one_MC1 --_NN1 not_XX my_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, my_APPGE mother_NN1 ,_, Mother_NNB Audrey_NP1 ,_, or_CC my_APPGE siblings_NN2 --_NN1 was_VBDZ sure_JJ how_RRQ this_DD1 would_VM impact_VVI the_AT volatile_JJ chemistry_NN1 that_CST was_VBDZ already_RR at_II work_NN1 in_II our_APPGE house_NN1 ._. 
For_IF as_CS31 long_CS32 as_CS33 I_PPIS1 could_VM remember_VVI ,_, there_EX had_VHD been_VBN an_AT1 undercurrent_NN1 of_IO contention_NN1 and_CC unrest_NN1 in_II our_APPGE family_NN1 ._. 
On_II November_NPM1 20_MC ,_, 2007_MC ,_, almost_RR two_MC months_NNT2 after_II Warren_NP1 's_GE guilty_JJ verdict_NN1 ,_, Lamont_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 walked_VVD into_II the_AT courthouse_NN1 for_IF the_AT sentencing_NN1 of_IO Warren_NP1 Jeffs_NP2 ,_, unsure_JJ of_IO what_DDQ was_VBDZ going_VVGK to_TO happen_VVI ._. 
Outside_RL ,_, the_AT sun_NN1 shone_VVD brightly_RR as_CSA one_MC1 last_MD time_NNT1 we_PPIS2 were_VBDR ushered_VVN through_II the_AT back_NN1 door_NN1 of_IO the_AT courthouse_NN1 ._. 
Oddly_RR ,_, this_DD1 arena_NN1 had_VHD become_VVN a_AT1 part_NN1 of_IO my_APPGE reality_NN1 and_CC I_PPIS1 'd_VHD grown_VVN strangely_RR comfortable_JJ within_II its_APPGE walls_NN2 surrounded_VVN by_II the_AT people_NN who_PNQS had_VHD caringly_RR walked_VVN beside_II me_PPIO1 throughout_II this_DD1 grueling_JJ process_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ concerned_JJ that_CST Warren_NP1 might_VM receive_VVI a_AT1 sentence_NN1 as_RG light_JJ as_CSA eighteen_MC months_NNT2 and_CC return_VV0 to_II the_AT community_NN1 to_TO start_VVI all_RR over_II again_RT with_IW his_APPGE "_" work_NN1 ._. "_" 
I_PPIS1 had_VHD been_VBN offered_VVN the_AT opportunity_NN1 to_TO address_VVI the_AT court_NN1 one_MC1 last_MD time_NNT1 before_II Judge_NP1 Shumate_NP1 rendered_VVD Warren_NP1 's_GE sentence_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 agonized_VVD over_RP whether_CSW saying_VVG more_DAR would_VM complicate_VVI things_NN2 for_IF the_AT judge_NN1 ._. 
We_PPIS2 had_VHD all_RR heard_VVN the_AT evidence_NN1 ,_, and_CC the_AT closing_JJ arguments_NN2 ._. 
Warren_NP1 had_VHD already_RR been_VBN found_VVN guilty_JJ ;_; now_RT it_PPH1 was_VBDZ just_RR21 about_RR22 deciding_VVG the_AT consequence_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 'd_VM already_RR spelled_VVN out_RP my_APPGE final_JJ thoughts_NN2 in_II a_AT1 Victim_NN1 Impact_NN1 Statement_NN1 for_IF the_AT court_NN1 ._. 
As_CSA I_PPIS1 took_VVD my_APPGE seat_NN1 in_II the_AT second_MD row_NN1 of_IO the_AT gallery_NN1 that_DD1 morning_NNT1 ,_, I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ still_RR undecided_JJ ,_, but_CCB as_CSA I_PPIS1 listened_VVD to_II Wally_NP1 Bugden_NP1 talk_NN1 of_IO "_" religious_JJ persecution_NN1 "_" and_CC try_VV0 to_TO remove_VVI the_AT blame_NN1 from_II his_APPGE client_NN1 ,_, I_PPIS1 decided_VVD I_PPIS1 had_VHD to_TO speak_VVI up_RP ._. 
This_DD1 was_VBDZ n't_XX just_RR21 about_RR22 me_PPIO1 ;_; I_PPIS1 owed_VVD it_PPH1 to_II all_DB young_JJ girls_NN2 ,_, especially_RR those_DD2 of_IO the_AT FLDS_NP1 still_RR holding_VVG onto_II their_APPGE innocence_NN1 ._. 
When_CS both_DB2 sides_NN2 had_VHD presented_VVN their_APPGE arguments_NN2 with_II31 regard_II32 to_II33 Warren_NP1 's_GE sentence_NN1 ,_, the_AT judge_NN1 turned_VVD to_II the_AT prosecution_NN1 to_TO learn_VVI if_CS I_PPIS1 would_VM exercise_VVI my_APPGE right_NN1 to_TO make_VVI a_AT1 statement_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 walked_VVD slowly_RR toward_II the_AT front_NN1 of_IO the_AT courtroom_NN1 ,_, placing_VVG one_MC1 wobbly_JJ foot_NN1 in_II31 front_II32 of_II33 the_AT other_JJ ._. 
I_PPIS1 could_VM feel_VVI my_APPGE emotions_NN2 taking_VVG hold_NN1 as_CSA I_PPIS1 stood_VVD at_II a_AT1 podium_NN1 directly_RR before_II the_AT judge_NN1 ._. 
In_II that_DD1 instant_NNT1 ,_, the_AT events_NN2 of_IO the_AT past_JJ years_NNT2 flashed_VVD before_II me_PPIO1 ._. 
Here_RL was_VBDZ the_AT man_NN1 who_PNQS had_VHD inflicted_VVN such_DA pain_NN1 and_CC sorrow_NN1 on_II so_RG many_DA2 people_NN ._. 
Here_RL was_VBDZ the_AT moment_NN1 when_RRQ God_NP1 would_VM answer_VVI prayers_NN2 ._. 
While_CS I_PPIS1 wanted_VVD to_TO see_VVI justice_NN1 served_VVD ,_, I_PPIS1 also_RR felt_VVD the_AT grief_NN1 and_CC sadness_NN1 of_IO Warren_NP1 's_GE thousands_NNO2 of_IO supporters_NN2 ,_, praying_VVG that_CST God_NP1 would_VM show_VVI his_APPGE hand_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 knew_VVD they_PPHS2 were_VBDR in_II mourning_NN1 and_CC that_CST they_PPHS2 did_VDD n't_XX understand_VVI ;_; they_PPHS2 could_VM n't_XX risk_VVI having_VHG such_DA thoughts_NN2 ._. 
But_CCB I_PPIS1 felt_VVD like_II God_NP1 was_VBDZ showing_VVG us_PPIO2 mercy_NN1 and_CC he_PPHS1 was_VBDZ answering_JJ prayers_NN2 ._. 
I_PPIS1 thought_VVD of_IO Lamont_NP1 and_CC my_APPGE children_NN2 and_CC all_DB those_DD2 who_PNQS 'd_VHD worked_VVN hard_RR to_TO get_VVI to_II this_DD1 moment_NN1 ,_, and_CC I_PPIS1 knew_VVD without_IW a_AT1 doubt_NN1 it_PPH1 had_VHD all_RR been_VBN worth_II it_PPH1 ._. 
As_CSA I_PPIS1 cleared_VVD my_APPGE throat_NN1 to_TO speak_VVI ,_, I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ still_RR unsure_JJ what_DDQ words_NN2 could_VM be_VBI said_VVN to_TO show_VVI the_AT judge_NN1 what_DDQ was_VBDZ in_II my_APPGE heart_NN1 ._. 
"_" I_PPIS1 have_VH0 thought_VVN of_IO this_DD1 day_NNT1 and_CC how_RRQ it_PPH1 would_VM go_VVI for_IF a_AT1 very_RG long_JJ time_NNT1 ,_, "_" I_PPIS1 began_VVD ,_, my_APPGE voice_NN1 quivering_VVG but_CCB filled_VVD with_IW resolve_NN1 ._. 
"_" Warren_NP1 Jeffs_NP2 and_CC his_APPGE influence_NN1 over_II me_PPIO1 as_II a_AT1 fourteen-year-old_JJ girl_NN1 affected_VVD me_PPIO1 and_CC my_APPGE family_NN1 in_II so_RG many_DA2 ways_NN2 ._. 
I_PPIS1 am_VBM so_RG grateful_JJ for_IF the_AT justice_NN1 system_NN1 that_CST you_PPY would_VM see_VVI the_AT truth_NN1 and_CC believe_VVI in_II me_PPIO1 ._. "_" 
I_PPIS1 could_VM already_RR feel_VVI myself_PPX1 healing_VVG from_II the_AT inside_JJ21 out_JJ22 ._. 
It_PPH1 was_VBDZ a_AT1 powerful_JJ moment_NN1 for_IF me_PPIO1 ,_, even_CS21 though_CS22 the_AT end_NN1 had_VHD not_XX yet_RR arrived_VVN ._. 
"_" I_PPIS1 know_VV0 from_II fact_NN1 that_CST whatever_DDQV I_PPIS1 do_VD0 today_RT will_VM not_XX make_VVI it_PPH1 better_RRR ,_, "_" Judge_NP1 Shumate_NP1 told_VVD me_PPIO1 ,_, his_APPGE voice_NN1 laced_VVN with_IW sympathy_NN1 and_CC concern_NN1 ._. 
"_" You_PPY live_VV0 under_II a_AT1 life_NN1 sentence_NN1 ._. 
Your_APPGE courage_NN1 in_II carrying_VVG on_RP is_VBZ laudable_JJ ,_, but_CCB you_PPY do_VD0 n't_XX have_VHI to_TO do_VDI it_PPH1 alone_RR ._. "_" 
I_PPIS1 nodded_VVD ,_, comforted_VVD that_CST he_PPHS1 cared_VVD and_CC seemed_VVD to_TO understand_VVI how_RGQ much_DA1 pain_NN1 I_PPIS1 had_VHD endured_VVN ._. 
I_PPIS1 had_VHD spent_VVN a_AT1 lot_NN1 of_IO time_NNT1 delving_VVG into_II my_APPGE past_NN1 but_CCB I_PPIS1 'd_VM never_RR focused_VVN on_II the_AT fact_NN1 that_CST these_DD2 scars_NN2 would_VM be_VBI with_IW me_PPIO1 forever_RT ._. 
It_PPH1 felt_VVD good_JJ to_TO be_VBI validated_VVN like_II that_DD1 ;_; Judge_NP1 Shumate_NP1 made_VVD me_PPIO1 feel_NN1 fathered_VVD in_II a_AT1 way_NN1 ._. 
Granting_VVG me_PPIO1 this_DD1 new_JJ perspective_NN1 lifted_VVD a_AT1 weight_NN1 off_II my_APPGE shoulders_NN2 and_CC I_PPIS1 will_VM always_RR be_VBI grateful_JJ to_II him_PPHO1 for_IF that_DD1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ trying_VVG to_TO keep_VVI my_APPGE emotions_NN2 in_II check_NN1 as_CSA Judge_NP1 Shumate_NP1 explained_VVD to_II me_PPIO1 that_CST I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ entitled_VVN to_II monetary_JJ compensation_NN1 from_II Warren_NP1 for_IF therapy_NN1 and_CC other_JJ services_NN2 ._. 
