The_AT Bigness_NN1 of_IO the_AT World_NN1 The_AT year_NNT1 that_DD1 ilsa_NN1 maria_NN1 lumpkin_NN1 took_VVD care_NN1 of_IO us_PPIO2 ,_, Martin_NP1 was_VBDZ ten_MC going_VVG on_II eleven_MC and_CC I_PPIS1 ,_, eleven_MC going_VVG on_II twelve_MC ._. 
We_PPIS2 considered_VVD ourselves_PPX2 almost_RR adults_NN2 ,_, on_II the_AT cusp_NN1 of_IO no_RR21 longer_RR22 requiring_VVG supervision_NN1 ,_, but_CCB because_CS our_APPGE days_NNT2 were_VBDR far_RG more_RGR interesting_JJ with_IW Ilsa_NP1 in_II them_PPHO2 ,_, we_PPIS2 did_VDD not_XX force_VVI the_AT issue_NN1 ._. 
Her_APPGE job_NN1 was_VBDZ to_TO be_VBI there_RL waiting_VVG when_RRQ we_PPIS2 arrived_VVD home_RL from_II school_NN1 ,_, to_TO prepare_VVI snacks_NN2 and_CC help_VVI with_IW homework_NN1 and_CC ask_VV0 about_II our_APPGE days_NNT2 ,_, for_IF our_APPGE parents_NN2 were_VBDR deeply_RR involved_VVN at_II that_DD1 time_NNT1 with_IW what_DDQ they_PPHS2 referred_VVD to_II as_CSA their_APPGE "_" careers_NN2 ,_, "_" both_DB2 of_IO them_PPHO2 spending_VVG long_JJ hours_NNT2 engaged_VVN in_II activities_NN2 that_CST seemed_VVD to_II Martin_NP1 and_CC me_PPIO1 nebulous_JJ at_RR21 best_RR22 ._. 
We_PPIS2 understood_VVD ,_, of_RR21 course_RR22 ,_, that_CST our_APPGE mother_NN1 did_VDD something_PN1 at_II our_APPGE grandfather_NN1 's_GE bank_NN1 ,_, but_CCB when_CS our_APPGE father_NN1 overheard_VVD us_PPIO2 describing_VVG her_APPGE job_NN1 in_II this_DD1 way_NN1 to_II Ilsa_NP1 ,_, he_PPHS1 admonished_VVD us_PPIO2 later_RRR ,_, saying_VVG ,_, "_" Your_APPGE mother_NN1 is_VBZ vice_JJ president_NN1 of_IO the_AT bank_NN1 ._. 
That_DD1 is_VBZ not_XX just_RR something_PN1 ._. "_" 
Then_RT ,_, perhaps_RR suspecting_VVG that_CST his_APPGE job_NN1 seemed_VVD to_II us_PPIO2 equally_RR vague_JJ ,_, he_PPHS1 took_VVD out_RP his_APPGE wallet_NN1 and_CC handed_VVD Martin_NP1 and_CC me_PPIO1 one_MC1 of_IO his_APPGE business_NN1 cards_NN2 ,_, on_II which_DDQ was_VBDZ inscribed_VVN his_APPGE name_NN1 ,_, Matthew_NP1 Koeppe_NP1 ,_, and_CC the_AT words_NN2 PR_NP1 Czar_NN1 ._. 
For_IF several_DA2 long_JJ seconds_NNT2 ,_, Martin_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 stared_VVD down_RP at_II the_AT card_NN1 ,_, and_CC our_APPGE father_NN1 stared_VVD at_II us_PPIO2 ._. 
I_PPIS1 believe_VV0 that_CST he_PPHS1 wanted_VVD to_TO understand_VVI us_PPIO2 ,_, wanted_VVD to_TO know_VVI ,_, for_REX21 example_REX22 ,_, how_RRQ we_PPIS2 viewed_VVD the_AT world_NN1 ,_, what_DDQ interested_JJ or_CC frightened_JJ or_CC perplexed_VVN us_PPIO2 ,_, but_CCB this_DD1 required_JJ patience_NN1 ,_, something_PN1 that_CST our_APPGE father_NN1 lacked_VVD ,_, for_CS he_PPHS1 simply_RR did_VDD not_XX have_VHI enough_DD time_NNT1 at_II his_APPGE disposal_NN1 to_TO be_VBI patient_JJ ,_, to_TO stand_VVI there_RL and_CC puzzle_VVI out_RP what_DDQ it_PPH1 was_VBDZ about_II his_APPGE business_NN1 card_NN1 that_CST we_PPIS2 did_VDD not_XX understand_VVI ._. 
Instead_RR ,_, he_PPHS1 went_VVD quietly_RR off_RP to_II his_APPGE study_NN1 to_TO make_VVI telephone_NN1 calls_NN2 ,_, and_CC the_AT next_MD day_NNT1 ,_, I_PPIS1 asked_VVD Ilsa_NP1 what_DDQ a_AT1 czar_NN1 was_VBDZ ,_, spelling_VVG the_AT word_NN1 out_RP because_CS I_PPIS1 could_VM not_XX imagine_VVI how_RRQ to_TO pronounce_VVI a_AT1 c_ZZ1 and_CC z_ZZ1 together_RL ,_, but_CCB she_PPHS1 said_VVD that_CST they_PPHS2 were_VBDR people_NN who_PNQS lived_VVD in_II Russia_NP1 ,_, royalty_NN1 ,_, which_DDQ made_VVD no_AT sense_NN1 ._. 
Ilsa_NP1 often_RR spent_VVN evenings_NNT2 with_IW us_PPIO2 as_RR21 well_RR22 ,_, for_IF our_APPGE parents_NN2 kept_VVD an_AT1 intense_JJ social_JJ calendar_NN1 ,_, attending_VVG dinners_NN2 that_CST were_VBDR ,_, my_APPGE mother_NN1 explained_VVD ,_, an_AT1 extension_NN1 of_IO what_DDQ she_PPHS1 did_VDD all_DB day_NNT1 long_VVI ,_, but_CCB in_II more_RGR elegant_JJ clothing_NN1 ._. 
Ilsa_NP1 wore_VVD perfume_NN1 when_CS she_PPHS1 came_VVD at_II night_NNT1 ,_, and_CC while_CS neither_RR Martin_NP1 nor_CC I_PPIS1 liked_VVD the_AT smell_NN1 ,_, we_PPIS2 appreciated_VVD the_AT gesture_NN1 ,_, the_AT implication_NN1 that_CST she_PPHS1 thought_VVD of_IO being_VBG with_IW us_PPIO2 as_II an_AT1 evening_NNT1 out_RP ._. 
She_PPHS1 also_RR brought_VVD popsicles_NN2 ,_, which_DDQ she_PPHS1 hid_VVD in_II her_APPGE purse_NN1 because_CS our_APPGE parents_NN2 did_VDD not_XX approve_VVI of_IO popsicles_NN2 ,_, though_CS often_RR she_PPHS1 forgot_VVD about_II them_PPHO2 until_CS long_RR after_CS they_PPHS2 had_VHD melted_VVN ,_, and_CC when_RRQ she_PPHS1 finally_RR did_VDD remember_VVI and_CC pulled_VVD them_PPHO2 out_RP ,_, the_AT seams_NN2 of_IO the_AT packages_NN2 oozing_VVG blue_JJ or_CC red_JJ ,_, our_APPGE two_MC favorite_JJ flavors_NN2 ,_, she_PPHS1 would_VM look_VVI dismayed_JJ for_IF just_RR a_AT1 moment_NN1 before_II announcing_VVG ,_, "_" Not_XX to_TO worry_VVI ,_, my_APPGE young_JJ charges_NN2 ._. 
We_PPIS2 shall_VM pop_VVI them_PPHO2 in_II the_AT freezer_NN1 ,_, and_CC they_PPHS2 will_VM be_VBI as_RG good_JJ as_CSA new_JJ ._. "_" 
Of_RR21 course_RR22 ,_, they_PPHS2 never_RR were_VBDR as_RG good_JJ as_CSA new_JJ but_CCB were_VBDR instead_RR like_II popsicles_NN2 that_CST had_VHD melted_VVN and_CC been_VBN refrozen_JJ --_JJ shapeless_JJ with_IW a_AT1 thick_JJ ,_, gummy_JJ coating_NN1 ._. 
We_PPIS2 ate_VVD them_PPHO2 anyway_RR because_CS we_PPIS2 did_VDD not_XX want_VVI to_TO hurt_VVI Ilsa_NP1 's_GE feelings_NN2 ,_, which_DDQ we_PPIS2 thought_VVD of_IO as_RG more_RGR real_JJ ,_, more_RGR fragile_JJ ,_, than_CSN other_JJ people_NN 's_GE feelings_NN2 ._. 
Most_DAT afternoons_NNT2 ,_, the_AT three_MC of_IO us_PPIO2 visited_VVD the_AT park_NN1 near_II our_APPGE house_NN1 ._. 
Though_CS it_PPH1 was_VBDZ only_RR four_MC blocks_NN2 away_RL ,_, Ilsa_NP1 inevitably_RR began_VVD to_TO cry_VVI at_II some_DD point_NN1 during_II the_AT walk_NN1 ,_, her_APPGE emotions_NN2 stirred_VVN by_II any_DD number_NN1 of_IO things_NN2 ,_, which_DDQ she_PPHS1 loosely_RR identified_VVN as_CSA death_NN1 ,_, beauty_NN1 ,_, and_CC inhumanity_NN1 :_: the_AT bugs_NN2 caught_VVN in_II the_AT grilles_NN2 of_IO the_AT cars_NN2 that_CST we_PPIS2 passed_VVD (_( death_NN1 )_) ;_; two_MC loose_JJ dogs_NN2 humping_VVG on_II the_AT sidewalk_NN1 across_II our_APPGE path_NN1 (_( beauty_NN1 )_) ;_; and_CC the_AT owners_NN2 who_PNQS finally_RR caught_VVN up_RP with_IW them_PPHO2 and_CC forced_VVN them_PPHO2 apart_RL before_CS they_PPHS2 were_VBDR finished_VVN (_( inhumanity_NN1 )_) ._. 
We_PPIS2 were_VBDR not_XX used_JJ to_II adults_NN2 who_PNQS cried_VVD freely_RR or_CC openly_RR ,_, for_IF this_DD1 was_VBDZ Minnesota_NP1 ,_, where_RRQ people_NN guarded_VVN their_APPGE emotions_NN2 ,_, a_AT1 tradition_NN1 in_II which_DDQ Martin_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 had_VHD been_VBN well_RR schooled_VVN ._. 
Ilsa_NP1 ,_, while_CS she_PPHS1 was_VBDZ from_II here_RL ,_, was_VBDZ not_XX ,_, as_CSA my_APPGE mother_NN1 was_VBDZ fond_JJ of_IO saying_VVG ,_, of_IO here_RL ,_, which_DDQ meant_VVD that_CST she_PPHS1 did_VDD not_XX become_VVI impatient_JJ or_CC embarrassed_JJ when_CS we_PPIS2 occasionally_RR cried_VVD as_RR21 well_RR22 ._. 
In_II fact_NN1 ,_, she_PPHS1 encouraged_VVD it_PPH1 ._. 
Still_RR ,_, I_PPIS1 was_VBDZ never_RR comfortable_JJ when_CS it_PPH1 happened_VVD and_CC did_VDD not_XX want_VVI attention_NN1 paid_VVD me_PPIO1 over_II it_PPH1 --_JJ unlike_JJ Ilsa_NP1 ,_, who_PNQS sank_VVD to_II the_AT ground_NN1 and_CC sobbed_VVD while_CS Martin_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 sat_VVD on_II either_DD1 side_NN1 of_IO her_PPHO1 ,_, holding_VVG her_APPGE hands_NN2 or_CC resting_NN1 ours_PPGE on_II her_PPHO1 back_RP ._. 
"_" But_CCB it_PPH1 's_VBZ his_APPGE bank_NN1 ,_, "_" I_PPIS1 replied_VVD ._. 
"_" Yes_UH ,_, "_" said_VVD my_APPGE father_NN1 ._. 
"_" But_CCB the_AT money_NN1 is_VBZ not_XX his_PPGE ._. 
It_PPH1 belongs_VVZ to_II the_AT people_NN who_PNQS use_VV0 the_AT bank_NN1 ,_, who_PNQS put_VVD their_APPGE money_NN1 there_RL so_CS21 that_CS22 it_PPH1 will_VM be_VBI safe_JJ ._. "_" 
Again_RT ,_, we_PPIS2 nodded_VVD ,_, for_CS we_PPIS2 understood_VVD this_DD1 about_II banks_NN2 ._. 
In_II fact_NN1 ,_, we_PPIS2 both_DB2 had_VHD our_APPGE own_DA accounts_NN2 at_II the_AT bank_NN1 ,_, where_CS we_PPIS2 kept_VVD the_AT money_NN1 that_CST we_PPIS2 received_VVD for_IF our_APPGE birthdays_NN2 ._. 
"_" He_PPHS1 stole_VVD money_NN1 ?_? "_" 
I_PPIS1 asked_VVD ,_, for_IF that_DD1 is_VBZ how_RRQ it_PPH1 sounded_VVD ,_, and_CC I_PPIS1 wanted_VVD to_TO be_VBI sure_JJ ._. 
"_" Well_RR ,_, "_" said_VVD my_APPGE father_NN1 ._. 
"_" It_PPH1 's_VBZ called_VVN embezzling_VVG ._. "_" 
But_CCB when_CS I_PPIS1 looked_VVD up_RP embezzling_VVG that_DD1 evening_NNT1 ,_, I_PPIS1 discovered_VVD that_CST our_APPGE grandfather_NN1 had_VHD indeed_RR stolen_VVN money_NN1 ._. 
"_" And_CC what_DDQ about_II our_APPGE mother_NN1 ?_? "_" 
Martin_NP1 asked_VVD ._. 
"_" It_PPH1 's_VBZ complicated_JJ ,_, "_" said_VVD our_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, "_" but_CCB they_PPHS2 've_VH0 arrested_VVN her_PPHO1 also_RR ._. "_" 
"_" Arrested_VVN ?_? "_" 
I_PPIS1 said_VVD ,_, for_CS there_EX had_VHD been_VBN no_AT talk_NN1 of_IO arresting_VVG before_II this_DD1 ._. 
"_" Yes_UH ,_, "_" said_VVD my_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, and_CC then_RT he_PPHS1 began_VVD to_TO cry_VVI ._. 
We_PPIS2 had_VHD never_RR seen_VVN our_APPGE father_NN1 cry_NN1 ._. 
He_PPHS1 was_VBDZ ,_, I_PPIS1 learned_VVD that_DD1 day_NNT1 ,_, a_AT1 silent_JJ crier_NN1 ._. 
He_PPHS1 laid_VVD his_APPGE head_NN1 on_II the_AT table_NN1 ,_, his_APPGE arms_NN2 forming_VVG a_AT1 nest_NN1 around_II it_PPH1 ,_, and_CC we_PPIS2 knew_VVD that_CST he_PPHS1 was_VBDZ crying_VVG only_RR because_CS his_APPGE shoulders_NN2 heaved_VVD up_RP and_CC down_RP ._. 
I_PPIS1 sat_VVD very_RG still_RR ,_, not_XX looking_VVG at_II him_PPHO1 because_CS I_PPIS1 did_VDD not_XX know_VVI how_RRQ to_TO think_VVI of_IO him_PPHO1 as_CSA anything_RR21 but_RR22 my_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, instead_RR focusing_VVG on_II the_AT overhead_JJ light_NN1 ,_, waiting_VVG for_IF it_PPH1 to_TO click_VVI ,_, which_DDQ it_PPH1 generally_RR did_VDD every_AT1 thirty_MC seconds_NNT2 or_CC so_RR ._. 
The_AT sound_NN1 was_VBDZ actually_RR somewhere_RL between_II a_AT1 click_NN1 and_CC a_AT1 scratch_NN1 ,_, easy_JJ to_TO hear_VVI but_CCB apparently_RR difficult_JJ to_TO fix_VVI ,_, for_IF numerous_JJ electricians_NN2 had_VHD been_VBN called_VVN in_RP to_TO do_VDI so_RR and_CC had_VHD failed_VVN ._. 
I_PPIS1 had_VHD always_RR complained_VVN mightily_RR about_II the_AT clicking_NN1 ,_, which_DDQ prevented_VVD me_PPIO1 from_II concentrating_VVG on_II my_APPGE homework_NN1 ,_, but_CCB that_DD1 day_NNT1 as_CSA I_PPIS1 sat_VVD at_II the_AT table_NN1 with_IW my_APPGE weeping_JJ father_NN1 and_CC Martin_NP1 ,_, the_AT light_NN1 was_VBDZ silent_JJ ,_, unexpectedly_RR and_CC overwhelmingly_RR silent_JJ ._. 
Then_RT ,_, without_IW first_MD consulting_VVG me_PPIO1 with_IW his_APPGE eyes_NN2 ,_, our_APPGE custom_NN1 in_II matters_NN2 relating_VVG to_II our_APPGE parents_NN2 ,_, Martin_NP1 slipped_VVD from_II his_APPGE chair_NN1 and_CC stood_VVD next_II21 to_II22 my_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, and_CC ,_, after_CS a_AT1 moment_NN1 ,_, placed_VVN a_AT1 hand_NN1 on_II my_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE shoulder_NN1 ._. 
In_II those_DD2 days_NNT2 ,_, Martin_NP1 's_GE hands_NN2 were_VBDR unusually_RR plump_JJ ,_, at_II odds_NN2 with_IW the_AT rest_NN1 of_IO his_APPGE body_NN1 ,_, and_CC from_II where_RRQ I_PPIS1 sat_VVD ,_, directly_RR across_RL from_II my_APPGE father_NN1 ,_, Martin_NP1 's_GE hand_NN1 looked_VVN like_II a_AT1 fat_NN1 ,_, white_JJ bullfrog_NN1 perched_VVN on_II my_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE shoulder_NN1 ._. 
My_APPGE father_NN1 's_VBZ sobbing_VVG turned_VVN audible_JJ ,_, a_AT1 high-pitched_JJ whimper_NN1 like_II a_AT1 dog_NN1 makes_VVZ when_RRQ left_JJ alone_JJ in_II a_AT1 car_NN1 ,_, and_CC then_RT quickly_RR flattened_VVN out_RP and_CC stopped_VVN ._. 
"_" It_PPH1 will_VM be_VBI okay_JJ ,_, "_" Martin_NP1 said_VVD ,_, rubbing_VVG my_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE shoulder_NN1 with_IW his_APPGE fat_NN1 ,_, white_JJ hand_NN1 ,_, and_CC my_APPGE father_NN1 sat_VVD up_RP and_CC nodded_VVD several_DA2 times_NNT2 in_II rapid_JJ succession_NN1 ,_, gulping_VVG as_CS21 though_CS22 he_PPHS1 had_VHD been_VBN underwater_RL ._. 
But_CCB it_PPH1 would_VM not_XX be_VBI okay_JJ ._. 
After_CS a_AT1 very_RG long_JJ trial_NN1 ,_, my_APPGE mother_NN1 went_VVD to_TO jail_VVI ,_, eight_MC years_NNT2 with_IW the_AT possibility_NN1 of_IO parole_NN1 after_II six_MC ._. 
My_APPGE grandfather_NN1 was_VBDZ put_VVN on_II trial_NN1 as_CSA well_RR ,_, but_CCB he_PPHS1 died_VVD of_IO a_AT1 heart_NN1 attack_NN1 on_II the_AT second_MD day_NNT1 ,_, leaving_VVG my_APPGE mother_NN1 to_TO face_VVI the_AT jury_NN1 and_CC crowded_JJ courtroom_NN1 alone_RR ._. 
Her_APPGE lawyers_NN2 wanted_VVD to_TO blame_VVI everything_PN1 on_II him_PPHO1 ,_, arguing_VVG that_CST he_PPHS1 was_VBDZ dead_JJ and_CC thus_RR unable_JK to_TO deny_VVI the_AT charges_NN2 or_CC be_VBI punished_VVN ,_, advice_NN1 that_CST my_APPGE mother_NN1 resisted_VVN until_CS it_PPH1 became_VVD clear_JJ that_CST she_PPHS1 might_VM be_VBI facing_VVG an_AT1 even_RR longer_JJR sentence_NN1 ._. 
Martin_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 learned_VVD all_DB of_IO this_DD1 from_II the_AT newspaper_NN1 ,_, which_DDQ we_PPIS2 were_VBDR not_XX supposed_JJ to_TO read_VVI but_CCB did_VDD ,_, and_CC from_II the_AT taunts_NN2 hurled_VVN at_II us_PPIO2 by_II children_NN2 who_PNQS used_VMK to_TO be_VBI our_APPGE friends_NN2 but_CCB were_VBDR no_RR21 longer_RR22 allowed_VVN to_TO play_VVI with_IW us_PPIO2 because_CS many_DA2 of_IO their_APPGE parents_NN2 had_VHD money_NN1 in_II my_APPGE grandfather_NN1 's_GE bank_NN1 and_CC even_RR those_DD2 who_PNQS did_VDD n't_XX felt_VVN that_CST my_APPGE mother_NN1 had_VHD betrayed_VVN the_AT entire_JJ community_NN1 ._. 
We_PPIS2 missed_VVD her_PPHO1 terribly_RR in_II the_AT beginning_NN1 ,_, my_APPGE father_NN1 most_DAT of_IO all_DB ,_, though_CS I_PPIS1 believe_VV0 that_CST he_PPHS1 grieved_VVD not_XX at_II being_VBG separated_VVN from_II her_PPHO1 but_CCB because_CS the_AT person_NN1 she_PPHS1 was_VBDZ ,_, or_CC that_CST he_PPHS1 had_VHD thought_VVN she_PPHS1 was_VBDZ ,_, no_RR21 longer_RR22 existed_VVD ,_, which_DDQ meant_VVD that_CST he_PPHS1 grieved_VVD almost_RR as_CS21 though_CS22 she_PPHS1 were_VBDR dead_JJ ._. 
Of_RR21 course_RR22 ,_, as_CSA Ilsa_NP1 walked_VVD us_PPIO2 home_RL from_II her_APPGE cottage_NN1 that_DD1 day_NNT1 ,_, we_PPIS2 had_VHD no_AT inkling_NN1 of_IO what_DDQ lay_VV0 ahead_RL ,_, no_AT way_NN1 of_IO knowing_VVG that_CST the_AT familiar_JJ terrain_NN1 of_IO our_APPGE childhoods_NN2 would_VM soon_RR become_VVI a_AT1 vast_JJ ,_, unmarked_JJ landscape_NN1 in_II which_DDQ we_PPIS2 would_VM be_VBI left_VVN to_TO wander_VVI ,_, motherless_JJ and_CC ,_, it_PPH1 seemed_VVD to_II us_PPIO2 at_II times_NNT2 ,_, fatherless_JJ as_RR21 well_RR22 ._. 
Rather_RR ,_, as_CSA we_PPIS2 walked_VVD along_RP holding_VVG hands_NN2 with_IW Ilsa_NP1 ,_, our_APPGE concerns_NN2 were_VBDR immediate_JJ ._. 
I_PPIS1 fretted_VVD aloud_RR that_CST our_APPGE parents_NN2 would_VM be_VBI angry_JJ ,_, but_CCB Ilsa_NP1 assured_VVD me_PPIO1 that_CST they_PPHS2 were_VBDR more_RGR likely_JJ to_TO be_VBI worried_VVN ,_, and_CC though_CS I_PPIS1 did_VDD not_XX like_VVI the_AT idea_NN1 of_IO worrying_VVG them_PPHO2 ,_, it_PPH1 seemed_VVD far_RR preferable_JJ to_II their_APPGE anger_NN1 ._. 
There_EX was_VBDZ also_RR the_AT matter_NN1 of_IO Ilsa_NP1 herself_PPX1 ,_, Ilsa_NP1 ,_, who_PNQS ,_, even_RR with_IW her_APPGE hat_NN1 on_RP ,_, seemed_VVD unfamiliar_JJ ,_, and_CC so_RR Martin_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 worked_VVD desperately_RR to_TO interest_VVI her_PPHO1 in_II the_AT things_NN2 that_CST we_PPIS2 saw_VVD around_II us_PPIO2 ,_, things_NN2 that_CST would_VM have_VHI normally_RR moved_VVN her_PPHO1 to_II tears_NN2 but_CCB which_DDQ she_PPHS1 now_RT seemed_VVD hardly_RR to_TO notice_VVI ._. 
Across_II our_APPGE path_NN1 was_VBDZ a_AT1 snail_NN1 that_CST had_VHD presumably_RR been_VBN wooed_VVN out_RP onto_II the_AT sidewalk_NN1 during_II the_AT previous_JJ day_NNT1 's_GE rain_NN1 and_CC crushed_VVN to_II bits_NN2 by_II passersby_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 stopped_VVD and_CC pointed_VVD to_II it_PPH1 ,_, waiting_VVG for_IF her_PPHO1 to_TO cry_VVI out_RP ,_, "_" Death_NN1 ,_, be_VBI not_XX proud_JJ !_! "_" and_CC then_RT to_TO squeeze_VVI her_APPGE eyes_NN2 shut_VVN while_CS allowing_VVG us_PPIO2 to_TO lead_VVI her_PPHO1 safely_RR past_II it_PPH1 ,_, but_CCB she_PPHS1 glanced_VVD at_II the_AT crushed_JJ bits_NN2 with_IW no_AT more_DAR interest_NN1 than_CSN she_PPHS1 would_VM have_VHI shown_VVN a_AT1 discarded_JJ candy_NN1 wrapper_NN1 ._. 
As_CSA we_PPIS2 neared_VVD our_APPGE house_NN1 ,_, I_PPIS1 could_VM see_VVI my_APPGE father_NN1 's_GE car_NN1 in_II the_AT driveway_NN1 ._. 
"_" Can_VM we_PPIS2 visit_VVI you_PPY again_RT ,_, Ilsa_NP1 ?_? "_" 
I_PPIS1 asked_VVD ,_, turning_VVG to_II her_PPHO1 ._. 
"_" I_PPIS1 am_VBM afraid_JJ that_CST will_VM not_XX be_VBI possible_JJ ,_, children_NN2 ,_, "_" she_PPHS1 said_VVD ._. 
"_" You_PPY see_VV0 ,_, I_PPIS1 will_VM be_VBI setting_VVG off_RP very_RG soon_RR --_JJ really_RR any_DD day_NNT1 now_RT --_JJ on_II a_AT1 long_JJ journey_NN1 ._. 
I_PPIS1 suspect_VV0 that_CST I_PPIS1 may_VM be_VBI gone_VVN for_IF quite_RG some_DD time_NNT1 ._. "_" 
"_" Are_VBR you_PPY going_VVGK to_TO see_VVI the_AT ocean_NN1 ?_? "_" 
I_PPIS1 asked_VVD ._. 
At_II that_DD1 time_NNT1 in_II my_APPGE life_NN1 I_PPIS1 could_VM not_XX imagine_VVI anything_PN1 more_RGR terrifying_JJ than_CSN the_AT ocean_NN1 ,_, which_DDQ I_PPIS1 knew_VVD about_II only_RR from_II maps_NN2 and_CC school_NN1 and_CC movies_NN2 ._. 
"_" Yes_UH ,_, "_" she_PPHS1 said_VVD after_II giving_VVG the_AT question_NN1 some_DD thought_NN1 ._. 
"_" As_II a_AT1 matter_JJ31 of_JJ32 fact_JJ33 ,_, I_PPIS1 believe_VV0 that_CST I_PPIS1 will_VM see_VVI the_AT ocean_NN1 ._. 
Have_VH0 you_PPY ever_RR seen_VVN the_AT ocean_NN1 ,_, children_NN2 ?_? "_" 
Martin_NP1 and_CC I_PPIS1 replied_VVD that_CST we_PPIS2 had_VHD not_XX ._. 
"_" But_CCB you_PPY must_VM ,_, "_" she_PPHS1 said_VVD gravely_RR ._. 
"_" You_PPY absolutely_RR must_VM see_VVI the_AT ocean_NN1 ._. "_" 
"_" Why_RRQ ?_? "_" 
I_PPIS1 asked_VVD ,_, both_RR frightened_VVN and_CC encouraged_VVN by_II her_APPGE tone_NN1 ._. 
"_" Why_RRQ must_VM we_PPIS2 ?_? "_" 
"_" Well_RR ,_, "_" she_PPHS1 said_VVD after_II a_AT1 moment_NN1 ._. 
"_" However_RR can_VM you_PPY expect_VVI to_TO understand_VVI the_AT bigness_NN1 of_IO the_AT world_NN1 if_CS you_PPY do_VD0 not_XX see_VVI the_AT ocean_NN1 ?_? "_" 
"_" Is_VBZ there_EX no_AT other_JJ way_NN1 ?_? "_" 
Martin_NP1 asked_VVD ._. 
"_" I_PPIS1 suppose_VV0 there_EX are_VBR other_JJ ways_NN2 ,_, "_" Ilsa_NP1 conceded_VVD ._. 
"_" Though_CS certainly_RR the_AT ocean_NN1 is_VBZ the_AT most_RGT effective_JJ ._. "_" 
"_" But_CCB why_RRQ must_VM we_PPIS2 understand_VVI the_AT bigness_NN1 of_IO the_AT world_NN1 ?_? "_" 
I_PPIS1 asked_VVD ._. 
We_PPIS2 were_VBDR in_II31 front_II32 of_II33 our_APPGE house_NN1 by_II then_RT ,_, and_CC Ilsa_NP1 stopped_VVD and_CC looked_VVN at_II us_PPIO2 ._. 
"_" My_APPGE dear_JJ Martin_NP1 and_CC Veronica_NP1 ,_, "_" she_PPHS1 said_VVD in_II the_AT high_JJ ,_, quivery_JJ voice_NN1 that_CST we_PPIS2 had_VHD been_VBN longing_VVG for_IF ._. 
"_" I_PPIS1 know_VV0 it_PPH1 may_VM sound_VVI frightening_JJ ,_, yet_RR I_PPIS1 assure_VV0 you_PPY that_CST there_EX have_VH0 been_VBN times_NNT2 in_II my_APPGE life_NN1 when_CS the_AT bigness_NN1 of_IO the_AT world_NN1 was_VBDZ my_APPGE only_JJ consolation_NN1 ._. "_" 
Then_RT ,_, she_PPHS1 gave_VVD us_PPIO2 each_DD1 a_AT1 small_JJ kiss_NN1 on_II the_AT forehead_NN1 ,_, and_CC we_PPIS2 watched_VVD her_PPHO1 go_VV0 ,_, her_APPGE gait_NN1 unsteady_JJ like_II that_DD1 of_IO someone_PN1 thinking_VVG too_RG much_DA1 about_II the_AT simple_JJ act_NN1 of_IO walking_NN1 ,_, her_APPGE white_JJ hat_NN1 bobbing_VVG like_II a_AT1 sail_NN1 ._. 
At_II the_AT corner_NN1 she_PPHS1 stopped_VVD and_CC turned_VVD ,_, and_CC seeing_VVG us_PPIO2 there_RL still_RR ,_, called_VVN ,_, "_" In_II you_PPY go_VV0 ,_, children_NN2 ._. 
Your_APPGE parents_NN2 will_VM be_VBI waiting_VVG ,_, "_" so_CS21 that_CS22 these_DD2 were_VBDR Ilsa_NP1 's_GE final_JJ words_NN2 to_II us_PPIO2 --_JJ ordinary_JJ and_CC rushed_VVD and_CC ,_, as_CSA we_PPIS2 would_VM soon_RR discover_VVI ,_, untrue_JJ ._. 
