<time>439_00:15:14,082 --> 00:15:15,162</time>
<s>如果再选一遍呢</s>
<time>440_00:15:15,522 --> 00:15:15,882</time>
<s>你还会做运动员吗</s>
<time>441_00:15:16,962 --> 00:15:18,042</time>
<s>我其实没有想过这样的问题</s>
<time>442_00:15:18,762 --> 00:15:20,922</time>
<s>但是我一直挺庆幸自己</s>
<time>443_00:15:21,282 --> 00:15:22,002</time>
<s>有这个机会的</s>
<time>444_00:15:23,082 --> 00:15:24,882</time>
<s>然后我又很幸运在这里边</s>
<time>445_00:15:25,242 --> 00:15:28,482</time>
<s>算是某种程度的成功者</s>
<time>446_00:15:28,842 --> 00:15:29,562</time>
<s>你是个巨大的成功者</s>
<time>447_00:15:30,282 --> 00:15:31,362</time>
<s>我不能把自己太“凡尔赛”了</s>
<time>448_00:15:32,802 --> 00:15:34,242</time>
<s>但是我还是挺幸运的</s>
<time>449_00:15:34,602 --> 00:15:34,962</time>
<s>所以</s>
<time>450_00:15:36,042 --> 00:15:36,402</time>
<s>我总觉有的时候</s>
<time>451_00:15:36,762 --> 00:15:37,842</time>
<s>你要相信自己</s>
<time>452_00:15:38,562 --> 00:15:39,642</time>
<s>可以发挥更大作用</s>
<time>453_00:15:45,042 --> 00:15:45,402</time>
<s>有的时候你要告诉自己</s>
<time>454_00:15:45,762 --> 00:15:46,482</time>
<s>还是很特别的</s>
<time>455_00:15:46,842 --> 00:15:47,922</time>
<s>你能做到别人做不到的事儿</s>
<time>456_00:15:48,642 --> 00:15:50,442</time>
<s>就是不是他们眼里</s>
<time>457_00:15:50,802 --> 00:15:51,882</time>
<s>看到的那点能量</s>
<time>458_00:15:52,602 --> 00:15:53,322</time>
<s>然后有的时候</s>
<time>459_00:15:53,682 --> 00:15:54,402</time>
<s>你还要告诉自己</s>
<time>460_00:15:55,842 --> 00:15:57,282</time>
<s>没你这地球照样转</s>
<time>461_00:16:10,962 --> 00:16:11,322</time>
<s>我们下来就行了吧</s>
<time>462_00:16:11,682 --> 00:16:12,042</time>
<s>下来就行</s>
<time>463_00:16:12,402 --> 00:16:13,122</time>
<s>我们冰场的</s>
<time>464_00:16:14,562 --> 00:16:14,922</time>
<s>冰场的</s>
<time>465_00:16:15,282 --> 00:16:15,642</time>
<s>到冰场干嘛</s>
<time>466_00:16:16,362 --> 00:16:16,722</time>
<s>冰场工作激</s>
<time>467_00:16:17,082 --> 00:16:17,802</time>
<s>我是冰场的</s>
<time>468_00:16:18,522 --> 00:16:19,242</time>
<s>这不是杨扬嘛</s>
<time>469_00:16:20,682 --> 00:16:21,402</time>
<s>谢谢</s>
<time>470_00:16:22,122 --> 00:16:23,562</time>
<s>刚应该拍下那个反应</s>
<time>471_00:16:23,922 --> 00:16:24,282</time>
<s>多好</s>
<time>472_00:16:25,362 --> 00:16:26,442</time>
<s>我前两天在组委会</s>
<time>473_00:16:27,162 --> 00:16:27,882</time>
<s>也是被保安拦住了</s>
<time>474_00:16:28,242 --> 00:16:29,322</time>
<s>后来我跟那个保安说</s>
<time>475_00:16:29,682 --> 00:16:30,402</time>
<s>我是组委会的</s>
<time>476_00:16:30,762 --> 00:16:31,482</time>
<s>他说那工作卡呢</s>
<time>477_00:16:31,842 --> 00:16:33,282</time>
<s>我说我今天没带</s>
<time>478_00:16:33,642 --> 00:16:34,002</time>
<s>然后</s>
<time>479_00:16:35,082 --> 00:16:36,522</time>
<s>我就等着那个部门的</s>
<time>480_00:16:36,882 --> 00:16:37,602</time>
<s>过来接我嘛</s>
<time>481_00:16:37,962 --> 00:16:39,402</time>
<s>后来我就特别自信地跟他说</s>
<time>482_00:16:39,762 --> 00:16:40,842</time>
<s>我说我是杨扬</s>
<time>483_00:16:41,922 --> 00:16:42,642</time>
<s>他搁那儿看着我</s>
<time>484_00:16:43,002 --> 00:16:43,362</time>
<s>报大名儿</s>
<time>485_00:16:47,322 --> 00:16:47,682</time>
<s>然后</s>
<time>486_00:16:48,402 --> 00:16:48,762</time>
<s>因为很久没听到</s>
<time>487_00:16:49,122 --> 00:16:50,562</time>
<s>大名的概念了</s>
<time>488_00:16:50,922 --> 00:16:51,642</time>
<s>我说什么意思</s>
<time>489_00:16:52,002 --> 00:16:52,722</time>
<s>说大名</s>
<time>490_00:16:53,082 --> 00:16:53,802</time>
<s>然后我就笑得不行</s>
<time>491_00:16:54,162 --> 00:16:55,242</time>
<s>正好我们组委会过来人接</s>
<time>492_00:16:56,682 --> 00:16:57,402</time>
<s>他让我去登记</s>
<time>493_00:16:57,762 --> 00:16:58,122</time>
<s>然后我写完以后</s>
<time>494_00:16:58,482 --> 00:16:59,202</time>
<s>他瞄了一眼</s>
<time>495_00:16:59,562 --> 00:17:00,282</time>
<s>写大名啊</s>
<time>496_00:17:01,002 --> 00:17:02,082</time>
<s>特别提示了我一下</s>
<time>497_00:17:03,522 --> 00:17:03,882</time>
<s>好可爱</s>
<time>498_00:17:04,242 --> 00:17:04,602</time>
<s>特别可爱</s>
<time>499_00:17:05,682 --> 00:17:06,402</time>
<s>在这冰场多久了</s>
<time>500_00:17:07,122 --> 00:17:07,842</time>
<s>八年</s>
<time>501_00:17:08,922 --> 00:17:10,722</time>
<s>我们来的时候还是个坑呢</s>
<time>502_00:17:11,082 --> 00:17:12,522</time>
<s>开始挖的时候就过来了</s>
<time>503_00:17:13,962 --> 00:17:14,682</time>
<s>我那时候怀孕</s>
<time>504_00:17:15,042 --> 00:17:16,482</time>
<s>我儿子九岁嘛</s>
<time>505_00:17:16,842 --> 00:17:17,562</time>
<s>所以</s>
<time>506_00:17:17,922 --> 00:17:19,361</time>
<s>我记得是八个月的大肚子</s>
<time>507_00:17:19,722 --> 00:17:20,442</time>
<s>还跟他们上工地</s>
<time>508_00:17:22,602 --> 00:17:22,962</time>
<s>这边吧</s>
<time>509_00:17:24,042 --> 00:17:25,122</time>
<s>其实我们做冰场</s>
<time>510_00:17:25,482 --> 00:17:25,842</time>
<s>蛮苦的一个事儿</s>
<time>511_00:17:26,202 --> 00:17:27,642</time>
<s>包括前几年体育产业热</s>
<time>512_00:17:28,002 --> 00:17:28,722</time>
<s>（别人说）你们去做</s>
<time>513_00:17:29,081 --> 00:17:29,802</time>
<s>体育投资多好</s>
<time>514_00:17:31,602 --> 00:17:31,962</time>
<s>做</s>
<time>515_00:17:32,682 --> 00:17:33,042</time>
<s>做甲方</s>
<time>516_00:17:33,401 --> 00:17:33,762</time>
<s>对</s>
<time>517_00:17:34,122 --> 00:17:35,202</time>
<s>干这种体力活是吧</s>
<time>518_00:17:35,562 --> 00:17:37,722</time>
<s>实际上我们这个是个服务行业</s>
<time>519_00:17:38,442 --> 00:17:39,162</time>
<s>但是</s>
<time>520_00:17:39,521 --> 00:17:40,962</time>
<s>我还是很庆幸做了这个事儿</s>
<time>521_00:17:42,042 --> 00:17:42,762</time>
<s>正因为如此</s>
<time>522_00:17:43,121 --> 00:17:44,202</time>
<s>我觉得对我在国际组织的工作</s>
<time>523_00:17:44,562 --> 00:17:45,282</time>
<s>都有很大的帮助</s>
<time>524_00:17:45,642 --> 00:17:47,081</time>
<s>因为你做了很接地气的事儿</s>
<time>525_00:17:47,442 --> 00:17:48,882</time>
<s>你知道现实是啥样的</s>
<time>526_00:17:49,242 --> 00:17:51,042</time>
<s>所以在你工作层面上</s>
<time>527_00:17:51,402 --> 00:17:52,482</time>
<s>你提出一些意见和建议</s>
<time>528_00:17:52,842 --> 00:17:53,562</time>
<s>就比较接地气</s>
<time>529_00:17:53,922 --> 00:17:54,282</time>
<s>对</s>
<time>530_00:17:56,082 --> 00:17:56,442</time>
<s>所以还得干点具体的事儿了</s>
<time>531_00:17:57,162 --> 00:17:57,521</time>
<s>这边</s>
<time>532_00:17:58,601 --> 00:17:59,682</time>
<s>现在是我们俱乐部的学员</s>
<time>533_00:18:00,402 --> 00:18:00,762</time>
<s>你看一眼</s>
<time>534_00:18:15,161 --> 00:18:15,882</time>
<s>真好看她们滑得</s>
<time>535_00:18:16,242 --> 00:18:16,602</time>
<s>对</s>
<time>536_00:18:17,682 --> 00:18:18,042</time>
<s>她们比你小时候</s>
<time>537_00:18:18,402 --> 00:18:19,482</time>
<s>那些条件好太多了</s>
<time>538_00:18:20,202 --> 00:18:21,642</time>
<s>我们小时候是在河上</s>
<time>539_00:18:22,002 --> 00:18:22,722</time>
<s>在河上滑对</s>
<time>540_00:18:23,802 --> 00:18:24,522</time>
<s>她们真的是喜欢</s>
<time>541_00:18:25,602 --> 00:18:25,962</time>
<s>我们那时候因为</s>
<time>542_00:18:26,682 --> 00:18:27,402</time>
<s>是被动地训练嘛</s>
<time>543_00:18:27,762 --> 00:18:28,121</time>
<s>即便你喜欢</s>
<time>544_00:18:28,482 --> 00:18:29,562</time>
<s>你都不知道自已喜欢了</s>
<time>545_00:18:39,282 --> 00:18:39,642</time>
<s>就体育它其实</s>
<time>546_00:18:40,002 --> 00:18:41,082</time>
<s>在跟着社会发展</s>
<time>547_00:18:41,442 --> 00:18:42,882</time>
<s>去发生角色变化的</s>
<time>548_00:18:43,242 --> 00:18:43,962</time>
<s>五十年代的时候</s>
<time>549_00:18:44,322 --> 00:18:46,121</time>
<s>我们讲的是叫</s>
<time>550_00:18:47,202 --> 00:18:47,562</time>
<s>发展体育运动</s>
<time>551_00:18:47,922 --> 00:18:48,282</time>
<s>增强人民体质</s>
<time>552_00:18:48,642 --> 00:18:49,722</time>
<s>锻炼身体保卫祖国</s>
<time>553_00:18:50,802 --> 00:18:51,882</time>
<s>七十年代末有乒乓外交</s>
<time>554_00:18:52,602 --> 00:18:53,322</time>
<s>然后八十年代</s>
<time>555_00:18:53,682 --> 00:18:54,042</time>
<s>我们喊出了</s>
<time>556_00:18:54,402 --> 00:18:55,482</time>
<s>冲出亚洲走向世界</s>
<time>557_00:18:56,202 --> 00:18:58,361</time>
<s>你就是在冲出亚洲走向世界</s>
<time>558_00:18:58,722 --> 00:18:59,082</time>
<s>这个口号下成长起来的</s>
<time>559_00:18:59,442 --> 00:19:00,522</time>
<s>对成长起来的</s>
<time>560_00:19:01,601 --> 00:19:01,962</time>
<s>九十年代</s>
<time>561_00:19:02,322 --> 00:19:03,042</time>
<s>我们开始申办奥运会</s>
<time>562_00:19:12,042 --> 00:19:13,482</time>
<s>其实我遇到一个最</s>
<time>563_00:19:13,842 --> 00:19:14,202</time>
<s>让我有时候</s>
<time>564_00:19:14,562 --> 00:19:15,282</time>
<s>还挺难受的一个问题</s>
<time>565_00:19:15,642 --> 00:19:17,442</time>
<s>就是我们太被标签化了</s>
<time>566_00:19:17,802 --> 00:19:18,882</time>
<s>我现在刚退役</s>
<time>567_00:19:19,241 --> 00:19:20,322</time>
<s>大家第一个反应都是</s>
<time>568_00:19:20,682 --> 00:19:21,762</time>
<s>你是要做教练吗</s>
<time>569_00:19:22,121 --> 00:19:23,922</time>
<s>或者是你要做帆船培训吗</s>
<time>570_00:19:24,642 --> 00:19:25,362</time>
<s>我们在被定义</s>
<time>571_00:19:25,721 --> 00:19:26,442</time>
<s>我们是一个其实只会</s>
<time>572_00:19:26,802 --> 00:19:27,882</time>
<s>专项技能的人</s>
<time>573_00:19:28,242 --> 00:19:30,402</time>
<s>这个是我自己作为运动员</s>
<time>574_00:19:31,122 --> 00:19:32,202</time>
<s>很难去回避掉的</s>
<time>575_00:19:32,922 --> 00:19:34,722</time>
<s>我来分享一下我的一个经历</s>
<time>576_00:19:35,082 --> 00:19:37,242</time>
<s>当我游泳队退役下来以后</s>
<time>577_00:19:37,602 --> 00:19:38,682</time>
<s>1997年</s>
<time>578_00:19:39,042 --> 00:19:41,202</time>
<s>那个时候不是自己做决定</s>
<time>579_00:19:41,561 --> 00:19:43,002</time>
<s>是爸妈帮你做决定</s>
<time>580_00:19:44,082 --> 00:19:45,882</time>
<s>父母希望你稳定</s>
<time>581_00:19:46,242 --> 00:19:47,682</time>
<s>希望你眼睛睁开来以后</s>
<time>582_00:19:48,042 --> 00:19:49,842</time>
<s>你没有任何一个压力</s>
<time>583_00:19:50,202 --> 00:19:50,562</time>
<s>生存的压力</s>
<time>584_00:19:51,282 --> 00:19:52,722</time>
<s>所以最终我去了公司</s>
<time>585_00:19:53,082 --> 00:19:53,802</time>
<s>COAC然后在里面的话影</s>
<time>586_00:19:54,162 --> 00:19:55,242</time>
<s>所有人都看不起</s>
<time>587_00:19:55,962 --> 00:19:57,401</time>
<s>因为那个时候的运动员</s>
<time>588_00:19:57,762 --> 00:19:59,202</time>
<s>是四肢发达头脑简单</s>
<time>589_00:19:59,562 --> 00:20:00,642</time>
<s>你做错所有事情</s>
<time>590_00:20:01,002 --> 00:20:02,442</time>
<s>人家只会说你是运动员</s>
<time>591_00:20:02,802 --> 00:20:03,522</time>
<s>很正常</s>
<time>592_00:20:04,602 --> 00:20:04,962</time>
<s>所以我想的是说</s>
<time>593_00:20:05,322 --> 00:20:06,042</time>
<s>我继续去考研</s>
<time>594_00:20:07,122 --> 00:20:08,922</time>
<s>我不想说是整个一个单位</s>
<time>595_00:20:09,282 --> 00:20:10,362</time>
<s>就是因为你是体育生转过来</s>
<time>596_00:20:10,722 --> 00:20:12,162</time>
<s>所以你跟我们一个办公室里面</s>
<time>597_00:20:12,522 --> 00:20:13,242</time>
<s>我们都是研究生</s>
<time>598_00:20:13,602 --> 00:20:14,322</time>
<s>就你一个本科</s>
<time>599_00:20:15,042 --> 00:20:15,762</time>
<s>是去上学以后</s>
<time>600_00:20:16,121 --> 00:20:16,842</time>
<s>就不给分配了吗</s>
<time>601_00:20:17,562 --> 00:20:19,362</time>
<s>我们上海退役安置是这样的</s>
<time>602_00:20:19,722 --> 00:20:20,082</time>
<s>一般大部分</s>
<time>603_00:20:20,442 --> 00:20:21,882</time>
<s>选择组织安置的运动员</s>
<time>604_00:20:22,242 --> 00:20:24,762</time>
<s>都不会就是先读书的</s>
<time>605_00:20:25,122 --> 00:20:25,842</time>
<s>都是先就业</s>
<time>606_00:20:26,922 --> 00:20:28,002</time>
<s>今年上海大概</s>
<time>607_00:20:28,722 --> 00:20:30,162</time>
<s>估计有120名运动员</s>
<time>608_00:20:30,522 --> 00:20:31,962</time>
<s>提出退役申请</s>
<time>609_00:20:32,321 --> 00:20:33,402</time>
<s>虽说我们是有组织安置</s>
<time>610_00:20:33,762 --> 00:20:35,561</time>
<s>但现在其实也是越来越难了</s>
<time>611_00:20:35,922 --> 00:20:37,002</time>
<s>不管说公务员事业单位</s>
<time>612_00:20:37,362 --> 00:20:38,442</time>
<s>国有企业来说</s>
<time>613_00:20:38,802 --> 00:20:39,161</time>
<s>明白</s>
<time>614_00:20:44,202 --> 00:20:46,362</time>
<s>很熟悉那个感受</s>
<time>615_00:20:49,242 --> 00:20:49,962</time>
<s>怎么说呢</s>
<time>616_00:20:50,322 --> 00:20:50,682</time>
<s>其实</s>
<time>617_00:20:51,762 --> 00:20:52,842</time>
<s>我是很幸运的</s>
<time>618_00:20:53,202 --> 00:20:55,002</time>
<s>也是因为我拿了金牌</s>
<time>619_00:20:55,362 --> 00:20:56,802</time>
<s>你的安排会好一些</s>
<time>620_00:20:57,882 --> 00:20:58,601</time>
<s>但我特别理解你们</s>
<time>621_00:20:58,962 --> 00:20:59,321</time>
<s>因为我也是这个</s>
<time>622_00:20:59,682 --> 00:21:00,762</time>
<s>这个年龄走过来的嘛</s>
<time>623_00:21:13,361 --> 00:21:14,082</time>
<s>我们找到你那时候</s>
<time>624_00:21:14,442 --> 00:21:15,522</time>
<s>写的日记</s>
<time>625_00:21:15,882 --> 00:21:16,601</time>
<s>这个是很小的时候了</s>
<time>626_00:21:16,962 --> 00:21:18,042</time>
<s>怎样对待苦和累</s>
<time>627_00:21:18,402 --> 00:21:20,562</time>
<s>我应该怎样对待苦与累呢</s>
<time>628_00:21:20,922 --> 00:21:22,362</time>
<s>我想作为一名运动员</s>
<time>629_00:21:22,721 --> 00:21:24,522</time>
<s>就应该不怕苦不怕累</s>
<time>630_00:21:24,882 --> 00:21:25,602</time>
<s>如果又是帕苦</s>
<time>631_00:21:25,962 --> 00:21:26,682</time>
<s>又是怕累的</s>
<time>632_00:21:27,402 --> 00:21:28,121</time>
<s>纵然是一个天才</s>
<time>633_00:21:28,482 --> 00:21:29,922</time>
<s>也会被淘汰的</s>
<time>634_00:21:30,282 --> 00:21:30,641</time>
<s>每当我看见</s>
<time>635_00:21:31,002 --> 00:21:32,442</time>
<s>那些获得金牌的运动员</s>
<time>636_00:21:32,802 --> 00:21:33,882</time>
<s>站在领奖台</s>
<time>637_00:21:34,242 --> 00:21:34,962</time>
<s>激动地哭了</s>
<time>638_00:21:35,322 --> 00:21:37,122</time>
<s>我是多么的羡慕啊</s>
<time>639_00:21:37,842 --> 00:21:39,641</time>
<s>如果我也站在领奖台上</s>
<time>640_00:21:40,002 --> 00:21:42,522</time>
<s>胸前挂着用苦与泪换来的</s>
<time>641_00:21:43,601 --> 00:21:45,042</time>
<s>闪着金光的金牌时</s>
<time>642_00:21:45,402 --> 00:21:46,842</time>
<s>别人也会用美慕的眼光</s>
<time>643_00:21:47,202 --> 00:21:47,922</time>
<s>看着我的</s>
<time>644_00:21:48,281 --> 00:21:50,081</time>
<s>那时我就会有一种自豪感</s>
<time>645_00:21:50,442 --> 00:21:51,162</time>
<s>因为感觉</s>
<time>646_00:21:51,522 --> 00:21:52,962</time>
<s>我是世界土最幸福的人</s>
<time>647_00:21:53,322 --> 00:21:54,042</time>
<s>太可爱了</s>
<time>648_00:21:54,402 --> 00:21:55,121</time>
<s>1987年写的</s>
<time>649_00:21:55,842 --> 00:21:56,202</time>
<s>很有意思</s>
<time>650_00:22:01,242 --> 00:22:03,042</time>
<s>我是一个身体素质一般的</s>
<time>651_00:22:03,402 --> 00:22:03,762</time>
<s>我跑步</s>
<time>652_00:22:04,842 --> 00:22:05,202</time>
<s>跳爆发</s>
<time>653_00:22:05,562 --> 00:22:07,362</time>
<s>都是普通孩子的普通</s>
<time>654_00:22:08,802 --> 00:22:09,882</time>
<s>他看当初看上我</s>
<time>655_00:22:10,602 --> 00:22:12,042</time>
<s>我当时滑得并不快</s>
<time>656_00:22:12,402 --> 00:22:13,842</time>
<s>只是看到一个小孩在冰场上，游</s>
<time>657_00:22:14,202 --> 00:22:15,642</time>
<s>连喊带叫地滑</s>
<time>658_00:22:16,002 --> 00:22:17,081</time>
<s>特别能喊能拼</s>
<time>659_00:22:17,442 --> 00:22:19,242</time>
<s>然后我当时还摔了个跟头</s>
<time>660_00:22:19,601 --> 00:22:20,322</time>
<s>我们教练说这小孩儿</s>
<time>661_00:22:20,682 --> 00:22:21,762</time>
<s>因为一般摔了</s>
<time>662_00:22:22,121 --> 00:22:24,282</time>
<s>成绩就无效了嘛</s>
<time>663_00:22:24,642 --> 00:22:26,082</time>
<s>说我看我摔完了以后</s>
<time>664_00:22:26,442 --> 00:22:28,242</time>
<s>起来还是玩儿命滑</s>
<time>665_00:22:28,602 --> 00:22:29,682</time>
<s>就那个拼劲儿他很欣赏</s>
<time>666_00:22:30,042 --> 00:22:31,122</time>
<s>但感觉就</s>
<time>667_00:22:31,482 --> 00:22:32,562</time>
<s>像那个冰面上那个</s>
<time>668_00:22:32,922 --> 00:22:33,282</time>
<s>小鹿纯子似的是吗</s>
<time>669_00:22:34,361 --> 00:22:35,442</time>
<s>那时候你记得《排球女将》吗</s>
<time>670_00:22:35,802 --> 00:22:36,161</time>
<s>看过</s>
<time>671_00:22:36,522 --> 00:22:37,242</time>
<s>就是受她们的影响</s>
<time>672_00:22:37,602 --> 00:22:37,962</time>
<s>就是受《排球女将》的影响</s>
<time>673_00:22:38,682 --> 00:22:40,122</time>
<s>而且小的时候我爸爸</s>
<time>674_00:22:40,482 --> 00:22:40,842</time>
<s>经常会跟我说</s>
<time>675_00:22:41,202 --> 00:22:42,642</time>
<s>要先吃苦</s>
<time>676_00:22:44,082 --> 00:22:44,802</time>
<s>吃得苦中苦</s>
<time>677_00:22:45,162 --> 00:22:45,882</time>
<s>方为人上人</s>
<time>678_00:22:46,242 --> 00:22:46,962</time>
<s>我们都要学这句</s>
<time>679_00:22:47,322 --> 00:22:48,402</time>
<s>要先苦后甜</s>
<time>680_00:22:48,762 --> 00:22:49,122</time>
<s>那个时候好像这个教育里</s>
<time>681_00:22:49,482 --> 00:22:50,562</time>
<s>对苦有种崇拜</s>
<time>682_00:22:50,922 --> 00:22:51,282</time>
<s>好像你必须要苦</s>
<time>683_00:22:52,002 --> 00:22:52,362</time>
<s>你不能走捷径</s>
<time>684_00:22:53,082 --> 00:22:54,522</time>
<s>那时候我们都是有这样的</s>
<time>685_00:22:55,962 --> 00:22:56,682</time>
<s>它是个必经之路</s>
<time>686_00:22:58,482 --> 00:22:59,202</time>
<s>但是比如说小时候</s>
<time>687_00:22:59,562 --> 00:23:00,642</time>
<s>去了运动队因为</s>
<time>688_00:23:01,002 --> 00:23:02,802</time>
<s>就会完全离开原来的生活嘛</s>
<time>689_00:23:03,162 --> 00:23:04,962</time>
<s>正常地上学高中各种</s>
<time>690_00:23:05,322 --> 00:23:06,042</time>
<s>就是这条路选择的时候</s>
<time>691_00:23:06,402 --> 00:23:07,121</time>
<s>自己也没犹豫吗</s>
<time>692_00:23:07,482 --> 00:23:07,842</time>
<s>就是你的人生</s>
<time>693_00:23:08,202 --> 00:23:08,922</time>
<s>会变得不一样了</s>
<time>694_00:23:09,282 --> 00:23:10,361</time>
<s>小的时候不是你自己的选择</s>
<time>695_00:23:12,522 --> 00:23:13,242</time>
<s>其实我们小的时候</s>
<time>696_00:23:13,602 --> 00:23:13,962</time>
<s>很多的决定</s>
<time>697_00:23:14,322 --> 00:23:15,762</time>
<s>都是父母在帮我们做</s>
<time>698_00:23:16,842 --> 00:23:17,922</time>
<s>还记得我从</s>
<time>699_00:23:19,002 --> 00:23:20,442</time>
<s>市体校到省体校</s>
<time>700_00:23:20,802 --> 00:23:21,882</time>
<s>省体校的概念是什么呢</s>
<time>701_00:23:22,242 --> 00:23:24,402</time>
<s>就是体校它是个中专</s>
<time>702_00:23:24,762 --> 00:23:25,482</time>
<s>然后</s>
<time>703_00:23:25,842 --> 00:23:26,562</time>
<s>还要自费</s>
<time>704_00:23:26,922 --> 00:23:28,002</time>
<s>就是你还要交一部分学费</s>
<time>705_00:23:28,361 --> 00:23:28,722</time>
<s>什么的</s>
<time>706_00:23:29,082 --> 00:23:30,522</time>
<s>但是你要留在市体工队呢</s>
<time>707_00:23:30,882 --> 00:23:31,602</time>
<s>你就开始挣工资了</s>
<time>708_00:23:31,962 --> 00:23:32,322</time>
<s>就那个年代</s>
<time>709_00:23:32,682 --> 00:23:34,482</time>
<s>十三岁就要有工龄了</s>
<time>710_00:23:34,842 --> 00:23:35,562</time>
<s>而且有工龄的概念</s>
<time>711_00:23:35,922 --> 00:23:37,002</time>
<s>是每两年涨一次工资的</s>
<time>712_00:23:38,442 --> 00:23:39,522</time>
<s>所以就意味着你以后</s>
<time>713_00:23:39,882 --> 00:23:40,242</time>
<s>是很好的</s>
<time>714_00:23:40,602 --> 00:23:40,962</time>
<s>累积会越来越好</s>
<time>715_00:23:41,321 --> 00:23:42,042</time>
<s>对然后</s>
<time>716_00:23:42,401 --> 00:23:44,562</time>
<s>我爸呢就没让我留下</s>
<time>717_00:23:44,922 --> 00:23:46,362</time>
<s>然后他就说这人要往高处走</s>
<time>718_00:23:47,442 --> 00:23:48,161</time>
<s>水要往低处流</s>
<time>719_00:23:48,522 --> 00:23:49,962</time>
<s>我那时候很小也不太懂</s>
<time>720_00:23:50,322 --> 00:23:50,682</time>
<s>反正</s>
<time>721_00:23:51,042 --> 00:23:52,842</time>
<s>我队友她没有去省体校</s>
<time>722_00:23:53,202 --> 00:23:53,562</time>
<s>我去了</s>
<time>723_00:23:53,922 --> 00:23:54,642</time>
<s>现在回头看</s>
<time>724_00:23:55,002 --> 00:23:55,722</time>
<s>其实是个挺了不起的决定</s>
<time>725_00:23:56,082 --> 00:23:56,802</time>
<s>因为那时候都是</s>
<time>726_00:23:57,162 --> 00:23:58,242</time>
<s>很普通的家庭嘛</s>
<time>727_00:23:58,602 --> 00:24:00,042</time>
<s>但是我爸那个时候</s>
<time>728_00:24:00,402 --> 00:24:01,482</time>
<s>反正做了这么一个决定</s>
<time>729_00:24:02,202 --> 00:24:03,282</time>
<s>对然后呢</s>
<time>730_00:24:03,642 --> 00:24:04,722</time>
<s>就是父亲帮你做了一个选择</s>
<time>731_00:24:05,082 --> 00:24:06,161</time>
<s>然后要去省里</s>
<time>732_00:24:06,522 --> 00:24:07,602</time>
<s>那时候对自己的未来</s>
<time>733_00:24:07,962 --> 00:24:08,321</time>
<s>有想法吗</s>
<time>734_00:24:09,042 --> 00:24:10,122</time>
<s>顺着这个轨道往下走了</s>
<time>735_00:24:11,562 --> 00:24:13,722</time>
<s>在运动队里边其实</s>
<time>736_00:24:14,082 --> 00:24:14,802</time>
<s>肯定内心里</s>
<time>737_00:24:15,161 --> 00:24:16,602</time>
<s>一直是有一个灯塔的</s>
<time>738_00:24:17,322 --> 00:24:18,402</time>
<s>那个灯塔是什么呢那时候</s>
<time>739_00:24:19,482 --> 00:24:20,561</time>
<s>要去国家队呀</s>
<time>740_00:24:20,922 --> 00:24:22,722</time>
<s>然后要去奥运会呀</s>
<time>741_00:24:23,081 --> 00:24:23,802</time>
<s>然后进到国家队的时候</s>
<time>742_00:24:24,162 --> 00:24:24,522</time>
<s>什么感觉呢</s>
<time>743_00:24:24,882 --> 00:24:25,242</time>
<s>真的进了</s>
<time>744_00:24:25,962 --> 00:24:28,842</time>
<s>我进国家队是有波折的</s>
<time>745_00:24:29,202 --> 00:24:29,562</time>
<s>因为</s>
<time>746_00:24:29,922 --> 00:24:31,362</time>
<s>我第一个全国冠军十五岁</s>
<time>747_00:24:31,722 --> 00:24:33,522</time>
<s>后来就奔着1994年的</s>
<time>748_00:24:33,882 --> 00:24:34,602</time>
<s>利勒哈默尔冬奥会</s>
<time>749_00:24:34,962 --> 00:24:36,042</time>
<s>奔那个目标去使劲了</s>
<time>750_00:24:38,202 --> 00:24:39,642</time>
<s>加上那年我父亲去世</s>
<time>751_00:24:40,002 --> 00:24:41,081</time>
<s>所以就自已就特别想</s>
<time>752_00:24:41,802 --> 00:24:42,522</time>
<s>就特别想</s>
<time>753_00:24:42,882 --> 00:24:43,601</time>
<s>想参加这个奥运会</s>
<time>754_00:24:44,322 --> 00:24:45,401</time>
<s>然后训练就比较苦</s>
<time>755_00:24:45,762 --> 00:24:47,562</time>
<s>结果到奥运会选拔赛前</s>
<time>756_00:24:47,922 --> 00:24:49,362</time>
<s>整个的体重掉了</s>
<time>757_00:24:49,721 --> 00:24:50,442</time>
<s>一个月掉了将近十斤</s>
<time>758_00:24:51,882 --> 00:24:52,962</time>
<s>结果从开始</s>
<time>759_00:24:53,682 --> 00:24:54,762</time>
<s>呼声很高的前五名</s>
<time>760_00:24:55,482 --> 00:24:56,562</time>
<s>一下子最后是第十三</s>
<time>761_00:24:56,922 --> 00:24:58,722</time>
<s>前五名去参加奥运会</s>
<time>762_00:24:59,082 --> 00:25:00,522</time>
<s>我就打行李卷儿回家了</s>
<time>763_00:25:02,322 --> 00:25:03,762</time>
<s>然后那是我第一个坎儿</s>
<time>764_00:25:04,842 --> 00:25:06,642</time>
<s>到了1995年的年初</s>
<time>765_00:25:07,002 --> 00:25:08,082</time>
<s>有全国冬运会</s>
<time>766_00:25:08,802 --> 00:25:09,882</time>
<s>我是全能第九</s>
<time>767_00:25:10,962 --> 00:25:12,042</time>
<s>但是因为前八名</s>
<time>768_00:25:12,402 --> 00:25:13,482</time>
<s>全部是吉林省队员</s>
<time>769_00:25:15,282 --> 00:25:16,362</time>
<s>当时我们教练就说</s>
<time>770_00:25:16,722 --> 00:25:18,162</time>
<s>如果要是我不去的话</s>
<time>771_00:25:18,522 --> 00:25:19,602</time>
<s>那就是吉林省队（队员组成）的</s>
<time>772_00:25:19,962 --> 00:25:21,402</time>
<s>国家队</s>
<time>773_00:25:22,122 --> 00:25:23,562</time>
<s>黑吉两省竞争很激烈</s>
<time>774_00:25:23,922 --> 00:25:25,722</time>
<s>就是哪个省的教练当主教练</s>
<time>775_00:25:26,082 --> 00:25:26,802</time>
<s>另外一个省就不去</s>
<time>776_00:25:27,522 --> 00:25:29,322</time>
<s>大家是较劲较得比较房害</s>
<time>777_00:25:29,682 --> 00:25:31,482</time>
<s>然后当时省里边还劝我说</s>
<time>778_00:25:31,842 --> 00:25:32,202</time>
<s>你要不去的话</s>
<time>779_00:25:32,562 --> 00:25:33,282</time>
<s>给你挂个助理教练</s>
<time>780_00:25:34,362 --> 00:25:36,162</time>
<s>这以后工作就有保障了</s>
<time>781_00:25:36,522 --> 00:25:37,242</time>
<s>另外呢他们说</s>
<time>782_00:25:37,602 --> 00:25:38,682</time>
<s>宁可当鸡头不当凤尾</s>
<time>783_00:25:39,042 --> 00:25:39,762</time>
<s>这都是那时候我学的话</s>
<time>784_00:25:40,122 --> 00:25:40,842</time>
<s>我还什么叫鸡头</s>
<time>785_00:25:41,202 --> 00:25:41,562</time>
<s>和凤尾的概念啊</s>
<time>786_00:25:43,722 --> 00:25:45,522</time>
<s>CHINA但是内心里边还是很想去邀</s>
<time>787_00:25:46,242 --> 00:25:47,322</time>
<s>当时的辛庆山教练</s>
<time>788_00:25:47,682 --> 00:25:49,482</time>
<s>他带出的队伍就很强嘛</s>
<time>789_00:25:49,842 --> 00:25:51,642</time>
<s>然后我也对自己不甘心</s>
<time>790_00:25:52,362 --> 00:25:53,802</time>
<s>然后即便去了以后</s>
<time>791_00:25:54,162 --> 00:25:54,882</time>
<s>他们说当凤尾</s>
<time>792_00:25:55,242 --> 00:25:55,962</time>
<s>反正就意味着</s>
<time>793_00:25:56,322 --> 00:25:57,042</time>
<s>没人搭理你啊</s>
<time>794_00:25:57,402 --> 00:25:58,482</time>
<s>训练也不会按照你的那个</s>
<time>795_00:25:58,842 --> 00:25:59,562</time>
<s>（计划）来安排啊等等</s>
<time>796_00:25:59,922 --> 00:26:01,002</time>
<s>但是我总觉得</s>
<time>797_00:26:02,082 --> 00:26:02,802</time>
<s>我宁可当当凤尾试试</s>
<time>798_00:26:03,162 --> 00:26:04,962</time>
<s>也许还有机会飞起来是吧</s>
<time>799_00:26:05,322 --> 00:26:06,762</time>
<s>当鸡头是永远飞不起来的</s>
<time>800_00:26:07,842 --> 00:26:08,562</time>
<s>所以当时就去了</s>
<time>801_00:26:08,922 --> 00:26:10,002</time>
<s>其实很未知的一个概念</s>
<time>802_00:26:11,082 --> 00:26:11,802</time>
<s>当时不是很痛苦吗</s>
<time>803_00:26:12,162 --> 00:26:12,522</time>
<s>也不觉得</s>
<time>804_00:26:13,242 --> 00:26:14,322</time>
<s>你看我当时是年龄大</s>
<time>805_00:26:14,682 --> 00:26:15,042</time>
<s>那时候小杨阳</s>
<time>806_00:26:15,402 --> 00:26:16,122</time>
<s>她们已经起来了</s>
<time>807_00:26:16,482 --> 00:26:17,202</time>
<s>他（辛庆山教练）自已又带了</s>
<time>808_00:26:17,562 --> 00:26:19,362</time>
<s>吉林省的两个小孩</s>
<time>809_00:26:19,722 --> 00:26:20,442</time>
<s>都是属于储备的</s>
<time>810_00:26:21,522 --> 00:26:22,602</time>
<s>所以每天晨练</s>
<time>811_00:26:22,962 --> 00:26:23,322</time>
<s>是六点到七点半</s>
<time>812_00:26:24,762 --> 00:26:26,562</time>
<s>六点到七点十五这个阶段</s>
<time>813_00:26:26,922 --> 00:26:27,282</time>
<s>他是看不到我的</s>
<time>814_00:26:27,642 --> 00:26:29,442</time>
<s>因为他的那些队员在</s>
<time>815_00:26:29,802 --> 00:26:30,522</time>
<s>而且我又不是主力</s>
<time>816_00:26:30,882 --> 00:26:31,602</time>
<s>但是我也很想</s>
<time>817_00:26:31,962 --> 00:26:32,322</time>
<s>得到他的指导嘛</s>
<time>818_00:26:32,682 --> 00:26:34,482</time>
<s>所以七点十五到七点半</s>
<time>819_00:26:34,842 --> 00:26:35,202</time>
<s>这个之间</s>
<time>820_00:26:37,002 --> 00:26:37,722</time>
<s>你知道越被关注</s>
<time>821_00:26:38,082 --> 00:26:39,162</time>
<s>你越想偷懒是吧</s>
<time>822_00:26:39,522 --> 00:26:39,882</time>
<s>所以其她队员呢</s>
<time>823_00:26:40,242 --> 00:26:40,962</time>
<s>就开始磨蹭了</s>
<time>824_00:26:41,322 --> 00:26:42,042</time>
<s>因为要去吃早饭了</s>
<time>825_00:26:42,402 --> 00:26:43,122</time>
<s>尽量少练点了</s>
<time>826_00:26:43,482 --> 00:26:44,562</time>
<s>那十五分钟是我的时间</s>
<time>827_00:26:44,922 --> 00:26:45,282</time>
<s>你的表现</s>
<time>828_00:26:45,642 --> 00:26:46,002</time>
<s>我的表现时间</s>
<time>829_00:26:46,362 --> 00:26:47,082</time>
<s>赶紧到他跟前去</s>
<time>830_00:26:47,442 --> 00:26:48,882</time>
<s>去做这个滑行</s>
<time>831_00:26:49,962 --> 00:26:50,682</time>
<s>另外呢</s>
<time>832_00:26:51,042 --> 00:26:52,122</time>
<s>作为这个“领养”的孩子</s>
<time>833_00:26:52,482 --> 00:26:52,842</time>
<s>就多表现嘛</s>
<time>834_00:26:53,922 --> 00:26:54,282</time>
<s>我记得</s>
<time>835_00:26:55,002 --> 00:26:55,362</time>
<s>那一年我没事儿</s>
<time>836_00:26:55,722 --> 00:26:57,522</time>
<s>老去他房间拿一些脏衣服</s>
<time>837_00:26:57,882 --> 00:26:58,242</time>
<s>帮他洗</s>
<time>838_00:26:58,602 --> 00:26:59,322</time>
<s>我们那时候也没有洗衣机</s>
<time>839_00:27:00,042 --> 00:27:01,482</time>
<s>都是手洗嘛</s>
<time>840_00:27:01,842 --> 00:27:03,642</time>
<s>就是领养的孩子</s>
<time>841_00:27:04,002 --> 00:27:05,082</time>
<s>那种心态</s>
<time>842_00:27:05,442 --> 00:27:06,522</time>
<s>我第一篇日记到国家队</s>
<time>843_00:27:06,882 --> 00:27:08,322</time>
<s>用了两个礼拜的时间</s>
<time>844_00:27:09,402 --> 00:27:09,762</time>
<s>就是要</s>
<time>845_00:27:11,562 --> 00:27:12,642</time>
<s>我后来每年都会写日记</s>
<time>846_00:27:13,002 --> 00:27:13,722</time>
<s>然后第一页</s>
<time>847_00:27:14,082 --> 00:27:15,522</time>
<s>我老是要叫启页随想</s>
<time>848_00:27:15,882 --> 00:27:16,962</time>
<s>我也不知道为什么用那个名字</s>
<time>849_00:27:18,042 --> 00:27:18,762</time>
<s>我觉得可能</s>
<time>850_00:27:19,842 --> 00:27:20,922</time>
<s>我是想给自己立一个</s>
<time>851_00:27:22,002 --> 00:27:23,442</time>
<s>立一个叫什么规矩吧</s>
<time>852_00:27:23,802 --> 00:27:24,162</time>
<s>然后</s>
<time>853_00:27:24,522 --> 00:27:26,322</time>
<s>我对我这一年会有一个预测</s>
<time>854_00:27:26,682 --> 00:27:27,762</time>
<s>我到底会遇到什么样的困难</s>
<time>855_00:27:28,122 --> 00:27:29,562</time>
<s>然后如果遇到这样的困难</s>
<time>856_00:27:29,922 --> 00:27:30,642</time>
<s>我应该怎么去面对</s>
<time>857_00:27:31,722 --> 00:27:32,082</time>
<s>你是对自己的未来</s>
<time>858_00:27:32,442 --> 00:27:34,602</time>
<s>是一个这么清晰地做（规划）</s>
<time>859_00:27:34,962 --> 00:27:35,322</time>
<s>你想赢嘛</s>
<time>860_00:27:36,042 --> 00:27:37,842</time>
<s>所以你要把这些凡是有可能</s>
<time>861_00:27:38,202 --> 00:27:40,002</time>
<s>给你带来所谓的障碍的</s>
<time>862_00:27:40,362 --> 00:27:41,442</time>
<s>要去想办法去解决</s>
<time>863_00:27:44,682 --> 00:27:47,922</time>
<s>在后来逐步地自已成熟以后</s>
<time>864_00:27:48,282 --> 00:27:49,362</time>
<s>回过头来看</s>
<time>865_00:27:49,722 --> 00:27:51,882</time>
<s>如果你所有要去努力的原因</s>
<time>866_00:27:52,242 --> 00:27:54,042</time>
<s>完全是一种对结果的渴望</s>
<time>867_00:27:54,402 --> 00:27:55,842</time>
<s>是很可怕的一件事</s>
<time>868_00:27:59,082 --> 00:27:59,442</time>
<s>就是</s>
<time>869_00:28:00,522 --> 00:28:02,322</time>
<s>我第一次意识到这个问题</s>
<time>870_00:28:02,682 --> 00:28:03,762</time>
<s>是我第一届1998年奥运会</s>
<time>871_00:28:04,122 --> 00:28:05,202</time>
<s>当时输得一塌糊涂嘛</s>
<time>872_00:28:09,162 --> 00:28:09,882</time>
<s>你怎么把我摔过去</s>
<time>873_00:28:13,482 --> 00:28:14,562</time>
<s>天呐慢点慢点</s>
