<time>440_00:15:06,882 --> 00:15:07,242</time>
<s>我这种人</s>
<time>441_00:15:07,602 --> 00:15:08,322</time>
<s>怎么可能呢</s>
<time>442_00:15:08,682 --> 00:15:09,762</time>
<s>就是根本没机会好吧</s>
<time>443_00:15:11,562 --> 00:15:12,282</time>
<s>那你觉得晚十年呢</s>
<time>444_00:15:12,642 --> 00:15:13,362</time>
<s>机会会不会有</s>
<time>445_00:15:14,442 --> 00:15:15,882</time>
<s>晚十年可能还可以</s>
<time>446_00:15:16,242 --> 00:15:16,602</time>
<s>但是那种</s>
<time>447_00:15:16,962 --> 00:15:17,682</time>
<s>大家也见怪不怪了</s>
<time>448_00:15:18,042 --> 00:15:18,402</time>
<s>就是</s>
<time>449_00:15:18,762 --> 00:15:19,482</time>
<s>那个标志性也会没有了</s>
<time>450_00:15:19,842 --> 00:15:21,282</time>
<s>对你没有那个代表性了</s>
<time>451_00:15:21,642 --> 00:15:22,362</time>
<s>那我觉得我</s>
<time>452_00:15:22,722 --> 00:15:23,442</time>
<s>因为是第一个</s>
<time>453_00:15:23,802 --> 00:15:24,882</time>
<s>正好我这种长相出来</s>
<time>454_00:15:25,242 --> 00:15:25,962</time>
<s>所以它比较有标志性</s>
<time>455_00:15:26,322 --> 00:15:27,762</time>
<s>那这个就全凭运气</s>
<time>456_00:15:30,282 --> 00:15:31,722</time>
<s>你是这么需要一个掌控感的人</s>
<time>457_00:15:32,802 --> 00:15:33,882</time>
<s>做模特的时候</s>
<time>458_00:15:34,242 --> 00:15:35,682</time>
<s>又意识到运气这么重要</s>
<time>459_00:15:36,402 --> 00:15:36,762</time>
<s>那</s>
<time>460_00:15:37,122 --> 00:15:37,842</time>
<s>你觉得安全感</s>
<time>461_00:15:38,202 --> 00:15:39,282</time>
<s>是怎么形成的呢</s>
<time>462_00:15:41,442 --> 00:15:42,162</time>
<s>我是觉得</s>
<time>463_00:15:43,242 --> 00:15:44,322</time>
<s>我也不是说就那时候</s>
<time>464_00:15:44,682 --> 00:15:45,762</time>
<s>你的意识就这么清楚</s>
<time>465_00:15:46,482 --> 00:15:47,202</time>
<s>这个是你个人能力</s>
<time>466_00:15:47,562 --> 00:15:48,642</time>
<s>还是就运气很好</s>
<time>467_00:15:50,082 --> 00:15:51,522</time>
<s>我后来就觉得</s>
<time>468_00:15:51,882 --> 00:15:52,602</time>
<s>可能我们</s>
<time>469_00:15:52,962 --> 00:15:54,402</time>
<s>人其实</s>
<time>470_00:15:55,122 --> 00:15:55,482</time>
<s>都是这样</s>
<time>471_00:15:56,202 --> 00:15:58,002</time>
<s>(在)一个大的变化环境下</s>
<time>472_00:15:58,362 --> 00:15:58,722</time>
<s>个人的未来</s>
<time>473_00:15:59,082 --> 00:16:00,162</time>
<s>可能就是看不清楚</s>
<time>474_00:16:00,882 --> 00:16:01,602</time>
<s>你在这个过程中</s>
<time>475_00:16:02,322 --> 00:16:02,682</time>
<s>其实</s>
<time>476_00:16:03,762 --> 00:16:04,842</time>
<s>最重要的就是任何时候</s>
<time>477_00:16:05,562 --> 00:16:07,362</time>
<s>都能理清楚自己到底</s>
<time>478_00:16:07,722 --> 00:16:09,162</time>
<s>处身于什么位置</s>
<time>479_00:16:09,522 --> 00:16:10,242</time>
<s>比如说我</s>
<time>480_00:16:10,602 --> 00:16:12,042</time>
<s>确实没想过自已可以做模特</s>
<time>481_00:16:12,402 --> 00:16:13,122</time>
<s>因为</s>
<time>482_00:16:13,482 --> 00:16:14,922</time>
<s>从小我这种长相</s>
<time>483_00:16:15,282 --> 00:16:16,362</time>
<s>就是属于丑的那一个</s>
<time>484_00:16:16,722 --> 00:16:17,442</time>
<s>就是大家会觉得</s>
<time>485_00:16:17,802 --> 00:16:19,242</time>
<s>这么丑怎么可以当模特</s>
<time>486_00:16:20,682 --> 00:16:21,402</time>
<s>我能做成模特</s>
<time>487_00:16:22,842 --> 00:16:23,562</time>
<s>也是一个意外</s>
<time>488_00:16:24,282 --> 00:16:25,362</time>
<s>到底那个插曲怎么发生的</s>
<time>489_00:16:25,722 --> 00:16:26,802</time>
<s>因为我看你提到过</s>
<time>490_00:16:28,242 --> 00:16:28,602</time>
<s>我在技校的时候</s>
<time>491_00:16:28,962 --> 00:16:30,042</time>
<s>个子已经很瘦（高）</s>
<time>492_00:16:30,402 --> 00:16:31,122</time>
<s>那个（时候）就有下意识地</s>
<time>493_00:16:31,482 --> 00:16:32,202</time>
<s>塌腰驼背</s>
<time>494_00:16:33,282 --> 00:16:33,642</time>
<s>到了十五六岁</s>
<time>495_00:16:34,002 --> 00:16:34,362</time>
<s>对身高不好意思</s>
<time>496_00:16:34,722 --> 00:16:35,082</time>
<s>对</s>
<time>497_00:16:35,442 --> 00:16:37,242</time>
<s>但是那种就后面真的很难看了</s>
<time>498_00:16:37,602 --> 00:16:39,042</time>
<s>就是你女孩子大了</s>
<time>499_00:16:39,402 --> 00:16:40,482</time>
<s>自我认知也强了</s>
<time>500_00:16:40,842 --> 00:16:43,002</time>
<s>就觉得可能稍微要挺一点了</s>
<time>501_00:16:43,362 --> 00:16:44,442</time>
<s>南昌它是有那种</s>
<time>502_00:16:44,802 --> 00:16:46,242</time>
<s>芭蕾舞的培训嘛</s>
<time>503_00:16:46,602 --> 00:16:48,042</time>
<s>所以那个时候是练过功的</s>
<time>504_00:16:48,402 --> 00:16:50,202</time>
<s>要大奠脚要坚持多久</s>
<time>505_00:16:50,562 --> 00:16:51,282</time>
<s>塑形</s>
<time>506_00:16:51,642 --> 00:16:52,362</time>
<s>你去练的时候</s>
<time>507_00:16:52,722 --> 00:16:53,802</time>
<s>你觉得就矫正一下自己的</s>
<time>508_00:16:54,162 --> 00:16:54,882</time>
<s>这个身体的感觉</s>
<time>509_00:16:55,962 --> 00:16:57,762</time>
<s>然后他们的那个模特队</s>
<time>510_00:16:58,482 --> 00:16:59,562</time>
<s>当时要来北京参加模特比赛</s>
<time>511_00:17:00,282 --> 00:17:02,082</time>
<s>他们找不到那么多这么高的人</s>
<time>512_00:17:02,442 --> 00:17:03,522</time>
<s>就问我愿不愿意参加</s>
<time>513_00:17:03,882 --> 00:17:04,962</time>
<s>那我就很开心啊</s>
<time>514_00:17:05,322 --> 00:17:05,681</time>
<s>因为</s>
<time>515_00:17:06,402 --> 00:17:07,842</time>
<s>你可以去北京了呀</s>
<time>516_00:17:08,202 --> 00:17:09,281</time>
<s>我那时候真的很傻的</s>
<time>517_00:17:09,642 --> 00:17:10,002</time>
<s>我觉得北京天安门</s>
<time>518_00:17:10,362 --> 00:17:11,082</time>
<s>就是金光闪闪</s>
<time>519_00:17:11,442 --> 00:17:12,162</time>
<s>你知道电视里（那样）</s>
<time>520_00:17:12,522 --> 00:17:13,602</time>
<s>我真的以为就是那样的</s>
<time>521_00:17:14,322 --> 00:17:15,762</time>
<s>在北京西客站下火车的时候</s>
<time>522_00:17:16,122 --> 00:17:17,202</time>
<s>我说怎么就灰蒙蒙的</s>
<time>523_00:17:17,562 --> 00:17:17,922</time>
<s>我说我的那个</s>
<time>524_00:17:18,282 --> 00:17:19,002</time>
<s>金光闪闪的天安门</s>
<time>525_00:17:19,362 --> 00:17:20,082</time>
<s>到哪里去了</s>
<time>526_00:17:21,522 --> 00:17:21,882</time>
<s>你当时来北京之后</s>
<time>527_00:17:22,242 --> 00:17:22,602</time>
<s>那个比赛呢</s>
<time>528_00:17:22,962 --> 00:17:23,682</time>
<s>没得奖</s>
<time>529_00:17:24,042 --> 00:17:24,402</time>
<s>但是</s>
<time>530_00:17:24,762 --> 00:17:25,842</time>
<s>我就觉得我要</s>
<time>531_00:17:26,202 --> 00:17:27,282</time>
<s>在北京闯一闯</s>
<time>532_00:17:28,361 --> 00:17:29,442</time>
<s>这就是刚才讲的安全感</s>
<time>533_00:17:30,161 --> 00:17:31,962</time>
<s>因为我们以前是很没有安全感</s>
<time>534_00:17:32,321 --> 00:17:33,762</time>
<s>没有安全感是什么呢</s>
<time>535_00:17:34,842 --> 00:17:35,922</time>
<s>以前太穷了</s>
<time>536_00:17:36,282 --> 00:17:37,002</time>
<s>我在乡下</s>
<time>537_00:17:37,361 --> 00:17:39,161</time>
<s>那个厕所都是那种粪坑</s>
<time>538_00:17:39,522 --> 00:17:39,882</time>
<s>你知道吗</s>
<time>539_00:17:40,242 --> 00:17:41,682</time>
<s>夏天去洗手间</s>
<time>540_00:17:42,042 --> 00:17:42,761</time>
<s>那就出来了一身臭气</s>
<time>541_00:17:43,122 --> 00:17:43,482</time>
<s>我觉得</s>
<time>542_00:17:44,561 --> 00:17:44,922</time>
<s>我最想干嘛</s>
<time>543_00:17:45,282 --> 00:17:46,002</time>
<s>人家都说</s>
<time>544_00:17:46,362 --> 00:17:46,722</time>
<s>小时候都是</s>
<time>545_00:17:47,082 --> 00:17:47,442</time>
<s>要当科学家</s>
<time>546_00:17:47,802 --> 00:17:48,162</time>
<s>当警察</s>
<time>547_00:17:48,882 --> 00:17:49,242</time>
<s>我说我小时候</s>
<time>548_00:17:49,601 --> 00:17:50,322</time>
<s>好像没有什么理想</s>
<time>549_00:17:51,042 --> 00:17:51,402</time>
<s>就觉得</s>
<time>550_00:17:51,762 --> 00:17:53,922</time>
<s>我要是能搬到县城就解放了</s>
<time>551_00:17:54,642 --> 00:17:56,081</time>
<s>一个月能挣八百块就好了</s>
<time>552_00:17:56,442 --> 00:17:57,522</time>
<s>因为我爸妈两个人加起来</s>
<time>553_00:17:57,882 --> 00:17:58,242</time>
<s>才三百多</s>
<time>554_00:17:58,962 --> 00:17:59,682</time>
<s>那时候已经很清晰的</s>
<time>555_00:18:00,042 --> 00:18:01,482</time>
<s>我要以模特为</s>
<time>556_00:18:01,842 --> 00:18:02,922</time>
<s>未来的人生道路</s>
<time>557_00:18:04,362 --> 00:18:05,082</time>
<s>我没有想得特别远</s>
<time>558_00:18:05,442 --> 00:18:06,162</time>
<s>我就觉得我要去试</s>
<time>559_00:18:06,522 --> 00:18:07,242</time>
<s>到底能怎么样我不知道</s>
<time>560_00:18:07,602 --> 00:18:07,962</time>
<s>我无所谓</s>
<time>561_00:18:08,322 --> 00:18:09,042</time>
<s>反正我就是要去试</s>
<time>562_00:18:09,401 --> 00:18:10,121</time>
<s>就是这种心态</s>
<time>563_00:18:10,482 --> 00:18:11,922</time>
<s>那每天就是去各个地方面试</s>
<time>564_00:18:12,282 --> 00:18:12,642</time>
<s>面试</s>
<time>565_00:18:13,002 --> 00:18:13,361</time>
<s>那时候我记得在</s>
<time>566_00:18:13,722 --> 00:18:14,442</time>
<s>城市宾馆</s>
<time>567_00:18:14,802 --> 00:18:16,242</time>
<s>城市宾馆那不是有一个酒吧</s>
<time>568_00:18:17,322 --> 00:18:17,682</time>
<s>敦煌酒吧</s>
<time>569_00:18:19,482 --> 00:18:20,561</time>
<s>那儿可是我的福地我跟你讲</s>
<time>570_00:18:20,922 --> 00:18:21,282</time>
<s>真的</s>
<time>571_00:18:29,562 --> 00:18:30,282</time>
<s>你们跟东田说好了吗</s>
<time>572_00:18:31,002 --> 00:18:31,362</time>
<s>他在旁边吃饭</s>
<time>573_00:18:31,722 --> 00:18:32,082</time>
<s>要催他</s>
<time>574_00:18:32,442 --> 00:18:33,162</time>
<s>他很慢的</s>
<time>575_00:18:33,522 --> 00:18:33,882</time>
<s>他老迟到的</s>
<time>576_00:18:35,682 --> 00:18:37,482</time>
<s>为什么我在服装店有一种</s>
<time>577_00:18:40,002 --> 00:18:40,361</time>
<s>就不自在</s>
<time>578_00:18:41,082 --> 00:18:41,802</time>
<s>它就是好像</s>
<time>579_00:18:42,882 --> 00:18:44,322</time>
<s>因为它这个不是你熟悉的环境</s>
<time>580_00:18:44,682 --> 00:18:45,402</time>
<s>然后都是女装</s>
<time>581_00:18:46,122 --> 00:18:46,482</time>
<s>你肯定不自在</s>
<time>582_00:18:46,842 --> 00:18:47,562</time>
<s>不安全感冒了出来</s>
<time>583_00:18:47,922 --> 00:18:49,002</time>
<s>你又没有带个女朋友</s>
<time>584_00:18:49,362 --> 00:18:50,082</time>
<s>来挑衣服对吧</s>
<time>585_00:18:50,442 --> 00:18:51,522</time>
<s>你就应该今天带个女朋友</s>
<time>586_00:18:51,882 --> 00:18:52,242</time>
<s>花费一下</s>
<time>587_00:18:52,602 --> 00:18:52,962</time>
<s>多买一点</s>
<time>588_00:18:54,402 --> 00:18:55,121</time>
<s>你终于来了</s>
<time>589_00:18:55,482 --> 00:18:55,842</time>
<s>饿的</s>
<time>590_00:18:56,202 --> 00:18:56,562</time>
<s>那你们聊了</s>
<time>591_00:18:58,362 --> 00:18:58,722</time>
<s>好啊</s>
<time>592_00:19:00,882 --> 00:19:01,602</time>
<s>其实这就是命</s>
<time>593_00:19:01,962 --> 00:19:02,682</time>
<s>你想她当年</s>
<time>594_00:19:03,042 --> 00:19:05,202</time>
<s>1999年来北京的时候</s>
<time>595_00:19:05,561 --> 00:19:07,362</time>
<s>就是很简单的一个</s>
<time>596_00:19:08,802 --> 00:19:09,882</time>
<s>一个机会</s>
<time>597_00:19:10,241 --> 00:19:11,321</time>
<s>当时主角不是她</s>
<time>598_00:19:11,682 --> 00:19:12,761</time>
<s>她是帮人家试衣服的一个（替身）</s>
<time>599_00:19:13,482 --> 00:19:13,842</time>
<s>当时她走出来的时候</s>
<time>600_00:19:14,202 --> 00:19:14,922</time>
<s>我就看了她一眼</s>
<time>601_00:19:15,642 --> 00:19:16,722</time>
<s>我说这个</s>
<time>602_00:19:17,442 --> 00:19:18,162</time>
<s>咱别</s>
<time>603_00:19:18,521 --> 00:19:19,602</time>
<s>我说咱换她吧</s>
<time>604_00:19:21,042 --> 00:19:21,762</time>
<s>特别坚持</s>
<time>605_00:19:22,122 --> 00:19:23,201</time>
<s>我说一定要换这个人</s>
<time>606_00:19:23,562 --> 00:19:23,922</time>
<s>为什么你觉得</s>
<time>607_00:19:24,281 --> 00:19:25,362</time>
<s>她让你那么眼前一亮</s>
<time>608_00:19:26,081 --> 00:19:27,882</time>
<s>我是1994年底去的美国</s>
<time>609_00:19:28,602 --> 00:19:30,042</time>
<s>从1995年那时候开始</s>
<time>610_00:19:30,762 --> 00:19:32,922</time>
<s>那时候中国的时尚刚刚有点冒头</s>
<time>611_00:19:33,282 --> 00:19:34,002</time>
<s>还没有什么起色</s>
<time>612_00:19:34,722 --> 00:19:36,522</time>
<s>那也正因为是在美国的原因吧</s>
<time>613_00:19:36,882 --> 00:19:39,042</time>
<s>可能就看到了世界各地的人</s>
<time>614_00:19:39,402 --> 00:19:40,121</time>
<s>各种模特</s>
<time>615_00:19:40,482 --> 00:19:42,282</time>
<s>各种文化的这种（混合）</s>
<time>616_00:19:42,642 --> 00:19:43,362</time>
<s>真正的多元化</s>
<time>617_00:19:44,082 --> 00:19:44,442</time>
<s>在当时</s>
<time>618_00:19:44,802 --> 00:19:46,602</time>
<s>也看到了很多西方人种</s>
<time>619_00:19:46,962 --> 00:19:48,762</time>
<s>对亚裔的这种认知</s>
<time>620_00:19:49,842 --> 00:19:50,562</time>
<s>就跟咱们看外国人一样</s>
<time>621_00:19:51,281 --> 00:19:52,361</time>
<s>咱们看外国人就长得差不多</s>
<time>622_00:19:52,722 --> 00:19:54,162</time>
<s>人家看你也是差不多</s>
<time>623_00:19:54,522 --> 00:19:55,242</time>
<s>但是吕燕呢</s>
<time>624_00:19:55,602 --> 00:19:56,322</time>
<s>是一个非常非常特别的</s>
<time>625_00:19:56,682 --> 00:19:59,202</time>
<s>非常非常斩新的一个新面孔</s>
<time>626_00:20:00,641 --> 00:20:02,082</time>
<s>好谢谢</s>
<time>627_00:20:02,442 --> 00:20:02,802</time>
<s>客气</s>
<time>628_00:20:03,161 --> 00:20:03,882</time>
<s>讲得特别好</s>
<time>629_00:20:04,242 --> 00:20:04,962</time>
<s>小小</s>
<time>630_00:20:05,322 --> 00:20:05,681</time>
<s>来</s>
<time>631_00:20:06,762 --> 00:20:07,482</time>
<s>而且我还把它放在了</s>
<time>632_00:20:07,842 --> 00:20:09,282</time>
<s>那个王府井大街上</s>
<time>633_00:20:09,642 --> 00:20:10,722</time>
<s>好多人还讨论呢</s>
<time>634_00:20:11,082 --> 00:20:12,162</time>
<s>是不是有点故意的</s>
<time>635_00:20:12,522 --> 00:20:12,882</time>
<s>对</s>
<time>636_00:20:15,042 --> 00:20:15,762</time>
<s>说故意的把那个</s>
<time>637_00:20:16,122 --> 00:20:16,842</time>
<s>把她丑化什么的</s>
<time>638_00:20:17,202 --> 00:20:17,562</time>
<s>其实根本不是</s>
<time>639_00:20:17,922 --> 00:20:19,361</time>
<s>我当时看到吕燕的第一个想法</s>
<time>640_00:20:19,722 --> 00:20:20,442</time>
<s>就是雀斑</s>
<time>641_00:20:20,802 --> 00:20:21,522</time>
<s>为什么</s>
<time>642_00:20:22,242 --> 00:20:23,322</time>
<s>我记得我第一次见吕燕的时候</s>
<time>643_00:20:23,682 --> 00:20:24,042</time>
<s>我就跟她说</s>
<time>644_00:20:25,482 --> 00:20:26,922</time>
<s>我说你真漂亮</s>
<time>645_00:20:27,641 --> 00:20:28,362</time>
<s>然后吕燕给我来一句</s>
<time>646_00:20:29,082 --> 00:20:29,442</time>
<s>不好意思</s>
<time>647_00:20:29,802 --> 00:20:30,162</time>
<s>我听不懂英文</s>
<time>648_00:20:31,242 --> 00:20:31,602</time>
<s>好可爱啊</s>
<time>649_00:20:31,962 --> 00:20:32,322</time>
<s>她特别可爱</s>
<time>650_00:20:32,682 --> 00:20:33,401</time>
<s>那时候吕燕很小啊</s>
<time>651_00:20:33,762 --> 00:20:34,482</time>
<s>1999年吕燕才几岁啊</s>
<time>652_00:20:34,842 --> 00:20:35,562</time>
<s>18</s>
<time>653_00:20:35,922 --> 00:20:36,642</time>
<s>对呀18岁嘛</s>
<time>654_00:20:37,002 --> 00:20:37,362</time>
<s>是因为雀斑</s>
<time>655_00:20:37,722 --> 00:20:39,522</time>
<s>东方女孩都恨不得祛斑</s>
<time>656_00:20:39,882 --> 00:20:40,962</time>
<s>但我觉得这个雀斑</s>
<time>657_00:20:41,322 --> 00:20:42,042</time>
<s>是年轻的表现</s>
<time>658_00:20:42,402 --> 00:20:43,482</time>
<s>是一种活力的表现</s>
<time>659_00:20:43,842 --> 00:20:44,562</time>
<s>当时我们正好是</s>
<time>660_00:20:44,922 --> 00:20:47,802</time>
<s>东田造型的这个开幕</s>
<time>661_00:20:48,162 --> 00:20:49,242</time>
<s>1999年刚刚开始</s>
<time>662_00:20:49,602 --> 00:20:51,401</time>
<s>所以我们也想找一个形象女孩</s>
<time>663_00:20:52,121 --> 00:20:53,922</time>
<s>（所以）吕燕就是当之无愧的</s>
<time>664_00:20:54,282 --> 00:20:55,002</time>
<s>因为我自己是一个</s>
<time>665_00:20:55,362 --> 00:20:56,082</time>
<s>比较能抗压的人</s>
<time>666_00:20:56,442 --> 00:20:57,162</time>
<s>所以</s>
<time>667_00:20:57,522 --> 00:20:58,962</time>
<s>我对我的小伙伴要求也很高</s>
<time>668_00:20:59,322 --> 00:20:59,682</time>
<s>当时很多人</s>
<time>669_00:21:00,042 --> 00:21:01,122</time>
<s>完全不理解我什么意思</s>
<time>670_00:21:01,482 --> 00:21:02,562</time>
<s>怎么又出了个吕燕</s>
<time>671_00:21:02,922 --> 00:21:04,002</time>
<s>说这吕燕哪好啊</s>
<time>672_00:21:05,082 --> 00:21:05,442</time>
<s>还有那种</s>
<time>673_00:21:05,802 --> 00:21:07,242</time>
<s>东田就是你捧的那个</s>
<time>674_00:21:07,602 --> 00:21:09,042</time>
<s>特别丑的那个女的</s>
<time>675_00:21:09,762 --> 00:21:11,202</time>
<s>我就看不明白她怎么好看</s>
<time>676_00:21:11,922 --> 00:21:13,362</time>
<s>几乎所有人都骂她</s>
<time>677_00:21:13,722 --> 00:21:14,802</time>
<s>就是骂的话很难听</s>
<time>678_00:21:15,162 --> 00:21:15,522</time>
<s>当时</s>
<time>679_00:21:15,882 --> 00:21:17,682</time>
<s>摄影师把摄像机都扔了</s>
<time>680_00:21:28,842 --> 00:21:29,202</time>
<s>当那个</s>
<time>681_00:21:29,562 --> 00:21:29,922</time>
<s>李东田</s>
<time>682_00:21:31,002 --> 00:21:31,362</time>
<s>把你那个</s>
<time>683_00:21:32,802 --> 00:21:33,882</time>
<s>那个造型一下做出来之后</s>
<time>684_00:21:34,242 --> 00:21:34,962</time>
<s>你自已第一个反应是什么</s>
<time>685_00:21:36,762 --> 00:21:37,842</time>
<s>我第一次反应</s>
<time>686_00:21:38,202 --> 00:21:38,562</time>
<s>我说啊</s>
<time>687_00:21:39,642 --> 00:21:40,361</time>
<s>我说我印象中的杂志</s>
<time>688_00:21:40,722 --> 00:21:41,801</time>
<s>都是把人画得美美的</s>
<time>689_00:21:42,162 --> 00:21:42,882</time>
<s>头发都是那种</s>
<time>690_00:21:43,242 --> 00:21:43,962</time>
<s>他们给我穿了一件抹胸</s>
<time>691_00:21:44,322 --> 00:21:45,042</time>
<s>就是露着的</s>
<time>692_00:21:45,402 --> 00:21:46,482</time>
<s>然后脸一点都没化</s>
<time>693_00:21:46,842 --> 00:21:47,922</time>
<s>还给我涂了满脸雀斑</s>
<time>694_00:21:48,282 --> 00:21:50,082</time>
<s>我当时想这是什么意思</s>
<time>695_00:21:50,442 --> 00:21:50,802</time>
<s>就是</s>
<time>696_00:21:51,162 --> 00:21:52,602</time>
<s>但是我觉得</s>
<time>697_00:21:52,962 --> 00:21:53,322</time>
<s>（李东田）已经是</s>
<time>698_00:21:53,682 --> 00:21:55,122</time>
<s>在业内也是很有名</s>
<time>699_00:21:55,482 --> 00:21:56,562</time>
<s>这么做肯定有他的道理</s>
<time>700_00:21:56,922 --> 00:21:57,641</time>
<s>反正我就接受就行了</s>
<time>701_00:21:59,082 --> 00:22:01,242</time>
<s>内心没有小角落</s>
<time>702_00:22:01,602 --> 00:22:01,962</time>
<s>没有</s>
<time>703_00:22:03,401 --> 00:22:04,122</time>
<s>别人觉得我丑</s>
<time>704_00:22:04,482 --> 00:22:05,562</time>
<s>说我长得怎么怎么样</s>
<time>705_00:22:05,922 --> 00:22:06,282</time>
<s>说句心里话</s>
<time>706_00:22:06,642 --> 00:22:07,361</time>
<s>我从来没觉得我长得丑</s>
<time>707_00:22:07,722 --> 00:22:09,162</time>
<s>但我也不会觉得我长得很好看</s>
<time>708_00:22:09,522 --> 00:22:09,882</time>
<s>我就觉得</s>
<time>709_00:22:10,962 --> 00:22:11,682</time>
<s>我跟别人有点不一样吧</s>
<time>710_00:22:12,042 --> 00:22:12,762</time>
<s>挺特别的</s>
<time>711_00:22:13,121 --> 00:22:13,482</time>
<s>仅此而已</s>
<time>712_00:22:18,162 --> 00:22:18,522</time>
<s>那当然</s>
<time>713_00:22:18,882 --> 00:22:19,242</time>
<s>说句心里话</s>
<time>714_00:22:19,962 --> 00:22:20,321</time>
<s>就是</s>
<time>715_00:22:21,401 --> 00:22:22,482</time>
<s>我没有从心底</s>
<time>716_00:22:22,842 --> 00:22:25,002</time>
<s>是去欣赏这个照片</s>
<time>717_00:22:25,362 --> 00:22:26,082</time>
<s>但是我觉得好像</s>
<time>718_00:22:26,442 --> 00:22:27,882</time>
<s>能不能欣赏不重要</s>
<time>719_00:22:28,962 --> 00:22:29,322</time>
<s>我只是觉得</s>
<time>720_00:22:29,682 --> 00:22:31,482</time>
<s>哇我也上了杂志</s>
<time>721_00:22:32,202 --> 00:22:32,562</time>
<s>出现在杂志上</s>
<time>722_00:22:32,922 --> 00:22:34,722</time>
<s>等于是一个新的自我的诞生</s>
<time>723_00:22:35,081 --> 00:22:35,802</time>
<s>那个自我跟你自己</s>
<time>724_00:22:36,162 --> 00:22:36,522</time>
<s>那个自我</s>
<time>725_00:22:36,882 --> 00:22:37,962</time>
<s>我就觉得那个是希望啊</s>
<time>726_00:22:38,322 --> 00:22:39,402</time>
<s>这个希望会是什么呢</s>
<time>727_00:22:39,762 --> 00:22:40,122</time>
<s>就是这个希望是模糊的</s>
<time>728_00:22:40,482 --> 00:22:40,842</time>
<s>还是说它会</s>
<time>729_00:22:41,202 --> 00:22:41,562</time>
<s>变成一个什么东西呢</s>
<time>730_00:22:41,922 --> 00:22:42,282</time>
<s>这个希望</s>
<time>731_00:22:42,642 --> 00:22:43,002</time>
<s>机会嘛</s>
<time>732_00:22:43,361 --> 00:22:44,082</time>
<s>就是因为那张照片</s>
<time>733_00:22:44,442 --> 00:22:44,802</time>
<s>在新侨饭店</s>
<time>734_00:22:45,162 --> 00:22:45,522</time>
<s>当时呢</s>
<time>735_00:22:46,242 --> 00:22:47,682</time>
<s>他们是个法国经纪人</s>
<time>736_00:22:48,042 --> 00:22:48,402</time>
<s>当时我印象就是</s>
<time>737_00:22:48,761 --> 00:22:50,561</time>
<s>他们让我把裤子拎起来</s>
<time>738_00:22:50,922 --> 00:22:52,002</time>
<s>就看看我的腿</s>
<time>739_00:22:52,362 --> 00:22:53,442</time>
<s>然后就问</s>
<time>740_00:22:53,802 --> 00:22:56,322</time>
<s>就跟我说想带我去法国做模特</s>
<time>741_00:22:57,042 --> 00:22:57,402</time>
<s>他们就是直接找来</s>
<time>742_00:22:57,762 --> 00:22:58,122</time>
<s>跟你说</s>
<time>743_00:22:58,842 --> 00:22:59,202</time>
<s>对呀</s>
<time>744_00:22:59,562 --> 00:23:00,642</time>
<s>你当时特别意外吗</s>
<time>745_00:23:02,082 --> 00:23:03,162</time>
<s>我就等着这一天了</s>
<time>746_00:23:03,521 --> 00:23:04,242</time>
<s>也没有意外</s>
<time>747_00:23:06,042 --> 00:23:08,562</time>
<s>终于有机会可以出国了</s>
<time>748_00:23:08,922 --> 00:23:09,641</time>
<s>那时候其实</s>
<time>749_00:23:10,002 --> 00:23:11,442</time>
<s>已经很有意识地在等待</s>
<time>750_00:23:11,802 --> 00:23:12,522</time>
<s>想去出国</s>
<time>751_00:23:12,882 --> 00:23:13,962</time>
<s>我们在矿区</s>
<time>752_00:23:14,322 --> 00:23:15,401</time>
<s>矿区要到县城</s>
<time>753_00:23:15,762 --> 00:23:16,842</time>
<s>县城再到九江市</s>
<time>754_00:23:17,202 --> 00:23:18,282</time>
<s>一个个盖戳</s>
<time>755_00:23:19,002 --> 00:23:20,082</time>
<s>因为没人有护照</s>
<time>756_00:23:20,442 --> 00:23:21,161</time>
<s>然后真的</s>
<time>757_00:23:21,522 --> 00:23:22,601</time>
<s>我当时第一次拿护照的时候</s>
<time>758_00:23:22,962 --> 00:23:24,042</time>
<s>我激动了好久</s>
<time>759_00:23:24,762 --> 00:23:26,562</time>
<s>坐卧铺到北京的时候</s>
<time>760_00:23:26,922 --> 00:23:28,002</time>
<s>那个护照就一页</s>
<time>761_00:23:28,362 --> 00:23:29,082</time>
<s>那就激动的睡不着</s>
<time>762_00:23:29,442 --> 00:23:30,882</time>
<s>一会拿出来看看翻翻</s>
<time>763_00:23:31,242 --> 00:23:32,682</time>
<s>就是那一页</s>
<time>764_00:23:34,122 --> 00:23:35,202</time>
<s>我跟你说我去巴黎之前</s>
<time>765_00:23:35,562 --> 00:23:35,922</time>
<s>在敦煌酒吧</s>
<time>766_00:23:36,282 --> 00:23:37,002</time>
<s>最后他们送我走</s>
<time>767_00:23:37,362 --> 00:23:38,082</time>
<s>车东田他们一帮人</s>
<time>768_00:23:38,442 --> 00:23:39,521</time>
<s>就叫了好多啤酒</s>
<time>769_00:23:39,882 --> 00:23:40,602</time>
<s>然后抽奖</s>
<time>770_00:23:40,962 --> 00:23:42,402</time>
<s>我抽中了摩托罗拉手机</s>
<time>771_00:23:43,842 --> 00:23:44,202</time>
<s>真的</s>
<time>772_00:23:44,562 --> 00:23:44,922</time>
<s>我都没有手机的</s>
<time>773_00:23:45,281 --> 00:23:45,642</time>
<s>我说</s>
<time>774_00:23:47,082 --> 00:23:48,161</time>
<s>真的就是明天我就要飞巴黎了</s>
<time>775_00:23:48,522 --> 00:23:49,962</time>
<s>老天给了一个礼物</s>
<time>776_00:23:50,681 --> 00:23:51,762</time>
<s>上面有一个尖这样的</s>
<time>777_00:23:52,122 --> 00:23:52,842</time>
<s>然后椭圆型这样的</s>
<time>778_00:23:53,202 --> 00:23:53,922</time>
<s>就是那个（手机）</s>
<time>779_00:23:56,802 --> 00:23:57,522</time>
<s>记忆特别深刻</s>
<time>780_00:23:58,601 --> 00:23:59,322</time>
<s>你也一点都不担心</s>
<time>781_00:23:59,681 --> 00:24:00,762</time>
<s>我有什么好骗的呢</s>
<time>782_00:24:01,122 --> 00:24:01,842</time>
<s>对不对</s>
<time>783_00:24:02,202 --> 00:24:02,922</time>
<s>骗财骗色</s>
<time>784_00:24:03,282 --> 00:24:05,442</time>
<s>这好像在我身上也行不通似的</s>
<time>785_00:24:09,042 --> 00:24:09,762</time>
<s>所以</s>
<time>786_00:24:11,202 --> 00:24:11,922</time>
<s>所以你看那个时候</s>
<time>787_00:24:12,282 --> 00:24:14,802</time>
<s>我的安全感就是无谓</s>
<time>788_00:24:15,161 --> 00:24:15,882</time>
<s>无所谓</s>
<time>789_00:24:16,242 --> 00:24:16,601</time>
<s>真的</s>
<time>790_00:24:16,962 --> 00:24:18,042</time>
<s>因为你没有</s>
<time>791_00:24:18,401 --> 00:24:19,122</time>
<s>什么都不拥有的时候</s>
<time>792_00:24:19,482 --> 00:24:20,562</time>
<s>你也没什么好失去的</s>
<time>793_00:24:21,282 --> 00:24:22,362</time>
<s>你就不在乎</s>
<time>794_00:24:23,442 --> 00:24:24,162</time>
<s>很多东西不在乎</s>
<time>795_00:24:24,521 --> 00:24:25,601</time>
<s>你就不存在不安全</s>
<time>796_00:24:27,042 --> 00:24:29,562</time>
<s>但是我去法国了</s>
<time>797_00:24:29,922 --> 00:24:31,002</time>
<s>就在那个时候</s>
<time>798_00:24:31,361 --> 00:24:32,082</time>
<s>给我的感觉就是</s>
<time>799_00:24:32,442 --> 00:24:33,162</time>
<s>这种安全感</s>
<time>800_00:24:33,522 --> 00:24:34,601</time>
<s>很快就改变了</s>
<time>801_00:24:42,162 --> 00:24:45,402</time>
<s>因为我们这次是现场交响乐</s>
<time>802_00:24:46,842 --> 00:24:47,922</time>
<s>所以现在还在搞乐器</s>
<time>803_00:24:48,282 --> 00:24:50,442</time>
<s>现在等他们坐齐了我们才能彩排</s>
<time>804_00:24:50,802 --> 00:24:52,602</time>
<s>这次牵扯的人有点多</s>
<time>805_00:24:53,322 --> 00:24:55,122</time>
<s>你自己把握所有的事情是吗</s>
<time>806_00:24:55,482 --> 00:24:55,842</time>
<s>对啊</s>
<time>807_00:24:56,922 --> 00:24:57,642</time>
<s>那没办法呀</s>
<time>808_00:24:59,082 --> 00:25:00,522</time>
<s>像导一个电影差不多了</s>
<time>809_00:25:00,882 --> 00:25:01,242</time>
<s>舞台剧</s>
<time>810_00:25:01,602 --> 00:25:01,962</time>
<s>对我们是一个短版的</s>
<time>811_00:25:02,322 --> 00:25:03,402</time>
<s>因为一场秀</s>
<time>812_00:25:03,762 --> 00:25:05,202</time>
<s>前前后后准备五六个月</s>
<time>813_00:25:05,562 --> 00:25:06,642</time>
<s>最后十五分钟结束了</s>
<time>814_00:25:10,242 --> 00:25:10,962</time>
<s>那没办法</s>
<time>815_00:25:11,322 --> 00:25:11,682</time>
<s>这么长的环节</s>
<time>816_00:25:12,042 --> 00:25:13,482</time>
<s>你最兴奋的是哪个部分</s>
<time>817_00:25:14,922 --> 00:25:15,282</time>
<s>最兴奋</s>
<time>818_00:25:15,642 --> 00:25:17,082</time>
<s>就是模特开始要上台走的时候</s>
<time>819_00:25:17,442 --> 00:25:19,242</time>
<s>我就特别想上去走一走</s>
<time>820_00:25:19,602 --> 00:25:19,962</time>
<s>那什么感觉啊</s>
<time>821_00:25:21,042 --> 00:25:21,762</time>
<s>唯我独尊呀</s>
<time>822_00:25:23,202 --> 00:25:23,562</time>
<s>真的</s>
<time>823_00:25:24,282 --> 00:25:25,362</time>
<s>我经常跟朋友</s>
<time>824_00:25:25,722 --> 00:25:26,802</time>
<s>因为你看那个灯光打得</s>
<time>825_00:25:27,162 --> 00:25:28,242</time>
<s>你其实旁边根本看不见</s>
<time>826_00:25:28,602 --> 00:25:29,682</time>
<s>就是你像我们本来眼晴就小</s>
<time>827_00:25:30,042 --> 00:25:31,122</time>
<s>好像町着某个人</s>
<time>828_00:25:31,482 --> 00:25:32,202</time>
<s>其实根本就不是</s>
<time>829_00:25:32,562 --> 00:25:33,282</time>
<s>你知道嘛就什么都看不见</s>
<time>830_00:25:33,642 --> 00:25:34,722</time>
<s>所以你在迈向黑暗</s>
<time>831_00:25:35,082 --> 00:25:36,882</time>
<s>其实是一个在忘我的状态</s>
<time>832_00:25:37,242 --> 00:25:39,402</time>
<s>我的秀场他们都知道有个规矩</s>
<time>833_00:25:39,762 --> 00:25:41,202</time>
<s>就是在大家要开秀前</s>
<time>834_00:25:41,562 --> 00:25:43,002</time>
<s>我会让每个人喝一杯香槟</s>
<time>835_00:25:43,722 --> 00:25:44,442</time>
<s>因为喝了香槟</s>
<time>836_00:25:44,802 --> 00:25:46,602</time>
<s>它会让你放松两眼发光</s>
<time>837_00:25:47,682 --> 00:25:48,042</time>
<s>就是这样</s>
<time>838_00:25:49,122 --> 00:25:49,482</time>
<s>微</s>
<time>839_00:25:49,842 --> 00:25:50,922</time>
<s>反正都是迷幻嘛</s>
<time>840_00:25:51,642 --> 00:25:52,002</time>
<s>造梦</s>
<time>841_00:25:52,362 --> 00:25:53,442</time>
<s>做秀不也是吗</s>
<time>842_00:25:54,522 --> 00:25:55,242</time>
<s>你现在要忙吗</s>
<time>843_00:25:55,602 --> 00:25:56,682</time>
<s>你不用管我们</s>
<time>844_00:25:57,042 --> 00:25:57,402</time>
<s>你要忙就忙</s>
<time>845_00:25:57,762 --> 00:25:58,122</time>
<s>那我走了</s>
<time>846_00:25:58,482 --> 00:25:58,842</time>
<s>走吧</s>
<time>847_00:26:00,282 --> 00:26:02,082</time>
<s>现在你走是踩里面的</s>
<time>848_00:26:02,442 --> 00:26:03,522</time>
<s>还是踩外面</s>
<time>849_00:26:04,602 --> 00:26:05,682</time>
<s>你知道吗里面</s>
<time>850_00:26:06,402 --> 00:26:07,482</time>
<s>拿个针给我</s>
<time>851_00:26:10,722 --> 00:26:11,442</time>
<s>我就把它现在别一下</s>
<time>852_00:26:11,802 --> 00:26:12,882</time>
<s>我看试一下它到底踩不踩</s>
<time>853_00:26:17,202 --> 00:26:18,282</time>
<s>你小心点别扎着你啊</s>
<time>854_00:26:20,802 --> 00:26:21,162</time>
<s>你再走走</s>
<time>855_00:26:21,522 --> 00:26:22,242</time>
<s>我看一眼</s>
<time>856_00:26:22,602 --> 00:26:22,962</time>
<s>你走吧</s>
<time>857_00:26:24,762 --> 00:26:25,122</time>
<s>会踩吗</s>
<time>858_00:26:26,922 --> 00:26:27,282</time>
<s>不会了</s>
<time>859_00:26:27,642 --> 00:26:29,082</time>
<s>那就是里面衬的那个纱</s>
<time>860_00:26:29,442 --> 00:26:30,522</time>
<s>你把纱给我剪掉</s>
<time>861_00:26:31,962 --> 00:26:32,682</time>
<s>我的顺序乱了</s>
<time>862_00:26:33,042 --> 00:26:33,402</time>
<s>再排一下</s>
<time>863_00:26:34,482 --> 00:26:35,922</time>
<s>你们往前站一点有灯的地方</s>
<time>864_00:26:36,282 --> 00:26:36,642</time>
<s>然后给燕姐看</s>
<time>865_00:26:37,722 --> 00:26:39,882</time>
<s>再往前再往前</s>
<time>866_00:26:40,962 --> 00:26:41,682</time>
<s>再往前再往前</s>
<time>867_00:26:42,042 --> 00:26:43,482</time>
<s>看着燕姐</s>
<time>868_00:26:48,522 --> 00:26:49,962</time>
<s>刚刚你说那个以前那个自信</s>
<time>869_00:26:50,322 --> 00:26:51,762</time>
<s>跟无所谓也有关系</s>
<time>870_00:26:52,122 --> 00:26:54,642</time>
<s>然后比如说你突然去了巴黎也好</s>
<time>871_00:26:55,002 --> 00:26:55,722</time>
<s>去了更大的世界也好</s>
<time>872_00:26:56,082 --> 00:26:56,802</time>
<s>原来世界这么丰富</s>
<time>873_00:26:57,162 --> 00:26:58,242</time>
<s>这么多不了解的事情</s>
<time>874_00:26:58,602 --> 00:26:59,682</time>
<s>那时候的安全感呢</s>
<time>875_00:27:00,402 --> 00:27:01,122</time>
<s>其实我刚去</s>
<time>876_00:27:01,482 --> 00:27:02,202</time>
<s>他们就说我是</s>
<time>877_00:27:02,562 --> 00:27:04,002</time>
<s>疯狂的中国女孩</s>
