<time>1741_00:48:55,482 --> 00:48:56,921</time>
<s>没有想法</s>
<time>1742_00:48:57,282 --> 00:48:57,642</time>
<s>到高中吧</s>
<time>1743_00:48:58,002 --> 00:48:58,722</time>
<s>才觉得</s>
<time>1744_00:48:59,082 --> 00:49:00,882</time>
<s>那会儿是看了什么电影</s>
<time>1745_00:49:01,241 --> 00:49:01,962</time>
<s>还是什么的</s>
<time>1746_00:49:02,322 --> 00:49:02,682</time>
<s>看到</s>
<time>1747_00:49:03,042 --> 00:49:03,402</time>
<s>看到中央戏剧学院</s>
<time>1748_00:49:03,762 --> 00:49:04,122</time>
<s>这几个字出现了</s>
<time>1749_00:49:04,842 --> 00:49:06,282</time>
<s>再加上在高中</s>
<time>1750_00:49:07,362 --> 00:49:08,442</time>
<s>自己会排一些小品</s>
<time>1751_00:49:09,161 --> 00:49:10,241</time>
<s>身边的人就开始吹捧你</s>
<time>1752_00:49:10,602 --> 00:49:10,962</time>
<s>你好棒</s>
<time>1753_00:49:11,322 --> 00:49:12,042</time>
<s>姜逸磊你好棒</s>
<time>1754_00:49:12,402 --> 00:49:12,762</time>
<s>你好厉害</s>
<time>1755_00:49:13,122 --> 00:49:14,201</time>
<s>你去考中戏吧</s>
<time>1756_00:49:14,562 --> 00:49:16,002</time>
<s>什么考上戏吧那些</s>
<time>1757_00:49:17,082 --> 00:49:17,442</time>
<s>后来就</s>
<time>1758_00:49:18,161 --> 00:49:19,241</time>
<s>觉得要不去试一试</s>
<time>1759_00:49:19,602 --> 00:49:21,401</time>
<s>因为我数学真的很差</s>
<time>1760_00:49:21,762 --> 00:49:22,482</time>
<s>所以我就觉得我</s>
<time>1761_00:49:23,562 --> 00:49:24,282</time>
<s>正常上学</s>
<time>1762_00:49:24,642 --> 00:49:25,362</time>
<s>我能不能考上呢</s>
<time>1763_00:49:26,082 --> 00:49:27,162</time>
<s>开家长会我妈就会去</s>
<time>1764_00:49:27,522 --> 00:49:28,242</time>
<s>跟老师说</s>
<time>1765_00:49:28,602 --> 00:49:29,682</time>
<s>朱老师我们家</s>
<time>1766_00:49:30,042 --> 00:49:30,762</time>
<s>姜逸磊数学不好</s>
<time>1767_00:49:31,122 --> 00:49:32,562</time>
<s>你能不能给她补补课</s>
<time>1768_00:49:32,922 --> 00:49:34,002</time>
<s>然后他很敏锐</s>
<time>1769_00:49:34,361 --> 00:49:35,442</time>
<s>你是不是不喜欢数学</s>
<time>1770_00:49:35,802 --> 00:49:36,882</time>
<s>我说我不喜欢</s>
<time>1771_00:49:37,241 --> 00:49:37,602</time>
<s>他说很正常</s>
<time>1772_00:49:37,962 --> 00:49:39,042</time>
<s>我第一次有一个老师跟我说</s>
<time>1773_00:49:39,402 --> 00:49:40,482</time>
<s>偏科是很正常的</s>
<time>1774_00:49:41,562 --> 00:49:42,282</time>
<s>这老师好自在</s>
<time>1775_00:49:42,642 --> 00:49:43,362</time>
<s>自由开放</s>
<time>1776_00:49:43,722 --> 00:49:44,442</time>
<s>他很自由</s>
<time>1777_00:49:44,802 --> 00:49:46,602</time>
<s>包括我上大学前</s>
<time>1778_00:49:46,962 --> 00:49:48,402</time>
<s>是他推荐的我天涯论坛</s>
<time>1779_00:49:49,122 --> 00:49:49,482</time>
<s>老师叫什么呀</s>
<time>1780_00:49:49,842 --> 00:49:50,202</time>
<s>方便说吗</s>
<time>1781_00:49:50,562 --> 00:49:51,282</time>
<s>朱凡昌</s>
<time>1782_00:49:52,002 --> 00:49:53,082</time>
<s>我跟他到现在还有联系</s>
<time>1783_00:49:53,802 --> 00:49:55,242</time>
<s>然后就说他说</s>
<time>1784_00:49:55,602 --> 00:49:57,042</time>
<s>如果你不喜欢数学</s>
<time>1785_00:49:57,762 --> 00:49:58,482</time>
<s>你要不要考虑一下</s>
<time>1786_00:49:59,562 --> 00:50:00,642</time>
<s>别的学校或者什么的</s>
<time>1787_00:50:01,002 --> 00:50:02,442</time>
<s>他说偏科很正常没有关系</s>
<time>1788_00:50:02,802 --> 00:50:03,522</time>
<s>这要我妈听见没有关系</s>
<time>1789_00:50:03,882 --> 00:50:04,242</time>
<s>肯定要生气的</s>
<time>1790_00:50:05,322 --> 00:50:06,042</time>
<s>后来我就跟他表达过</s>
<time>1791_00:50:06,402 --> 00:50:06,762</time>
<s>我想上中戏</s>
<time>1792_00:50:07,122 --> 00:50:08,202</time>
<s>然后有一天朱老师就说</s>
<time>1793_00:50:08,562 --> 00:50:09,642</time>
<s>中戏开始报名了</s>
<time>1794_00:50:10,002 --> 00:50:10,362</time>
<s>你要不要去报名</s>
<time>1795_00:50:10,722 --> 00:50:11,082</time>
<s>我说我不报了</s>
<time>1796_00:50:11,442 --> 00:50:11,802</time>
<s>我爸妈肯定不允许</s>
<time>1797_00:50:12,162 --> 00:50:13,242</time>
<s>他说你不要考虑你爸妈</s>
<time>1798_00:50:13,602 --> 00:50:14,322</time>
<s>你就说你想不想</s>
<time>1799_00:50:14,682 --> 00:50:15,402</time>
<s>我说那我试一试</s>
<time>1800_00:50:15,762 --> 00:50:16,482</time>
<s>我们一共是三试</s>
<time>1801_00:50:16,842 --> 00:50:17,922</time>
<s>每一次考试的费用是</s>
<time>1802_00:50:18,282 --> 00:50:18,642</time>
<s>一百块钱</s>
<time>1803_00:50:19,002 --> 00:50:20,442</time>
<s>他就每次帮我交钱</s>
<time>1804_00:50:20,802 --> 00:50:22,602</time>
<s>然后每次带我去考试</s>
<time>1805_00:50:22,962 --> 00:50:23,682</time>
<s>我在里面考他就</s>
<time>1806_00:50:24,042 --> 00:50:25,122</time>
<s>在那个学校外面等我</s>
<time>1807_00:50:26,202 --> 00:50:27,282</time>
<s>到进三试的时候</s>
<time>1808_00:50:27,642 --> 00:50:28,362</time>
<s>我在上课</s>
<time>1809_00:50:29,082 --> 00:50:30,162</time>
<s>他早上</s>
<time>1810_00:50:30,522 --> 00:50:31,962</time>
<s>骑自行车去上戏帮我看榜</s>
<time>1811_00:50:32,322 --> 00:50:33,042</time>
<s>老师这么好</s>
<time>1812_00:50:33,402 --> 00:50:34,122</time>
<s>很好对我真的很好</s>
<time>1813_00:50:34,482 --> 00:50:35,202</time>
<s>然后给我发信息说</s>
<time>1814_00:50:36,282 --> 00:50:37,002</time>
<s>你上了赶紧过来</s>
<time>1815_00:50:37,362 --> 00:50:38,442</time>
<s>然后那会是班主任在上课</s>
<time>1816_00:50:38,802 --> 00:50:39,162</time>
<s>我就腾地一下</s>
<time>1817_00:50:39,522 --> 00:50:39,882</time>
<s>站起来</s>
<time>1818_00:50:40,242 --> 00:50:41,322</time>
<s>我说我进三试了</s>
<time>1819_00:50:41,682 --> 00:50:43,482</time>
<s>然后全班给我鼓掌</s>
<time>1820_00:50:43,842 --> 00:50:44,922</time>
<s>然后老师说赶紧去</s>
<time>1821_00:50:45,642 --> 00:50:47,802</time>
<s>那是人生很动人的时刻</s>
<time>1822_00:50:48,162 --> 00:50:48,882</time>
<s>很动人很动人</s>
<time>1823_00:50:49,602 --> 00:50:50,682</time>
<s>到现在想起来都觉得很激动</s>
<time>1824_00:50:51,762 --> 00:50:52,482</time>
<s>他说但他那会儿</s>
<time>1825_00:50:52,842 --> 00:50:53,922</time>
<s>朱老师当时多大年纪</s>
<time>1826_00:50:54,282 --> 00:50:55,002</time>
<s>不到三十吧</s>
<time>1827_00:50:55,362 --> 00:50:56,082</time>
<s>就很年轻</s>
<time>1828_00:50:57,162 --> 00:50:58,242</time>
<s>他没有想到我能考上</s>
<time>1829_00:50:58,602 --> 00:50:59,682</time>
<s>他有百分之五十的这个</s>
<time>1830_00:51:00,042 --> 00:51:00,762</time>
<s>动机是</s>
<time>1831_00:51:01,122 --> 00:51:01,842</time>
<s>你放弃这条路吧</s>
<time>1832_00:51:02,922 --> 00:51:03,642</time>
<s>你就踏实下来学习</s>
<time>1833_00:51:05,082 --> 00:51:05,802</time>
<s>但他说我考上他</s>
<time>1834_00:51:06,162 --> 00:51:06,882</time>
<s>真的很开心</s>
<time>1835_00:51:07,602 --> 00:51:07,962</time>
<s>你爸什么反应</s>
<time>1836_00:51:09,402 --> 00:51:09,762</time>
<s>我爸就觉得</s>
<time>1837_00:51:10,122 --> 00:51:10,842</time>
<s>你一定能成</s>
<time>1838_00:51:11,922 --> 00:51:12,642</time>
<s>我早就知道你能成</s>
<time>1839_00:51:13,722 --> 00:51:14,442</time>
<s>像了你爸爸我了</s>
<time>1840_00:51:15,882 --> 00:51:16,602</time>
<s>就是你们家你爸爸</s>
<time>1841_00:51:16,962 --> 00:51:18,402</time>
<s>是一个更盲目乐观的人是吗</s>
<time>1842_00:51:20,562 --> 00:51:21,282</time>
<s>我妈会更实际</s>
<time>1843_00:51:21,642 --> 00:51:22,362</time>
<s>那你觉得你身上</s>
<time>1844_00:51:22,722 --> 00:51:23,442</time>
<s>哪部分更多呢</s>
<time>1845_00:51:24,522 --> 00:51:24,882</time>
<s>像我妈吧</s>
<time>1846_00:51:26,322 --> 00:51:27,042</time>
<s>不能太飘</s>
<time>1847_00:51:27,402 --> 00:51:27,762</time>
<s>你还是得落到</s>
<time>1848_00:51:28,122 --> 00:51:28,842</time>
<s>落到地上</s>
<time>1849_00:51:29,922 --> 00:51:30,282</time>
<s>不然的话你的生活</s>
<time>1850_00:51:30,642 --> 00:51:31,002</time>
<s>会有危险的</s>
<time>1851_00:51:31,722 --> 00:51:32,082</time>
<s>所以如果</s>
<time>1852_00:51:32,442 --> 00:51:33,882</time>
<s>没有跟你说中戏的事</s>
<time>1853_00:51:34,242 --> 00:51:34,602</time>
<s>你觉得你的道路</s>
<time>1854_00:51:34,962 --> 00:51:35,322</time>
<s>会是什么样子</s>
<time>1855_00:51:35,682 --> 00:51:36,042</time>
<s>我可能就是进</s>
<time>1856_00:51:36,402 --> 00:51:37,122</time>
<s>上海理工大学了吧</s>
<time>1857_00:51:37,482 --> 00:51:38,202</time>
<s>然后学了一个文科</s>
<time>1858_00:51:38,562 --> 00:51:40,002</time>
<s>然后到二零一几年</s>
<time>1859_00:51:40,362 --> 00:51:41,442</time>
<s>可能依然开始拍短视频</s>
<time>1860_00:51:41,802 --> 00:51:42,882</time>
<s>总之会走上这个路</s>
<time>1861_00:51:43,242 --> 00:51:43,602</time>
<s>我觉得会</s>
<time>1862_00:51:43,962 --> 00:51:45,402</time>
<s>因为它给你带来了</s>
<time>1863_00:51:45,762 --> 00:51:46,842</time>
<s>乐趣</s>
<time>1864_00:51:47,202 --> 00:51:48,282</time>
<s>然后你的兴趣和爱好</s>
<time>1865_00:51:48,642 --> 00:51:49,362</time>
<s>可能也就在那儿</s>
<time>1866_00:51:51,882 --> 00:51:52,602</time>
<s>你上次说你2005年</s>
<time>1867_00:51:52,962 --> 00:51:53,682</time>
<s>来北京的时候</s>
<time>1868_00:51:54,042 --> 00:51:55,122</time>
<s>那段时间特别的</s>
<time>1869_00:51:55,842 --> 00:51:56,562</time>
<s>北京特别迷人</s>
<time>1870_00:51:56,922 --> 00:51:57,642</time>
<s>给你特别好的印象</s>
<time>1871_00:51:58,002 --> 00:51:59,442</time>
<s>那是什么样的一种感觉呢</s>
<time>1872_00:52:00,522 --> 00:52:01,242</time>
<s>我觉得那会的北京</s>
<time>1873_00:52:01,602 --> 00:52:02,682</time>
<s>它带着一种自由的东西</s>
<time>1874_00:52:03,042 --> 00:52:04,482</time>
<s>这是一个让你自由的城市</s>
<time>1875_00:52:04,842 --> 00:52:06,282</time>
<s>然后你去的又是一个</s>
<time>1876_00:52:06,642 --> 00:52:07,002</time>
<s>尤其自由的</s>
<time>1877_00:52:07,362 --> 00:52:08,802</time>
<s>包容度很高的一个学校</s>
<time>1878_00:52:09,162 --> 00:52:09,882</time>
<s>你身边的同学全都是</s>
<time>1879_00:52:10,242 --> 00:52:10,602</time>
<s>一些怪咖</s>
<time>1880_00:52:11,322 --> 00:52:12,402</time>
<s>它是一个全方位的让你觉得</s>
<time>1881_00:52:12,762 --> 00:52:13,482</time>
<s>我好自由</s>
<time>1882_00:52:14,202 --> 00:52:15,282</time>
<s>那会中戏附近</s>
<time>1883_00:52:15,642 --> 00:52:16,362</time>
<s>全都是这样的酒吧</s>
<time>1884_00:52:16,722 --> 00:52:17,442</time>
<s>或者是咖啡馆</s>
<time>1885_00:52:18,162 --> 00:52:19,242</time>
<s>有人在聊书</s>
<time>1886_00:52:19,602 --> 00:52:20,322</time>
<s>聊戏剧聊电影</s>
<time>1887_00:52:21,042 --> 00:52:21,762</time>
<s>它其实对中戏学生的</s>
<time>1888_00:52:22,122 --> 00:52:22,482</time>
<s>一个自我塑造</s>
<time>1889_00:52:22,842 --> 00:52:23,922</time>
<s>有一个很好的一个(影响)</s>
<time>1890_00:52:24,642 --> 00:52:25,002</time>
<s>你会不自觉的</s>
<time>1891_00:52:25,362 --> 00:52:25,722</time>
<s>你就觉得</s>
<time>1892_00:52:26,082 --> 00:52:28,242</time>
<s>我会成为艺术家</s>
<time>1893_00:52:28,602 --> 00:52:28,962</time>
<s>序列都在这里</s>
<time>1894_00:52:30,762 --> 00:52:31,842</time>
<s>我前年</s>
<time>1895_00:52:32,202 --> 00:52:33,282</time>
<s>跟我老公我们基本上</s>
<time>1896_00:52:33,642 --> 00:52:35,802</time>
<s>每一年都会回南锣鼓巷</s>
<time>1897_00:52:36,522 --> 00:52:37,242</time>
<s>对胡同里</s>
<time>1898_00:52:37,602 --> 00:52:37,962</time>
<s>你们学校在胡同里</s>
<time>1899_00:52:38,322 --> 00:52:39,402</time>
<s>然后那个记忆消失了</s>
<time>1900_00:52:39,762 --> 00:52:40,482</time>
<s>记忆消失了都被拆除了</s>
<time>1901_00:52:40,842 --> 00:52:42,282</time>
<s>看到南锣鼓巷我俩傻眼了</s>
<time>1902_00:52:42,642 --> 00:52:43,362</time>
<s>胡同口是有闸机的</s>
<time>1903_00:52:44,802 --> 00:52:45,522</time>
<s>这是什么</s>
<time>1904_00:52:45,882 --> 00:52:46,242</time>
<s>然后我们就站在胡同口</s>
<time>1905_00:52:46,602 --> 00:52:47,322</time>
<s>我们也不进去了这样</s>
<time>1906_00:52:47,682 --> 00:52:48,042</time>
<s>张望</s>
<time>1907_00:52:48,402 --> 00:52:49,842</time>
<s>这个店卖什么</s>
<time>1908_00:52:50,202 --> 00:52:50,562</time>
<s>江南特产</s>
<time>1909_00:52:53,082 --> 00:52:53,802</time>
<s>上海回来找你了</s>
<time>1910_00:52:54,522 --> 00:52:54,882</time>
<s>是</s>
<time>1911_00:52:55,962 --> 00:52:56,682</time>
<s>这是我故乡的召唤</s>
<time>1912_00:52:58,482 --> 00:52:59,202</time>
<s>我们更早之前是</s>
<time>1913_00:52:59,562 --> 00:52:59,922</time>
<s>2017年或2018年</s>
<time>1914_00:53:00,282 --> 00:53:01,002</time>
<s>也是结婚纪念日</s>
<time>1915_00:53:01,362 --> 00:53:02,442</time>
<s>去那儿一个</s>
<time>1916_00:53:03,162 --> 00:53:03,522</time>
<s>咖啡馆</s>
<time>1917_00:53:03,882 --> 00:53:04,242</time>
<s>进去之后我们发现</s>
<time>1918_00:53:04,602 --> 00:53:05,682</time>
<s>二楼一个人都没有</s>
<time>1919_00:53:06,042 --> 00:53:06,402</time>
<s>（我上学）那会儿都是</s>
<time>1920_00:53:06,762 --> 00:53:07,482</time>
<s>一座难求</s>
<time>1921_00:53:07,842 --> 00:53:08,922</time>
<s>他们都躲在宿舍里看</s>
<time>1922_00:53:09,282 --> 00:53:10,722</time>
<s>看papi酱的短视频呢吧</s>
<time>1923_00:53:11,082 --> 00:53:11,802</time>
<s>我觉得也不会吧</s>
<time>1924_00:53:13,242 --> 00:53:13,602</time>
<s>我觉得中戏学生</s>
<time>1925_00:53:13,962 --> 00:53:14,682</time>
<s>并不想成为我这样的</s>
<time>1926_00:53:16,122 --> 00:53:16,842</time>
<s>大部分中戏学生</s>
<time>1927_00:53:17,202 --> 00:53:17,562</time>
<s>我觉得</s>
<time>1928_00:53:17,922 --> 00:53:19,002</time>
<s>因为我也没有想</s>
<time>1929_00:53:19,362 --> 00:53:20,082</time>
<s>想到我会成为我这样</s>
<time>1930_00:53:21,162 --> 00:53:22,242</time>
<s>那你喜欢你成为你这样的吗</s>
<time>1931_00:53:22,602 --> 00:53:22,962</time>
<s>很好啊</s>
<time>1932_00:53:24,042 --> 00:53:24,762</time>
<s>我听说那天</s>
<time>1933_00:53:25,122 --> 00:53:26,202</time>
<s>他们都被问到有没有遗憾</s>
<time>1934_00:53:26,562 --> 00:53:27,642</time>
<s>或者说觉得我的遗憾是什么</s>
<time>1935_00:53:28,362 --> 00:53:29,442</time>
<s>还做挺多功课你还</s>
<time>1936_00:53:30,162 --> 00:53:32,322</time>
<s>就我们公司同事都很八卦</s>
<time>1937_00:53:33,042 --> 00:53:33,762</time>
<s>我发现了现在</s>
<time>1938_00:53:34,842 --> 00:53:35,562</time>
<s>尤其是对</s>
<time>1939_00:53:35,922 --> 00:53:36,282</time>
<s>老板</s>
<time>1940_00:53:37,002 --> 00:53:37,722</time>
<s>而且消解他们</s>
<time>1941_00:53:38,082 --> 00:53:38,442</time>
<s>特别开心嘛</s>
<time>1942_00:53:38,802 --> 00:53:39,162</time>
<s>我也很开心他们</s>
<time>1943_00:53:39,522 --> 00:53:40,242</time>
<s>被我的同事消解</s>
<time>1944_00:53:41,322 --> 00:53:42,762</time>
<s>然后他们就会给我播报一下</s>
<time>1945_00:53:43,842 --> 00:53:44,562</time>
<s>对遗憾</s>
<time>1946_00:53:44,922 --> 00:53:46,722</time>
<s>我这两天就仔细地想了一想</s>
<time>1947_00:53:47,082 --> 00:53:47,802</time>
<s>我没有遗撼</s>
<time>1948_00:53:48,162 --> 00:53:48,882</time>
<s>因为我可能</s>
<time>1949_00:53:50,322 --> 00:53:51,042</time>
<s>就我觉得我</s>
<time>1950_00:53:51,402 --> 00:53:52,482</time>
<s>没有能力去那样</s>
<time>1951_00:53:52,842 --> 00:53:53,922</time>
<s>我能到现在这样</s>
<time>1952_00:53:55,002 --> 00:53:56,082</time>
<s>可能就是因为我运气好</s>
<time>1953_00:53:57,522 --> 00:53:58,962</time>
<s>然后加上我个人的</s>
<time>1954_00:53:59,322 --> 00:53:59,682</time>
<s>一些天赋</s>
<time>1955_00:54:00,762 --> 00:54:02,202</time>
<s>和一些努力</s>
<time>1956_00:54:02,562 --> 00:54:04,002</time>
<s>但是如果没有这个运气的话</s>
<time>1957_00:54:05,442 --> 00:54:05,802</time>
<s>我可能就</s>
<time>1958_00:54:06,882 --> 00:54:07,242</time>
<s>无名之辈嘛</s>
<time>1959_00:54:09,042 --> 00:54:09,762</time>
<s>所以当这个运气过去</s>
<time>1960_00:54:10,122 --> 00:54:10,842</time>
<s>你也觉得很坦然</s>
<time>1961_00:54:11,922 --> 00:54:12,642</time>
<s>你顶多会有一种</s>
<time>1962_00:54:14,082 --> 00:54:14,802</time>
<s>应该趁着红的那两年</s>
<time>1963_00:54:15,162 --> 00:54:15,882</time>
<s>多赚点钱</s>
<time>1964_00:54:18,762 --> 00:54:19,842</time>
<s>我可能是觉得我不想</s>
<time>1965_00:54:20,202 --> 00:54:20,922</time>
<s>过很累的人生</s>
<time>1966_00:54:21,282 --> 00:54:22,002</time>
<s>我觉得有梦想有理想</s>
<time>1967_00:54:22,362 --> 00:54:22,722</time>
<s>要去拼搏</s>
<time>1968_00:54:23,082 --> 00:54:23,802</time>
<s>是一件很累的事情</s>
<time>1969_00:54:24,162 --> 00:54:25,242</time>
<s>就只是想轻轻松松的</s>
<time>1970_00:54:25,962 --> 00:54:26,322</time>
<s>过吧</s>
<time>1971_00:54:28,842 --> 00:54:30,642</time>
<s>这样是不是在许老师眼里</s>
<time>1972_00:54:31,002 --> 00:54:31,722</time>
<s>这种是非常</s>
<time>1973_00:54:32,802 --> 00:54:33,522</time>
<s>不行的充满羡慕</s>
<time>1974_00:54:34,242 --> 00:54:34,962</time>
<s>不是因为我觉得</s>
<time>1975_00:54:35,682 --> 00:54:36,762</time>
<s>我觉得您这种是</s>
<time>1976_00:54:37,482 --> 00:54:38,202</time>
<s>怎么可以不思考</s>
<time>1977_00:54:39,642 --> 00:54:40,362</time>
<s>怎么可以不努力</s>
<time>1978_00:54:41,442 --> 00:54:41,802</time>
<s>你不要消解我</s>
<time>1979_00:54:43,242 --> 00:54:43,962</time>
<s>很喜欢消解</s>
<time>1980_00:54:45,042 --> 00:54:45,402</time>
<s>许老师这样的</s>
<time>1981_00:54:46,842 --> 00:54:47,562</time>
<s>因为我觉得可能</s>
<time>1982_00:54:47,922 --> 00:54:49,002</time>
<s>是不是人的性格不一样</s>
<time>1983_00:54:49,362 --> 00:54:50,442</time>
<s>当我处在一个</s>
<time>1984_00:54:50,802 --> 00:54:52,602</time>
<s>更充满意义的时刻</s>
<time>1985_00:54:52,962 --> 00:54:54,402</time>
<s>或者是世界里面</s>
<time>1986_00:54:54,762 --> 00:54:55,842</time>
<s>我是更放松的</s>
<time>1987_00:54:56,202 --> 00:54:57,282</time>
<s>即使你那个地方</s>
<time>1988_00:54:57,642 --> 00:54:58,002</time>
<s>你是达不到的</s>
<time>1989_00:54:58,362 --> 00:54:58,722</time>
<s>但你意识到</s>
<time>1990_00:54:59,082 --> 00:54:59,802</time>
<s>你在朝着那个地方努力</s>
<time>1991_00:55:00,162 --> 00:55:01,242</time>
<s>我是最舒服的状态</s>
<time>1992_00:55:02,682 --> 00:55:03,402</time>
<s>但是如果说</s>
<time>1993_00:55:03,762 --> 00:55:04,842</time>
<s>那个远方的地方消失了</s>
<time>1994_00:55:05,202 --> 00:55:05,922</time>
<s>让我处在一个即使我很</s>
<time>1995_00:55:06,642 --> 00:55:07,362</time>
<s>看起来没有任何压力的地方</s>
<time>1996_00:55:07,722 --> 00:55:08,802</time>
<s>但我是非常不自在的</s>
<time>1997_00:55:09,882 --> 00:55:11,322</time>
<s>我可能跟您就正相反</s>
<time>1998_00:55:13,842 --> 00:55:14,562</time>
<s>我觉得我更多的</s>
<time>1999_00:55:14,922 --> 00:55:15,642</time>
<s>我有很多的无力</s>
<time>2000_00:55:16,722 --> 00:55:17,082</time>
<s>我有很多的视频</s>
<time>2001_00:55:17,442 --> 00:55:18,162</time>
<s>其实是基于一种</s>
<time>2002_00:55:19,602 --> 00:55:19,962</time>
<s>去做的</s>
<time>2003_00:55:20,322 --> 00:55:21,042</time>
<s>一些反讽的</s>
<time>2004_00:55:21,402 --> 00:55:22,122</time>
<s>一些什么的</s>
<time>2005_00:55:22,482 --> 00:55:24,642</time>
<s>一些有针砭时弊的</s>
<time>2006_00:55:25,722 --> 00:55:26,802</time>
<s>并不是出于愤怒去做的</s>
<time>2007_00:55:27,522 --> 00:55:28,962</time>
<s>因为毕竟我是想做</s>
<time>2008_00:55:30,042 --> 00:55:30,762</time>
<s>就好笑一些的</s>
<time>2009_00:55:31,122 --> 00:55:31,842</time>
<s>我不想很</s>
<time>2010_00:55:32,202 --> 00:55:33,282</time>
<s>很严肃的去</s>
<time>2011_00:55:33,642 --> 00:55:34,362</time>
<s>那什么因为</s>
<time>2012_00:55:35,082 --> 00:55:35,802</time>
<s>你这样的话</s>
<time>2013_00:55:36,162 --> 00:55:36,882</time>
<s>你可能</s>
<time>2014_00:55:37,242 --> 00:55:37,962</time>
<s>只能服务于</s>
<time>2015_00:55:38,322 --> 00:55:39,042</time>
<s>服务到你自己</s>
<time>2016_00:55:39,402 --> 00:55:39,762</time>
<s>可能</s>
<time>2017_00:55:40,122 --> 00:55:41,562</time>
<s>大家看完不会有你相同的感受</s>
<time>2018_00:55:41,922 --> 00:55:42,642</time>
<s>没有办法跟你感同身受</s>
<time>2019_00:55:43,002 --> 00:55:43,722</time>
<s>还是想</s>
<time>2020_00:55:44,082 --> 00:55:46,242</time>
<s>我用最简单的一个方式</s>
<time>2021_00:55:46,602 --> 00:55:47,682</time>
<s>让更多的人去明白我什么意思</s>
<time>2022_00:55:49,122 --> 00:55:49,842</time>
<s>你如果用愤怒的话</s>
<time>2023_00:55:50,922 --> 00:55:51,642</time>
<s>这个方式很难找的</s>
<time>2024_00:55:52,362 --> 00:55:54,162</time>
<s>那你会觉得有某种怎么说呢</s>
<time>2025_00:55:54,522 --> 00:55:56,322</time>
<s>其实过去的很长一段时间</s>
<time>2026_00:55:56,682 --> 00:55:58,482</time>
<s>不管是这个社会也好</s>
<time>2027_00:55:58,842 --> 00:55:59,922</time>
<s>包括这个更年轻的群体</s>
<time>2028_00:56:00,282 --> 00:56:00,642</time>
<s>兴起也好</s>
<time>2029_00:56:01,002 --> 00:56:03,162</time>
<s>大家是有意识地</s>
<time>2030_00:56:03,882 --> 00:56:04,602</time>
<s>去历史化</s>
<time>2031_00:56:04,962 --> 00:56:06,762</time>
<s>不去面对更长远的东西</s>
<time>2032_00:56:07,122 --> 00:56:08,202</time>
<s>然后更活在此刻</s>
<time>2033_00:56:08,562 --> 00:56:09,282</time>
<s>包括更碎片化</s>
<time>2034_00:56:09,642 --> 00:56:11,082</time>
<s>去回避掉沉重的事情</s>
<time>2035_00:56:11,442 --> 00:56:12,522</time>
<s>刻意把自己放在</s>
<time>2036_00:56:12,882 --> 00:56:13,962</time>
<s>某种天真的状态里面去</s>
<time>2037_00:56:14,322 --> 00:56:15,042</time>
<s>或者回避去思考这一切</s>
<time>2038_00:56:16,122 --> 00:56:17,202</time>
<s>这个没有办法</s>
<time>2039_00:56:18,282 --> 00:56:19,362</time>
<s>有很多人是看不到这些的</s>
<time>2040_00:56:19,722 --> 00:56:20,082</time>
<s>就是</s>
<time>2041_00:56:22,242 --> 00:56:23,322</time>
<s>所以我觉得有很多</s>
<time>2042_00:56:23,682 --> 00:56:24,762</time>
<s>不是一个刻意的回避</s>
<time>2043_00:56:26,202 --> 00:56:26,922</time>
<s>然后普通民众</s>
<time>2044_00:56:27,282 --> 00:56:27,642</time>
<s>永远都需要被娱乐</s>
<time>2045_00:56:28,002 --> 00:56:28,722</time>
<s>永远都需要</s>
<time>2046_00:56:29,082 --> 00:56:29,802</time>
<s>更开心的事情</s>
<time>2047_00:56:30,162 --> 00:56:30,882</time>
<s>虽然我说我们这一代人</s>
<time>2048_00:56:31,242 --> 00:56:31,602</time>
<s>没有吃过苦</s>
<time>2049_00:56:31,962 --> 00:56:32,682</time>
<s>但你说一个八零后</s>
<time>2050_00:56:33,042 --> 00:56:33,762</time>
<s>如果背着房贷</s>
<time>2051_00:56:34,122 --> 00:56:34,842</time>
<s>还养着家</s>
<time>2052_00:56:35,922 --> 00:56:36,642</time>
<s>他也苦</s>
<time>2053_00:56:38,802 --> 00:56:40,242</time>
<s>你内心的苦一旦是</s>
<time>2054_00:56:40,602 --> 00:56:41,682</time>
<s>你个人承受的一个极限</s>
<time>2055_00:56:42,042 --> 00:56:43,122</time>
<s>你感受不到大众的苦</s>
<time>2056_00:56:43,482 --> 00:56:44,202</time>
<s>那我就刷刷抖音</s>
<time>2057_00:56:44,562 --> 00:56:45,282</time>
<s>我看看我消遣一下</s>
<time>2058_00:56:45,642 --> 00:56:46,362</time>
<s>我为什么要去感受</s>
<time>2059_00:56:47,082 --> 00:56:47,802</time>
<s>我自己很苦了</s>
<time>2060_00:56:48,162 --> 00:56:48,882</time>
<s>或者说对</s>
<time>2061_00:56:49,242 --> 00:56:50,322</time>
<s>其实每代人都有自己的苦闷</s>
<time>2062_00:56:50,682 --> 00:56:51,042</time>
<s>刚刚你说的这种</s>
<time>2063_00:56:51,402 --> 00:56:52,122</time>
<s>也是一种苦闷</s>
<time>2064_00:56:52,482 --> 00:56:52,842</time>
<s>对但</s>
<time>2065_00:56:53,202 --> 00:56:53,922</time>
<s>好像这种苦闷</s>
<time>2066_00:56:55,002 --> 00:56:56,082</time>
<s>大家又不知道怎么去表达</s>
<time>2067_00:56:56,442 --> 00:56:57,522</time>
<s>这个苦闷某种意义上</s>
<time>2068_00:56:57,882 --> 00:56:58,962</time>
<s>我可以这么说吗我也不知道</s>
<time>2069_00:56:59,322 --> 00:57:00,402</time>
<s>一直没有表达方式的</s>
<time>2070_00:57:00,762 --> 00:57:01,482</time>
<s>不管什么年代的苦闷</s>
<time>2071_00:57:01,842 --> 00:57:02,562</time>
<s>都没有表达方式的</s>
<time>2072_00:57:03,642 --> 00:57:04,362</time>
<s>前一阵</s>
<time>2073_00:57:04,722 --> 00:57:06,162</time>
<s>有几天晚上我就睡不着觉了</s>
<time>2074_00:57:07,962 --> 00:57:09,402</time>
<s>就在想我明天起来</s>
<time>2075_00:57:09,762 --> 00:57:11,562</time>
<s>要买什么买什么</s>
<time>2076_00:57:11,922 --> 00:57:13,002</time>
<s>开始就往家里面搬物资</s>
<time>2077_00:57:13,362 --> 00:57:14,802</time>
<s>各种各样吃的用的</s>
<time>2078_00:57:15,522 --> 00:57:16,602</time>
<s>家里现在堆了得有</s>
<time>2079_00:57:16,962 --> 00:57:17,682</time>
<s>三五箱牛奶</s>
<time>2080_00:57:18,042 --> 00:57:19,122</time>
<s>十几根玉米</s>
<time>2081_00:57:20,202 --> 00:57:20,922</time>
<s>就很愁</s>
<time>2082_00:57:21,282 --> 00:57:22,002</time>
<s>还是有点冲动</s>
<time>2083_00:57:23,442 --> 00:57:24,522</time>
<s>但是真的你是</s>
<time>2084_00:57:25,242 --> 00:57:25,962</time>
<s>你的这个</s>
<time>2085_00:57:27,402 --> 00:57:28,482</time>
<s>你自己根本就拒绝不了</s>
<time>2086_00:57:28,842 --> 00:57:29,562</time>
<s>对而且这时间还短</s>
<time>2087_00:57:29,922 --> 00:57:31,362</time>
<s>你想一开始可能是焦灼</s>
<time>2088_00:57:32,082 --> 00:57:33,162</time>
<s>等随着时间更长</s>
<time>2089_00:57:33,522 --> 00:57:34,602</time>
<s>越来越内化之后</s>
<time>2090_00:57:35,322 --> 00:57:36,402</time>
<s>它就变成一个真正的苦闷</s>
<time>2091_00:57:36,762 --> 00:57:38,202</time>
<s>你甚至可能都不知道怎么去</s>
<time>2092_00:57:38,562 --> 00:57:39,282</time>
<s>表达它</s>
<time>2093_00:57:39,642 --> 00:57:40,722</time>
<s>然后又随着时间更推演</s>
<time>2094_00:57:41,082 --> 00:57:42,162</time>
<s>它就变成一种</s>
<time>2095_00:57:42,522 --> 00:57:42,882</time>
<s>淡淡的东西了</s>
<time>2096_00:57:43,242 --> 00:57:43,962</time>
<s>都不是那种</s>
<time>2097_00:57:44,322 --> 00:57:45,402</time>
<s>它就变成生活了</s>
<time>2098_00:57:45,762 --> 00:57:46,482</time>
<s>然后你就开始慢慢习惯</s>
<time>2099_00:57:49,722 --> 00:57:50,802</time>
<s>我觉得七十年代生人</s>
<time>2100_00:57:51,162 --> 00:57:52,242</time>
<s>因为也是赶上八十年代</s>
<time>2101_00:57:52,602 --> 00:57:53,682</time>
<s>九十年代开始经济蓬勃发展</s>
<time>2102_00:57:54,042 --> 00:57:55,122</time>
<s>因为我们本质上没有</s>
<time>2103_00:57:55,482 --> 00:57:57,282</time>
<s>但因为我们受上一代人的影响</s>
<time>2104_00:57:58,002 --> 00:57:58,722</time>
<s>对</s>
<time>2105_00:57:59,082 --> 00:57:59,802</time>
<s>他们都在谈时代的苦闷</s>
<time>2106_00:58:00,162 --> 00:58:01,242</time>
<s>像我爸妈他们就是</s>
<time>2107_00:58:01,602 --> 00:58:03,042</time>
<s>切实感受过</s>
<time>2108_00:58:03,402 --> 00:58:04,122</time>
<s>这个苦闷的</s>
<time>2109_00:58:04,842 --> 00:58:06,282</time>
<s>我曾经有一段时间我觉得</s>
<time>2110_00:58:06,642 --> 00:58:07,722</time>
<s>九十年代是很美好的</s>
<time>2111_00:58:08,082 --> 00:58:09,162</time>
<s>觉得什么都是有希望的</s>
<time>2112_00:58:09,882 --> 00:58:10,602</time>
<s>我们会</s>
<time>2113_00:58:10,962 --> 00:58:12,042</time>
<s>会拥有一个非常美好的生活</s>
<time>2114_00:58:13,122 --> 00:58:14,562</time>
<s>后来想到我妈九十年代</s>
<time>2115_00:58:14,922 --> 00:58:15,282</time>
<s>下岗了呀</s>
<time>2116_00:58:16,362 --> 00:58:17,082</time>
<s>你不能只看到照片上</s>
<time>2117_00:58:17,442 --> 00:58:18,162</time>
<s>那些非常</s>
<time>2118_00:58:19,242 --> 00:58:19,602</time>
<s>向往美好生活的人</s>
<time>2119_00:58:19,962 --> 00:58:21,042</time>
<s>但是离你最近是</s>
<time>2120_00:58:21,402 --> 00:58:22,122</time>
<s>你妈下岗之后</s>
<time>2121_00:58:22,482 --> 00:58:23,202</time>
<s>在家里不知道该怎么办</s>
<time>2122_00:58:24,642 --> 00:58:26,082</time>
<s>但是你往他们再上一代</s>
<time>2123_00:58:26,442 --> 00:58:26,802</time>
<s>我爷爷奶奶</s>
<time>2124_00:58:27,522 --> 00:58:28,962</time>
<s>他们不会把这种苦闷</s>
<time>2125_00:58:29,322 --> 00:58:30,402</time>
<s>当成是苦闷</s>
<time>2126_00:58:30,762 --> 00:58:31,482</time>
<s>因为他们</s>
<time>2127_00:58:31,842 --> 00:58:32,562</time>
<s>有过更苦的</s>
<time>2128_00:58:34,002 --> 00:58:34,362</time>
<s>我奶奶那个时候</s>
<time>2129_00:58:34,722 --> 00:58:35,802</time>
<s>要她交代</s>
<time>2130_00:58:37,602 --> 00:58:38,322</time>
<s>然后我奶奶就说</s>
<time>2131_00:58:38,682 --> 00:58:39,762</time>
<s>我就意思就我</s>
<time>2132_00:58:40,122 --> 00:58:40,482</time>
<s>交代什么</s>
<time>2133_00:58:41,202 --> 00:58:41,562</time>
<s>什么都没有</s>
<time>2134_00:58:41,922 --> 00:58:43,002</time>
<s>什么都没干过</s>
<time>2135_00:58:43,362 --> 00:58:43,722</time>
<s>怎么怎么地</s>
<time>2136_00:58:44,442 --> 00:58:45,522</time>
<s>然后说是你老虎的屁股</s>
<time>2137_00:58:45,882 --> 00:58:46,602</time>
<s>摸不得是不是</s>
<time>2138_00:58:46,962 --> 00:58:47,682</time>
<s>我奶奶就跟人拍桌子</s>
<time>2139_00:58:48,762 --> 00:58:49,482</time>
<s>说我的老虎屁股</s>
<time>2140_00:58:49,842 --> 00:58:50,922</time>
<s>你就是摸不得</s>
<time>2141_00:58:51,282 --> 00:58:52,722</time>
<s>我爷爷奶奶是当兵的</s>
<time>2142_00:58:53,082 --> 00:58:54,882</time>
<s>他们的内里就是有一种</s>
<time>2143_00:58:56,322 --> 00:58:57,762</time>
<s>我要跟你干到底</s>
<time>2144_00:58:58,842 --> 00:58:59,562</time>
<s>我觉得去</s>
<time>2145_00:58:59,922 --> 00:59:01,362</time>
<s>思考苦闷</s>
<time>2146_00:59:01,722 --> 00:59:02,802</time>
<s>或者说去反省</s>
<time>2147_00:59:03,162 --> 00:59:04,602</time>
<s>它永远都是少部分人</s>
<time>2148_00:59:04,962 --> 00:59:06,762</time>
<s>或者说极少部分人做的事情</s>
<time>2149_00:59:07,122 --> 00:59:08,562</time>
<s>不管是在过去还是现在</s>
<time>2150_00:59:08,922 --> 00:59:09,642</time>
<s>你说我奶奶这一代人</s>
<time>2151_00:59:10,002 --> 00:59:11,442</time>
<s>我没见几个人去反思的</s>
<time>2152_00:59:12,162 --> 00:59:12,882</time>
<s>他们只会骂</s>
<time>2153_00:59:13,242 --> 00:59:14,322</time>
<s>顶多骂两句</s>
<time>2154_00:59:14,682 --> 00:59:15,402</time>
<s>对发个牢骚</s>
<time>2155_00:59:16,122 --> 00:59:17,562</time>
<s>有多少人去真正去</s>
<time>2156_00:59:18,282 --> 00:59:19,362</time>
<s>去思考去反省</s>
<time>2157_00:59:21,522 --> 00:59:21,882</time>
<s>然后我觉得像我们</s>
<time>2158_00:59:22,242 --> 00:59:23,322</time>
<s>这一代有很多</s>
<time>2159_00:59:23,682 --> 00:59:24,762</time>
<s>有可能甚至是我发现不了的</s>
<time>2160_00:59:25,122 --> 00:59:25,842</time>
<s>一些苦闷</s>
<time>2161_00:59:26,202 --> 00:59:28,002</time>
<s>它可能就需要就是</s>
<time>2162_00:59:28,362 --> 00:59:29,802</time>
<s>这一小人</s>
<time>2163_00:59:30,162 --> 00:59:30,882</time>
<s>去真正发现它</s>
<time>2164_00:59:31,242 --> 00:59:31,602</time>
<s>去探讨它</s>
<time>2165_00:59:32,322 --> 00:59:33,402</time>
<s>才能让再下一代的人知道</s>
<time>2166_00:59:33,762 --> 00:59:35,202</time>
<s>上一代人的这个苦闷是这样的</s>
<time>2167_00:59:36,282 --> 00:59:36,642</time>
<s>那比如说</s>
<time>2168_00:59:37,362 --> 00:59:39,882</time>
<s>你最在乎的东西</s>
<time>2169_00:59:42,042 --> 00:59:42,402</time>
<s>那可能对我来说</s>
<time>2170_00:59:43,122 --> 00:59:43,482</time>
<s>自由吧</s>
<time>2171_00:59:43,842 --> 00:59:44,922</time>
<s>对个人自由的这种</s>
