CHAPTER_NN1 3_CRD 
HORROR_NN1 ,_PUN HOLIDAYS_NN2 ,_PUN AND_CJC HORMONES_NN2 
Toward_PRP the_AT0 end_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 '_PUQ 50s_CRD ,_PUN when_AVQ a_AT0 little_AJ0 more_DT0 money_NN1 started_VVD coming_VVG in_PRP ,_PUN Daddy_NN1 embraced_VVD the_AT0 latest_AJS craze_NN1 and_CJC built_VVD a_AT0 fallout_NN1 shelter_NN1 under_PRP our_DPS house_NN1 ._SENT When_CJS the_AT0 threat_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 Cold_AJ0 War_NN1 eased_VVD ,_PUN he_PNP expanded_VVD it_PNP to_PRP a_AT0 "_PUQ rec_NN1 "_PUQ room_NN1 ,_PUN decorated_VVN with_PRP a_AT0 fake_AJ0 leather_NN1 couch_NN1 and_CJC matching_AJ0 chairs_NN2 featuring_VVG bucking_AJ0 broncs_NN2 stitched_VVN on_PRP the_AT0 seat_NN1 backs_NN2 and_CJC wooden_AJ0 wagon-wheel_NN1 arms_NN2 ._SENT The_AT0 new_AJ0 wallpaper_NN1 had_VHD a_AT0 lovely_AJ0 cowboys-massacring-Indians_NN2 motif_NN1 ._SENT The_AT0 floor_NN1 was_VBD an_AT0 array_NN1 of_PRF multicolored_AJ0 individual_AJ0 linoleum_NN1 tiles_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC of_PRF course_NN1 there_EX0 was_VBD the_AT0 all-important_AJ0 bar_NN1 that_CJT my_DPS parents_NN2 had_VHD adorned_VVN with_PRP bathroom-style_AJ0 pink_AJ0 mosaic_NN1 tiles_NN2 and_CJC lined_VVN with_PRP shelves_NN2 stocked_VVN with_PRP every_AT0 imaginable_AJ0 type_NN1 of_PRF booze_NN1 ._SENT 
Liquor_NN1 was_VBD a_AT0 big_AJ0 deal_NN1 in_PRP my_DPS family_NN1 ._SENT Many_DT0 of_PRF my_DPS relatives_NN2 were_VBD alcoholics_NN2 ,_PUN but_CJC nobody_PNI called_VVD them_PNP that_DT0 back_AVP then_AV0 ._SENT They_PNP just_AV0 liked_VVD to_TO0 drink_VVI ._SENT When_CJS we_PNP went_VVD with_PRP my_DPS parents_NN2 for_PRP family_NN1 drives_NN2 in_PRP the_AT0 mountains_NN2 on_PRP weekends_NN2 ,_PUN which_DTQ we_PNP were_VBD frequently_AV0 forced_VVN to_TO0 do_VDI ,_PUN it_PNP was_VBD normal_AJ0 for_PRP Daddy_NN1 to_TO0 have_VHI me_PNP drink_VVB the_AT0 top_NN1 third_ORD out_AVP of_PRF his_DPS Coca-Cola_NP0 so_CJS he_PNP could_VM0 fill_VVI it_PNP with_PRP Jim_NP0 Beam_NN1 while_CJS careening_VVG down_AVP the_AT0 mountainside_NN1 on_PRP cruise_NN1 control_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP could_VM0 n't_XX0 wait_VVI for_PRP him_PNP to_TO0 fling_VVI the_AT0 empty_AJ0 bottle_NN1 from_PRP the_AT0 window_NN1 ,_PUN because_CJS I_PNP knew_VVD what_DTQ was_VBD coming_VVG —_PUN more_DT0 Coke_NN1 !_SENT I_PNP love_VVB those_DT0 cute_AJ0 emails_NN2 that_CJT used_VVD to_TO0 circulate_VVI on_PRP the_AT0 Internet_NN1 about_PRP how_AVQ great_AJ0 it_PNP was_VBD to_TO0 grow_VVI up_AVP in_PRP the_AT0 '_PUQ 50s_CRD ,_PUN before_CJS there_EX0 were_VBD rules_NN2 about_PRP drinking_VVG and_CJC driving_VVG or_CJC wearing_VVG seat_NN1 belts_NN2 ._SENT It_PNP 's_VBZ a_AT0 miracle_NN1 anyone_PNI survived_VVD ._SENT 
Beginning_VVG in_PRP junior_AJ0 high_AJ0 ,_PUN because_CJS my_DPS room_NN1 was_VBD in_PRP the_AT0 basement_NN1 right_NN1 next_ORD to_PRP the_AT0 rec_NN1 room_NN1 ,_PUN which_DTQ gave_VVD me_PNP easy_AJ0 access_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 bar_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP took_VVD a_AT0 cue_NN1 from_PRP my_DPS dad_NN1 and_CJC uncles_NN2 and_CJC used_VVD the_AT0 contents_NN2 to_TO0 regularly_AV0 top_VVI off_AVP my_DPS orange_AJ0 juice_NN1 or_CJC soda_NN1 pop_NN1 ._SENT 
My_DPS parents_NN2 were_VBD very_AV0 big_AJ0 on_PRP entertaining_AJ0 and_CJC threw_VVD lots_PNI of_PRF parties_NN2 ,_PUN inviting_VVG relatives_NN2 and_CJC my_DPS dad_NN1 's_POS coworkers_NN2 ._SENT My_DPS mom_NN1 rarely_AV0 drank_VVD alcohol_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC at_PRP these_DT0 parties_NN2 ,_PUN she_PNP let_VVB her_DPS hair_NN1 down_AVP ._SENT I_PNP wish_VVB she_PNP had_VHD drunk_VVN more_AV0 because_CJS she_PNP was_VBD always_AV0 so_AV0 much_AV0 nicer_AJC after_CJS she_PNP 'd_VHD had_VHN a_AT0 Tom_NP0 Collins_NP0 or_CJC two_CRD ._SENT They_PNP laughed_VVD ,_PUN danced_VVD ,_PUN smoked_VVD ,_PUN and_CJC drank_VVD long_AV0 after_PRP we_PNP kids_NN2 were_VBD sent_VVN to_PRP bed_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP can_VM0 still_AV0 hear_VVI the_AT0 sounds_NN2 of_PRF Nat_NP0 King_NP0 Cole_NP0 's_POS "_PUQ Stardust_NN1 "_PUQ wafting_VVG up_AVP from_PRP the_AT0 rec_NN1 room_NN1 through_PRP the_AT0 heater_NN1 vents_NN2 as_CJS I_PNP drifted_VVD off_AVP to_TO0 sleep_VVI ._SENT 
The_AT0 holidays_NN2 were_VBD almost_AV0 always_AV0 a_AT0 good_AJ0 time_NN1 for_PRP me_PNP and_CJC my_DPS family_NN1 ._SENT At_PRP Christmastime_NN1 ,_PUN my_DPS mom_NN1 wore_VVD her_DPS "_PUQ outside_AJ0 face_NN1 "_PUQ because_CJS there_EX0 was_VBD always_AV0 company_NN1 around_AVP ._SENT As_CJS far_AV0 as_CJS I_PNP could_VM0 tell_VVI ,_PUN she_PNP had_VHD two_CRD completely_AV0 different_AJ0 and_CJC separate_AJ0 faces_NN2 :_PUN her_PNP mean_VVB "_PUQ inside_PRP face_NN1 ,_PUN "_PUQ reserved_VVD for_PRP us_PNP kids_NN2 and_CJC Daddy_NN1 ;_PUN and_CJC her_DPS nice_AJ0 outside_AJ0 face_NN1 that_CJT she_PNP presented_VVD to_PRP most_DT0 relatives_NN2 and_CJC all_DT0 strangers_NN2 ._SENT People_NN0 were_VBD always_AV0 telling_VVG me_PNP how_AVQ much_DT0 fun_NN1 she_PNP was_VBD to_TO0 be_VBI around_AVP and_CJC how_AVQ lucky_AJ0 I_PNP was_VBD to_TO0 have_VHI her_PNP for_PRP a_AT0 mom_NN1 ,_PUN which_DTQ confused_VVD the_AT0 hell_NN1 out_AVP of_PRF me_PNP ._SENT Were_VBD they_PNP were_VBD talking_VVG about_PRP the_AT0 same_DT0 person_NN1 I_PNP lived_VVD with_PRP ?_SENT 
Christmas_NN1 Eve_NN1 festivities_NN2 were_VBD usually_AV0 held_VVN at_PRP our_DPS house_NN1 and_CJC relatives_NN2 would_VM0 come_VVI from_PRP all_DT0 over_PRP the_AT0 Midwest_NN1 ._SENT Because_CJS Grandpa_NP0 Peterson_NP0 was_VBD Swedish_AJ0 ,_PUN we_PNP always_AV0 celebrated_VVD Christmas_NN1 with_PRP spicy_AJ0 sausages_NN2 called_VVD potatiskorv_AJ0 (_PUL or_CJC "_PUQ potato_NN1 carve_NN1 "_PUQ as_CJS we_PNP called_VVD it_PNP )_PUR ,_PUN a_AT0 long_AJ0 ,_PUN coiled_AJ0 sausage_NN1 that_CJT we_PNP cut_VVB into_PRP bite-size_AJ0 pieces_NN2 and_CJC speared_VVD with_PRP toothpicks_NN2 ._SENT The_AT0 main_AJ0 course_NN1 was_VBD lutfisk_AJ0 ,_PUN creamed_AJ0 dry_AJ0 cod_NN0 served_VVN over_PRP boiled_AJ0 potatoes_NN2 ._SENT I_PNP was_VBD the_AT0 only_AJ0 kid_NN1 in_PRP the_AT0 family_NN1 who_PNQ would_VM0 eat_VVI the_AT0 stuff_NN1 ._SENT 
My_DPS sisters_NN2 and_CJC I_PNP loved_VVD Christmas_NN1 Eve_NN1 and_CJC Christmas_NN1 Day_NN1 ._SENT We_PNP were_VBD allowed_VVN to_TO0 eat_VVI whatever_DTQ we_PNP wanted_VVD and_CJC did_VDD n't_XX0 have_VHI to_TO0 clean_VVI up_AVP afterward_AV0 because_CJS there_EX0 were_VBD so_AV0 many_DT0 aunts_NN2 there_AV0 to_TO0 do_VDI the_AT0 job_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC my_DPS mother_NN1 was_VBD distracted_VVN cooking_VVG ,_PUN serving_VVG ,_PUN and_CJC gossiping_VVG ,_PUN so_CJS she_PNP paid_VVD no_AT0 attention_NN1 to_PRP us_PNP at_PRP all_DT0 ._SENT 
I_PNP remember_VVB only_AV0 one_CRD bad_AJ0 Christmas_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC that_DT0 was_VBD when_AVQ I_PNP was_VBD five_CRD and_CJC we_PNP still_AV0 lived_VVD in_PRP Randolph_NP0 ._SENT Mother_NN1 and_CJC Daddy_NN1 had_VHD been_VBN running_VVG around_PRP the_AT0 house_NN1 all_DT0 day_NN1 ,_PUN cleaning_VVG like_PRP maniacs_NN2 and_CJC making_VVG last-minute_AJ0 preparations_NN2 before_PRP the_AT0 onslaught_NN1 of_PRF relatives_NN2 began_VVD ._SENT The_AT0 highlight_NN1 of_PRF Christmas_NN1 Eve_NN1 was_VBD always_AV0 Santa_NP0 showing_VVG up_AVP with_PRP his_DPS big_AJ0 pillowcase_NN1 full_AJ0 of_PRF toys_NN2 for_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN my_DPS sister_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC my_DPS cousins_NN2 ._SENT Santa_NP0 always_AV0 knew_VVD our_DPS names_NN2 and_CJC exactly_AV0 what_DTQ was_VBD on_PRP our_DPS Christmas_NN1 lists_NN2 ._SENT He_PNP always_AV0 seemed_VVD vaguely_AV0 familiar_AJ0 ,_PUN but_CJC it_PNP took_VVD me_PNP a_AT0 few_DT0 years_NN2 to_TO0 realize_VVI he_PNP was_VBD really_AV0 just_AV0 one_CRD of_PRF my_DPS uncles_NN2 dressed_VVN in_PRP a_AT0 cheap_AJ0 Santa_NP0 suit_NN1 and_CJC fake_AJ0 beard_NN1 ._SENT 
I_PNP 'd_VHD been_VBN waiting_VVG weeks_NN2 and_CJC weeks_NN2 for_PRP this_DT0 night_NN1 and_CJC had_VHD been_VBN as_AV0 good_AJ0 as_CJS I_PNP could_VM0 stand_VVI to_TO0 be_VBI ,_PUN just_AV0 so_CJS Santa_NP0 did_VDD n't_XX0 pass_VVI us_PNP by_AVP ._SENT I_PNP 'd_VHD made_VVN my_DPS list_NN1 and_CJC asked_VVD him_PNP for_PRP a_AT0 Terri_NP0 Lee_NP0 doll_NN1 ._SENT My_DPS parents_NN2 had_VHD gone_VVN to_PRP great_AJ0 lengths_NN2 to_TO0 get_VVI a_AT0 Christmas_NN1 tree_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP stood_VVD before_PRP it_PNP ,_PUN gazing_VVG up_AVP at_PRP the_AT0 star_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 top_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP remember_VVB thinking_VVG it_PNP was_VBD the_AT0 biggest_AJS ,_PUN most_AV0 beautiful_AJ0 tree_NN1 I_PNP 'd_VHD ever_AV0 seen_VVN —_PUN and_CJC it_PNP was_VBD in_PRP our_DPS living_AJ0 room_NN1 !_SENT My_DPS mother_NN1 had_VHD spent_VVN much_DT0 of_PRF the_AT0 day_NN1 hanging_VVG the_AT0 brand-new_AJ0 ,_PUN shiny_AJ0 ornaments_NN2 on_PRP the_AT0 tree_NN1 and_CJC stringing_VVG the_AT0 multicolored_AJ0 bulbs_NN2 ._SENT Melody_NN1 and_CJC I_PNP were_VBD n't_XX0 allowed_VVN to_TO0 do_VDI that_DT0 part_NN1 because_CJS the_AT0 balls_NN2 were_VBD so_AV0 fragile_AJ0 ,_PUN but_CJC we_PNP did_VDD get_VVI to_TO0 toss_VVI sparkling_AJ0 silver_NN1 tinsel_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 branches_NN2 after_PRP the_AT0 ornaments_NN2 were_VBD hung_VVN ._SENT 
As_CJS my_DPS mother_NN1 put_VVD the_AT0 finishing_AJ0 touches_NN2 on_PRP the_AT0 tree_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP heard_VVD a_AT0 plaintive_AJ0 "_PUQ meow_NN1 "_PUQ outside_PRP the_AT0 front_AJ0 door_NN1 and_CJC looked_VVD out_AVP the_AT0 window_NN1 to_TO0 see_VVI my_DPS poor_AJ0 kitty-cat_NN1 standing_VVG on_PRP the_AT0 stoop_NN1 in_PRP the_AT0 snow_NN1 ,_PUN looking_VVG pathetic_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP opened_VVD the_AT0 door_NN1 a_AT0 crack_NN1 ,_PUN just_AV0 enough_AV0 to_TO0 let_VVI him_PNP in_AVP and_CJC keep_VVI the_AT0 cold_AJ0 air_NN1 out_AVP ,_PUN and_CJC he_PNP slipped_VVD into_PRP our_DPS tiny_AJ0 living_NN1 room_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ Do_VDB n't_XX0 let_VVI that_CJT filthy_AJ0 cat_NN1 in_PRP !_SENT "_PUQ Mother_NP0 snapped_VVD ._SENT 
The_AT0 fat_AJ0 ,_PUN gray-striped_AJ0 tomcat_NN1 skittered_VVD across_PRP the_AT0 newly_AV0 waxed_AJ0 wood_NN1 floor_NN1 and_CJC made_VVD straight_AV0 for_PRP the_AT0 Christmas_NN1 tree_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP batted_VVD a_AT0 paw_NN1 at_PRP a_AT0 sparkly_AJ0 red_AJ0 ornament_NN1 ._SENT Mother_NN1 hollered_VVD ,_PUN "_PUQ Get_VVB away_AV0 from_PRP that_DT0 tree_NN1 ,_PUN you_PNP damned_VVD cat_NN1 !_SENT "_PUQ She_PNP rushed_VVD forward_AV0 and_CJC just_AV0 missed_VVD grabbing_VVG hold_NN1 of_PRF his_DPS tail_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP darted_VVD under_PRP the_AT0 branches_NN2 and_CJC before_CJS I_PNP could_VM0 register_VVI what_DTQ was_VBD happening_VVG ,_PUN he_PNP shot_VVD up_AVP the_AT0 trunk_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 tree_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 very_AV0 tippy_AJ0 top_NN1 and_CJC clung_VVD there_AV0 for_PRP an_AT0 endless_AJ0 second_NN1 ._SENT Mother_NN1 stood_VVD stock_NN1 still_AV0 ,_PUN her_DPS hands_NN2 covering_VVG her_DPS mouth_NN1 ._SENT Her_DPS hair_NN1 was_VBD still_AV0 up_AVP in_PRP rollers_NN2 and_CJC wrapped_VVD in_PRP a_AT0 scarf_NN1 that_CJT had_VHD little_AJ0 pictures_NN2 of_PRF red_AJ0 and_CJC blue_AJ0 sailboats_NN2 scattered_VVN across_PRP it_PNP ._SENT She_PNP wore_VVD her_DPS handmade_AJ0 turquoise_AJ0 apron_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 one_PNI with_PRP the_AT0 rows_NN2 of_PRF rickrack_NN1 ,_PUN tied_VVN over_PRP her_DPS red_AJ0 ,_PUN short-sleeved_AJ0 "_PUQ Christmas_NN1 dress_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ Time_NN1 seemed_VVD to_TO0 stand_VVI still_AV0 as_PRP the_AT0 late_AJ0 afternoon_NN1 light_NN1 reflected_VVD off_AVP the_AT0 snow_NN1 and_CJC bathed_VVD the_AT0 living_AJ0 room_NN1 in_PRP an_AT0 eerie_AJ0 ,_PUN bluish_AJ0 glow_NN1 ._SENT 
The_AT0 presents_NN2 Melody_NP0 and_CJC I_PNP bought_VVD with_PRP our_DPS allowance_NN1 at_PRP the_AT0 Woolworths_NP0 dime_NN1 store_NN1 in_PRP Manhattan_NP0 for_PRP aunts_NN2 ,_PUN uncles_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC cousins_NN2 were_VBD tucked_VVN under_PRP the_AT0 tree_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 candy_NN1 cane_NN1 –_PUN striped_AJ0 tree_NN1 skirt_NN1 my_DPS mother_NN1 had_VHD made_VVN ._SENT A_AT0 lone_AJ0 strand_NN1 of_PRF silver_NN1 tinsel_NN1 draped_VVD itself_PNX along_PRP the_AT0 edge_NN1 of_PRF our_DPS big_AJ0 ,_PUN oval_AJ0 rag_NN1 rug_NN1 ._SENT For_PRP a_AT0 moment_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 room_NN1 was_VBD dead_AV0 silent_AJ0 ,_PUN except_CJS for_PRP the_AT0 hum_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 furnace_NN1 droning_VVG in_PRP the_AT0 background_NN1 ._SENT 
Crash_NN1 !_SENT Down_NP0 came_VVD the_AT0 cat_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 tree_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 ornaments_NN2 ,_PUN the_AT0 lightbulbs_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC the_AT0 tinsel_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP held_VVD my_DPS breath_NN1 as_CJS I_PNP looked_VVD from_PRP my_DPS mother_NN1 's_POS face_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 mess_NN1 of_PRF tangled_AJ0 branches_NN2 and_CJC broken_AJ0 glass_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 floor_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ That_DT0 's_VBZ it_PNP !_SENT "_PUQ Mother_NP0 shrieked_VVD ._SENT "_PUQ Christmas_NN1 is_VBZ cancelled_VVN !_SENT "_PUQ She_PNP stormed_VVD down_AVP the_AT0 hall_NN1 and_CJC a_AT0 moment_NN1 later_AV0 the_AT0 bedroom_NN1 door_NN1 slammed_VVD so_AV0 hard_AV0 the_AT0 floor_NN1 reverberated_VVD under_PRP my_DPS feet_NN2 ._SENT 
I_PNP have_VHB absolutely_AV0 no_AT0 recollection_NN1 of_PRF what_DTQ happened_VVD after_PRP that_DT0 ,_PUN whether_CJS Christmas_NN1 went_VVD on_PRP that_DT0 year_NN1 or_CJC not_XX0 ,_PUN just_AV0 the_AT0 vivid_AJ0 memory_NN1 of_PRF that_DT0 moment_NN1 and_CJC the_AT0 aching_AJ0 feeling_NN1 in_PRP the_AT0 pit_NN1 of_PRF my_DPS stomach_NN1 as_CJS I_PNP pictured_VVD Santa_NP0 Claus_NP0 flying_VVG over_AVP our_DPS house_NN1 without_PRP stopping_VVG ._SENT And_CJC it_PNP was_VBD all_DT0 my_DPS fault_NN1 ._SENT 
My_DPS parents_NN2 were_VBD hard_AJ0 workers_NN2 and_CJC extremely_AV0 upwardly_AV0 mobile_AJ0 ,_PUN so_CJS they_PNP were_VBD always_AV0 able_AJ0 to_TO0 come_VVI up_AVP with_PRP new_AJ0 resources_NN2 for_PRP making_VVG money_NN1 ._SENT Daddy_NN1 went_VVD to_PRP people_NN0 's_POS houses_NN2 at_PRP night_NN1 after_PRP work_NN1 to_TO0 repair_VVI ,_PUN or_CJC sometimes_AV0 repossess_VVI ,_PUN sewing_VVG machines_NN2 ,_PUN washers_NN2 ,_PUN dryers_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC vacuum_NN1 cleaners_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC my_DPS mom_NN1 opened_VVD a_AT0 day-care_AJ0 center_NN1 in_PRP our_DPS home_NN1 ._SENT During_PRP my_DPS grade-school_AJ0 years_NN2 ,_PUN in_PRP addition_NN1 to_PRP my_DPS baby_NN1 sister_NN1 ,_PUN we_PNP had_VHD anywhere_AV0 from_PRP three_CRD to_PRP five_CRD screaming_AJ0 infants_NN2 at_PRP our_DPS house_NN1 every_AT0 weekday_NN1 ._SENT This_DT0 led_VVD to_PRP me_PNP putting_VVG off_AVP having_VHG a_AT0 child_NN1 until_CJS I_PNP was_VBD forty-three_CRD ._SENT 
With_PRP not_XX0 only_AV0 my_DPS mom_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC several_DT0 crying_VVG babies_NN2 at_PRP home_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP stayed_VVD away_AV0 as_CJS much_AV0 as_CJS possible_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP usually_AV0 went_VVD to_PRP my_DPS best_AJS friend_NN1 Marilyn_NP0 's_POS house_NN1 ,_PUN right_AV0 across_PRP the_AT0 back_NN1 alley_NN1 ._SENT She_PNP was_VBD the_AT0 first_ORD "_PUQ latchkey_NN1 "_PUQ kid_NN1 I_PNP 'd_VHD ever_AV0 encountered_VVN ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP thought_VVD it_PNP was_VBD really_AV0 neat_AJ0 that_CJT both_DT0 her_DPS parents_NN2 worked_VVD out_AVP of_PRF the_AT0 house_NN1 ,_PUN because_CJS that_DT0 meant_VVD we_PNP had_VHD free_AJ0 rein_NN1 until_CJS they_PNP got_VVD home_AV0 at_PRP night_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD like_PRP living_VVG an_AT0 exciting_AJ0 scene_NN1 from_PRP one_CRD of_PRF our_DPS favorite_AJ0 books_NN2 ,_PUN Lord_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 Flies_NN2 ._SENT 
We_PNP could_VM0 pretty_AV0 much_AV0 do_VDI whatever_DTQ we_PNP wanted_VVD without_PRP getting_VVG yelled_VVN at_PRP ,_PUN like_AV0 create_VVB science_NN1 experiments_NN2 using_VVG chemicals_NN2 from_PRP under_PRP the_AT0 kitchen_NN1 sink_NN1 ,_PUN take_VVB off_AVP all_DT0 our_DPS clothes_NN2 and_CJC play_NN1 nudist_NN1 colony_NN1 just_AV0 like_VVB in_PRP the_AT0 magazines_NN2 we_PNP 'd_VHD found_VVN under_PRP her_DPS dad_NN1 's_POS bed_NN1 ,_PUN or_CJC just_AV0 peel_VVB off_AVP our_DPS unlimited_AJ0 scabs_NN2 and_CJC add_VVB them_PNP to_PRP the_AT0 extensive_AJ0 collection_NN1 we_PNP kept_VVD hidden_VVN in_PRP a_AT0 milk_NN1 bottle_NN1 in_PRP the_AT0 pantry_NN1 ._SENT With_PRP the_AT0 money_NN1 Marilyn_NP0 "_PUQ borrowed_VVN "_PUQ from_PRP her_DPS mom_NN1 's_POS savings_NN2 jar_NN1 ,_PUN we_PNP bought_VVD our_DPS favorite_AJ0 snacks_NN2 :_PUN various_AJ0 flavors_NN2 of_PRF Gerber_NP0 baby_NN1 food_NN1 ._SENT Our_DPS favorite_AJ0 toys_NN2 were_VBD thermometers_NN2 ,_PUN which_DTQ we_PNP bought_VVD and_CJC broke_VVD open_AJ0 so_CJS we_PNP could_VM0 play_VVI with_PRP those_DT0 fascinating_AJ0 little_AJ0 silver_NN1 balls_NN2 that_CJT ran_VVD every_AT0 which_DTQ way_NN1 —_PUN m_ZZ0 ercury_NN1 —_PUN h_ZZ0 ellooooo_NN1 ?_SENT !_SENT 
At_PRP my_DPS house_NN1 you_PNP ate_VVD whatever_DTQ my_DPS mother_NN1 put_VVD on_PRP your_DPS plate_NN1 ,_PUN whether_CJS you_PNP wanted_VVD it_PNP or_CJC not_XX0 ,_PUN and_CJC stayed_VVD in_PRP your_DPS chair_NN1 until_CJS you_PNP finished_VVD every_AT0 last_ORD bite_NN1 ._SENT (_PUL I_PNP once_AV0 refused_VVD to_TO0 eat_VVI something_PNI —_PUN I_PNP think_VVB it_PNP was_VBD liver_NN1 and_CJC onions_NN2 —_PUN and_CJC woke_VVD up_AVP the_AT0 next_ORD morning_NN1 still_AV0 sitting_VVG at_PRP the_AT0 table_NN1 when_CJS it_PNP was_VBD time_NN1 to_TO0 go_VVI to_PRP school_NN1 ._SENT )_PUR When_CJS I_PNP got_VVD the_AT0 lucky_AJ0 opportunity_NN1 to_TO0 have_VHI dinner_NN1 at_PRP Marilyn_NP0 's_POS ,_PUN I_PNP could_VM0 n't_XX0 believe_VVI that_CJT each_DT0 person_NN1 was_VBD asked_VVN whether_CJS they_PNP 'd_VM0 like_VVI a_AT0 particular_AJ0 dish_NN1 and_CJC how_AVQ much_DT0 !_SENT 
On_PRP Halloween_NN1 ,_PUN we_PNP were_VBD allowed_VVN to_TO0 create_VVI a_AT0 haunted_AJ0 house_NN1 in_PRP her_DPS basement_NN1 and_CJC invite_VVB all_DT0 the_AT0 trick-or-treaters_NN2 in_AVP to_TO0 roam_VVI through_PRP the_AT0 darkened_AJ0 hallways_NN2 and_CJC sit_VVB in_PRP an_AT0 "_PUQ electric_AJ0 chair_NN1 "_PUQ (_PUL a_AT0 vibrating_AJ0 massage_NN1 cot_NN1 )_PUR ,_PUN dig_VVB their_DPS hands_NN2 into_PRP the_AT0 guts_NN2 of_PRF a_AT0 recently_AV0 departed_AJ0 convict_NN1 (_PUL a_AT0 bowl_NN1 of_PRF spaghetti_NN1 )_PUR ,_PUN and_CJC hold_VVB his_DPS eyeballs_NN2 in_PRP their_DPS hands_NN2 (_PUL peeled_AJ0 grapes_NN2 )_PUR ._SENT 
I_PNP yearned_VVD for_PRP adventure_NN1 and_CJC spent_VVD a_AT0 lot_NN1 of_PRF time_NN1 in_PRP my_DPS head_NN1 creating_VVG elaborate_AJ0 fantasies_NN2 ._SENT Marilyn_NP0 and_CJC I_PNP referred_VVD to_PRP each_DT0 other_NN1 as_PRP Nyliram_NP0 and_CJC Ardnassac_NP0 (_PUL our_DPS names_NN2 spelled_VVD backward_AV0 ,_PUN in_PRP case_NN1 you_PNP had_VHD n't_XX0 figured_VVN that_DT0 out_AVP )_PUR and_CJC spent_VVD our_DPS summers_NN2 with_PRP the_AT0 other_AJ0 neighborhood_NN1 kids_NN2 in_PRP the_AT0 alleys_NN2 ,_PUN streets_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC creeks_NN2 that_CJT were_VBD the_AT0 perfect_AJ0 setting_NN1 for_PRP bringing_VVG these_DT0 fantasies_NN2 to_PRP life_NN1 ._SENT For_PRP months_NN2 ,_PUN we_PNP played_VVD "_PUQ flying_AJ0 horses_NN2 ,_PUN "_PUQ inspired_VVD by_PRP the_AT0 movie_NN1 Fantasia_NN1 ,_PUN building_VVG large_AJ0 nests_NN2 out_AVP of_PRF sticks_NN2 and_CJC leaves_VVZ down_AVP by_PRP the_AT0 creek_NN1 ._SENT We_PNP staged_VVD elaborate_AJ0 circuses_NN2 for_PRP the_AT0 neighborhood_NN1 kids_NN2 and_CJC charged_AJ0 admission_NN1 ,_PUN of_PRF course_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC with_PRP her_DPS mom_NN1 's_POS eight-millimeter_NN1 camera_NN1 ,_PUN we_PNP made_VVD movies_NN2 that_CJT we_PNP played_VVD backward_AV0 ,_PUN so_CJS we_PNP appeared_VVD to_TO0 be_VBI superheroes_NN2 ,_PUN able_AJ0 to_TO0 leap_VVI up_AVP into_PRP trees_NN2 or_CJC magically_AV0 produce_VVB food_NN1 from_PRP our_DPS mouths_NN2 ._SENT 
Nyliram_NP0 and_CJC I_PNP also_AV0 collected_VVD Breyer_NP0 scale_NN1 model_NN1 horses_NN2 ._SENT She_PNP had_VHD many_DT0 more_DT0 than_CJS I_PNP did_VDD because_CJS her_DPS older_AJC sister_NN1 ,_PUN Corliss_NP0 ,_PUN was_VBD already_AV0 off_AVP at_PRP college_NN1 ,_PUN so_CJS she_PNP was_VBD treated_VVN like_PRP a_AT0 spoiled_AJ0 only_AJ0 child_NN1 ._SENT Later_AV0 on_AVP ,_PUN our_DPS obsession_NN1 with_PRP horses_NN2 paid_VVN off_AVP ._SENT We_PNP said_VVD to_PRP hell_NN1 with_PRP the_AT0 toy_NN1 horses_NN2 and_CJC made_VVD up_AVP our_DPS minds_NN2 that_CJT we_PNP wanted_VVD the_AT0 real_AJ0 thing_NN1 ._SENT Marilyn_NP0 's_POS parents_NN2 got_VVD her_PNP a_AT0 big_AJ0 ,_PUN gray_AJ0 Appaloosa_NN1 she_PNP named_VVD Blue_AJ0 ,_PUN and_CJC ,_PUN after_PRP much_DT0 begging_NN1 and_CJC expressly_AV0 against_PRP my_DPS mother_NN1 's_POS wishes_NN2 ,_PUN Daddy_NN1 bought_VVD me_PNP a_AT0 beautiful_AJ0 buckskin_NN1 Indian_AJ0 pony_NN1 I_PNP named_VVD Apache_AJ0 ._SENT 
