Pamela_NP0 
S_ZZ0 WAS_VBD LATE_AJ0 ,_PUN as_CJS usual_AJ0 ._SENT 
In_PRP our_DPS first_ORD month_NN1 of_PRF dating_NN1 ,_PUN S_NP0 had_VHD announced_VVN that_CJT he_PNP was_VBD going_VVG to_TO0 make_VVI sure_AJ0 I_PNP always_AV0 knew_VVD where_AVQ he_PNP was_VBD ._SENT He_PNP 'd_VHD held_VVN his_DPS iPhone_NN1 in_PRP his_DPS palm_NN1 ,_PUN screen_NN1 facing_VVG outward_AV0 so_AV0 I_PNP could_VM0 see_VVI it_PNP ._SENT He_PNP pressed_VVD on_PRP my_DPS contact_NN1 and_CJC ,_PUN with_PRP an_AT0 intentional_AJ0 and_CJC animated_AJ0 tap_NN1 of_PRF his_DPS finger_NN1 ,_PUN hit_VVD "_PUQ Share_NN1 location_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ 
"_PUQ See_VVB ,_PUN "_PUQ he_PNP 'd_VHD said_VVN ._SENT "_PUQ No_AT0 secrets_NN2 ._SENT "_PUQ 
From_PRP then_AV0 on_AVP ,_PUN whenever_AVQ I_PNP opened_VVD the_AT0 map_NN1 on_PRP my_DPS phone_NN1 ,_PUN S_NP0 's_POS picture_NN1 would_VM0 appear_VVI in_PRP a_AT0 small_AJ0 icon_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 screen_NN1 ._SENT 
This_DT0 gesture_NN1 had_VHD surprised_VVN me_PNP ._SENT Of_PRF all_DT0 the_AT0 things_NN2 I_PNP wanted_VVD to_TO0 know_VVI about_PRP S_NP0 ,_PUN his_DPS exact_AJ0 location_NN1 at_PRP any_DT0 given_AJ0 moment_NN1 was_VBD fairly_AV0 low_AJ0 on_PRP the_AT0 list_NN1 ._SENT Still_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP 'd_VHD taken_VVN it_PNP as_PRP an_AT0 offering_NN1 ,_PUN a_AT0 sign_NN1 of_PRF his_DPS willingness_NN1 to_TO0 share_VVI in_PRP a_AT0 more_AV0 general_AJ0 sense_NN1 :_PUN his_DPS life_NN1 ,_PUN his_DPS emotions_NN2 ,_PUN his_DPS experiences_NN2 ._SENT 
Nearly_AV0 three_CRD years_NN2 later_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP 'd_VM0 often_AV0 find_VVI myself_PNX using_VVG his_DPS shared_AJ0 location_NN1 to_TO0 figure_VVI out_AVP when_CJS he_PNP 'd_VM0 actually_AV0 arrive_VVI to_TO0 meet_VVI me_PNP ,_PUN since_CJS his_DPS own_DT0 estimates_NN2 were_VBD usually_AV0 off_AVP ._SENT 
S_ZZ0 was_VBD born_VVN and_CJC raised_VVN in_PRP New_NP0 York_NP0 and_CJC inexperienced_AJ0 at_PRP navigating_VVG the_AT0 freeways_NN2 and_CJC traffic_NN1 patterns_NN2 of_PRF LA._NP0 
"_PUQ Just_AV0 do_VDB n't_XX0 bother_VVI trying_VVG to_TO0 go_VVI anywhere_AV0 anytime_NN1 between_PRP three_CRD thirty_CRD p.m._AV0 and_CJC eight_CRD p.m._AV0 ,_PUN okay_AV0 ?_SENT "_PUQ I_PNP 'd_VHD explained_VVN ._SENT 
"_PUQ Okay_AV0 ,_PUN "_PUQ he_PNP 'd_VHD said_VVN ,_PUN putting_VVG on_PRP his_DPS sunglasses_NN2 and_CJC giving_VVG me_PNP a_AT0 quick_AJ0 kiss_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ I_PNP 'll_VM0 text_NN1 you_PNP when_CJS I_PNP 'm_VBB finishing_VVG up_AVP my_DPS day_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ S_NP0 always_AV0 seemed_VVD spread_VVN too_AV0 thin_AJ0 when_CJS we_PNP were_VBD in_PRP LA._NP0 There_EX0 were_VBD too_AV0 many_DT0 meetings_NN2 ,_PUN too_AV0 many_DT0 phone_NN1 calls_VVZ ,_PUN too_AV0 much_DT0 traffic_NN1 ._SENT 
It_PNP was_VBD silly_AJ0 ,_PUN really_AV0 ,_PUN that_CJT he_PNP was_VBD coming_VVG back_AVP home_AV0 to_PRP the_AT0 Eastside_NN1 of_PRF Los_NP0 Angeles_NP0 from_PRP the_AT0 Westside_NN1 ,_PUN since_CJS the_AT0 party_NN1 was_VBD on_PRP the_AT0 Westside_NN1 and_CJC we_PNP were_VBD already_AV0 late_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP checked_VVD S_NP0 's_POS location_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP was_VBD going_VVG to_TO0 be_VBI at_PRP least_AV0 another_DT0 hour_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC after_PRP texting_VVG him_PNP ,_PUN "_PUQ you_PNP 're_VBB going_VVG to_TO0 be_VBI super_AJ0 fucking_AV0 late_AJ0 ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP resolved_VVD to_TO0 take_VVI my_DPS time_NN1 getting_VVG ready_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP poured_VVD a_AT0 large_AJ0 glass_NN1 of_PRF red_AJ0 wine_NN1 ,_PUN showered_VVD ,_PUN and_CJC wrapped_VVD my_DPS hair_NN1 in_PRP a_AT0 towel_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP added_VVD big_AJ0 fat_AJ0 wings_NN2 of_PRF eyeliner_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 corners_NN2 of_PRF my_DPS eyes_NN2 ,_PUN lined_VVD my_DPS mouth_NN1 with_PRP a_AT0 deep_AJ0 mauve_NN1 ,_PUN applied_VVD extra-gooey_NP0 lip_NN1 gloss_NN1 to_PRP my_DPS lips_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC slipped_VVD on_PRP a_AT0 black_AJ0 strapless_AJ0 tube_NN1 dress_NN1 that_CJT clung_VVD to_PRP my_DPS ass_NN1 with_PRP purpose_NN1 ._SENT 
I_PNP wanted_VVD to_TO0 wear_VVI a_AT0 boot_NN1 or_CJC something_PNI casual_AJ0 as_CJS a_AT0 shoe_NN1 ,_PUN since_CJS this_DT0 party_NN1 was_VBD hosted_VVN by_PRP S_NP0 's_POS agency_NN1 ,_PUN not_XX0 mine_PNP ._SENT I_PNP did_VDD n't_XX0 like_VVI the_AT0 idea_NN1 of_PRF appearing_VVG too_AV0 dressed_VVN up_AVP or_CJC too_AV0 sexy_AJ0 in_PRP a_AT0 crowd_NN1 of_PRF people_NN0 who_PNQ ,_PUN I_PNP knew_VVD ,_PUN would_VM0 treat_VVI me_PNP like_PRP arm_NN1 candy_NN1 no_AT0 matter_NN1 what_DTQ I_PNP wore_VVD ._SENT But_CJC I_PNP could_VM0 n't_XX0 find_VVI a_AT0 shoe_NN1 that_CJT looked_VVD right_AV0 with_PRP the_AT0 hemline_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 tube_NN1 dress_NN1 ,_PUN so_CJS I_PNP gave_VVD up_AVP and_CJC put_VVB on_PRP heels_NN2 with_PRP straps_NN2 that_CJT crisscrossed_VVD up_AVP my_DPS ankles_NN2 and_CJC calves_NN2 ._SENT They_PNP hurt_VVD ,_PUN but_CJC these_DT0 ,_PUN I_PNP decided_VVD after_PRP texting_AJ0 pictures_NN2 to_PRP a_AT0 few_DT0 friends_NN2 ,_PUN were_VBD my_DPS best_AJS option_NN1 ._SENT 
Once_AV0 I_PNP finished_VVD inspecting_VVG myself_PNX in_PRP the_AT0 mirror_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP took_VVD the_AT0 heels_NN2 off_AVP and_CJC lay_VVD down_AVP on_PRP our_DPS bed_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP knew_VVD the_AT0 outfit_NN1 was_VBD sexier_AJC than_CJS I_PNP 'd_VHD planned_VVN on_AVP ,_PUN but_CJC it_PNP felt_VVD like_PRP some_DT0 kind_NN1 of_PRF insurance_NN1 at_PRP this_DT0 film-industry_AJ0 party_NN1 ._SENT Dressing_VVG up_AVP and_CJC performing_VVG the_AT0 role_NN1 that_CJT everyone_PNI expected_VVD from_PRP me_PNP was_VBD comfortable_AJ0 ._SENT Beautiful_AJ0 girl_NN1 should_VM0 show_VVI up_AVP looking_VVG beautiful_AJ0 ,_PUN right_AJ0 ?_SENT I_PNP thought_VVD ._SENT Worse_AJC than_CJS arm_NN1 candy_NN1 is_VBZ being_VBG invisible_AJ0 ,_PUN right_AJ0 ?_SENT Right_AV0 ?_SENT Nicki_NP0 Minaj_NP0 blasted_VVD from_PRP my_DPS phone_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ Got_VVD a_AT0 bow_NN1 on_PRP my_DPS panties_NN2 because_CJS my_DPS ass_NN1 is_VBZ a_AT0 present_NN1 ,_PUN "_PUQ she_PNP sang_VVD ._SENT 
Now_AV0 that_CJT I_PNP 'm_VBB ready_AJ0 ,_PUN might_VM0 as_CJS well_AV0 take_VVI a_AT0 couple_NN1 of_PRF selfies_NN2 ._SENT I_PNP tilted_VVD my_DPS chin_NN1 down_AVP ,_PUN held_VVD up_AVP my_DPS phone_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC checked_VVD myself_PNX on_PRP the_AT0 screen_NN1 as_CJS I_PNP clicked_VVD away_AV0 ._SENT A_AT0 text_NN1 from_PRP S_NP0 appeared_VVD at_PRP the_AT0 top_NN1 of_PRF my_DPS reflection_NN1 :_PUN "_PUQ 15_CRD minutes_NN2 baby_NN1 !_SENT Traffic_NN1 was_VBD insane_AJ0 ._SENT "_PUQ 
I_PNP ignored_VVD him_PNP with_PRP a_AT0 swipe_NN1 of_PRF my_DPS finger_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP selected_VVD one_CRD of_PRF the_AT0 selfies_NN2 ,_PUN posting_VVG it_PNP on_PRP Instagram_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ All_DT0 dressed_VVD up_AVP ,_PUN no_AT0 place_NN1 to_TO0 go_VVI ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP typed_VVD ,_PUN and_CJC threw_VVD my_DPS phone_NN1 down_AVP next_ORD to_PRP me_PNP ._SENT I_PNP stared_VVD at_PRP the_AT0 ceiling_NN1 while_CJS Nicki_NP0 continued_VVD to_TO0 rap_VVI ._SENT 
S_ZZ0 arrived_VVD a_AT0 few_DT0 minutes_NN2 later_AV0 ,_PUN all_DT0 crinkled_AJ0 laugh_NN1 lines_NN2 and_CJC warmth_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP eyed_VVD him_PNP ,_PUN annoyed_AJ0 ,_PUN as_CJS he_PNP climbed_VVD onto_PRP the_AT0 bed_NN1 next_ORD to_PRP me_PNP ._SENT "_PUQ You_PNP 're_VBB an_AT0 hour_NN1 and_CJC a_AT0 half_AV0 late_AJ0 ,_PUN asshole_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP 's_VBZ rude_AJ0 ._SENT "_PUQ We_PNP 'd_VHD had_VHN this_DT0 conversation_NN1 countless_AJ0 times_NN2 before_AV0 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP was_VBD worn_VVN down_AVP by_PRP it_PNP ._SENT Who_PNQ cares_VVZ ,_PUN anyway_AV0 ?_SENT I_PNP had_VHD a_AT0 nice_AJ0 time_NN1 getting_VVG ready_AJ0 ,_PUN I_PNP thought_VVD ._SENT Besides_AV0 ,_PUN here_AV0 he_PNP was_VBD ,_PUN better_AV0 late_AJ0 than_CJS never_AV0 ,_PUN smelling_VVG like_PRP the_AT0 best_AJS kind_NN1 of_PRF sweat_NN1 and_CJC smiling_VVG at_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN ready_AJ0 to_TO0 love_VVI me_PNP up_AVP ._SENT What_DTQ was_VBD the_AT0 point_NN1 of_PRF making_VVG a_AT0 big_AJ0 deal_NN1 of_PRF this_DT0 right_NN1 before_PRP a_AT0 party_NN1 where_AVQ we_PNP 'd_VM0 be_VBI surrounded_VVN by_PRP hundreds_CRD of_PRF people_NN0 ?_SENT I_PNP wanted_VVD us_PNP to_TO0 feel_VVI connected_VVN and_CJC maybe_AV0 even_AV0 have_VHI some_DT0 fun_NN1 ,_PUN for_PRP fuck_NN1 's_POS sake_NN1 ._SENT Let_VVB it_PNP go_VVB ,_PUN I_PNP told_VVD myself_PNX ._SENT 
"_PUQ I_PNP 'm_VBB sorry_AJ0 ,_PUN seriously_AV0 ,_PUN okay_AV0 ?_SENT I_PNP got_VVD the_AT0 timing_NN1 wrong_AV0 ._SENT But_CJC I_PNP 'm_VBB here_AV0 now_AV0 and_CJC I_PNP wanted_VVD to_TO0 come_VVI home_AV0 to_TO0 see_VVI you_PNP and_CJC ..._PUN have_VHB some_DT0 time_NN1 ,_PUN "_PUQ S_NP0 said_VVD ,_PUN pulling_VVG up_AVP my_DPS dress_NN1 without_PRP taking_VVG his_DPS eyes_NN2 off_PRP my_DPS face_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP kissed_VVD my_DPS nose_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP giggled_VVD and_CJC then_AV0 frowned_VVD ._SENT "_PUQ Rude_AJ0 !_SENT "_PUQ I_PNP said_VVD ,_PUN and_CJC S_NP0 laughed_VVD and_CJC began_VVD edging_VVG his_DPS way_NN1 down_PRP my_DPS body_NN1 ._SENT 
"_PUQ I_PNP 'm_VBB so_AV0 happy_AJ0 to_TO0 see_VVI you_PNP ,_PUN "_PUQ he_PNP said_VVD ,_PUN and_CJC he_PNP sounded_VVD so_AV0 genuine_AJ0 I_PNP could_VM0 n't_XX0 help_VVI but_CJC feel_VVI a_AT0 wave_NN1 of_PRF love_NN1 wash_NN1 over_PRP me_PNP ._SENT 
Later_AV0 ,_PUN S_NP0 lay_VVD on_PRP my_DPS stomach_NN1 and_CJC I_PNP wrapped_VVD my_DPS arms_NN2 around_PRP his_DPS head_NN1 ,_PUN watching_VVG his_DPS curly_AJ0 hair_NN1 rise_NN1 and_CJC fall_VVB with_PRP my_DPS breathing_NN1 ._SENT Eventually_AV0 he_PNP got_VVD up_AVP and_CJC went_VVD to_PRP the_AT0 bathroom_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP strapped_VVD my_DPS heels_NN2 back_AVP on_PRP ._SENT As_CJS we_PNP headed_VVD out_AVP the_AT0 door_NN1 ,_PUN switching_VVG off_AVP the_AT0 lights_NN2 and_CJC setting_VVG the_AT0 alarm_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP threw_VVD on_PRP a_AT0 brown_AJ0 leather_NN1 trench_NN1 over_PRP my_DPS dress_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ I_PNP just_AV0 do_VDB n't_XX0 want_VVI to_TO0 be_VBI cold_AJ0 ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP told_VVD myself_PNX ._SENT 
The_AT0 party_NN1 S_NP0 's_POS agency_NN1 was_VBD hosting_VVG was_VBD at_PRP a_AT0 big_AJ0 fancy_AJ0 house_NN1 owned_VVN by_PRP a_AT0 former_DT0 Beatle_NN1 ._SENT Early_AV0 on_AVP in_PRP our_DPS relationship_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP 'd_VHD told_VVN S_NP0 that_CJT I_PNP hated_VVD parties_NN2 like_PRP this_DT0 ._SENT And_CJC he_PNP told_VVD me_PNP he_PNP hated_VVD agents_NN2 ._SENT "_PUQ They_PNP 're_VBB talentless_AJ0 and_CJC do_VDB nothing_PNI and_CJC ugh_ITJ ..._PUN just_AV0 the_AT0 worst_AJS ._SENT "_PUQ Still_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP struggled_VVD to_TO0 understand_VVI his_DPS attitude_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 film_NN1 industry_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP 'd_VM0 watch_VVI him_PNP take_VVI calls_NN2 with_PRP his_DPS wireless_NN1 headphones_NN2 ,_PUN laughing_VVG and_CJC sucking_VVG on_PRP his_DPS Juul_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP 'd_VM0 wonder_VVI :_PUN Had_VHD he_PNP been_VBN seduced_VVN by_PRP Hollywood_NP0 or_CJC was_VBD he_PNP just_AV0 working_VVG the_AT0 system_NN1 to_TO0 succeed_VVI ?_SENT The_AT0 voice_NN1 he_PNP used_VVD for_PRP these_DT0 work_NN1 calls_NN2 was_VBD unfamiliar_AJ0 to_PRP me_PNP ;_PUN even_AV0 his_DPS laugh_NN1 was_VBD different_AJ0 ._SENT The_AT0 idea_NN1 that_CJT he_PNP might_VM0 actually_AV0 enjoy_VVI the_AT0 boys_NN2 '_POS club_NN1 of_PRF agents_NN2 ,_PUN producers_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC actors_NN2 bothered_VVD me_PNP ._SENT I_PNP was_VBD surprised_AJ0 at_PRP how_AVQ repelled_AJ0 I_PNP felt_VVD watching_VVG him_PNP work_VVI sometimes_AV0 ._SENT Or_CJC is_VBZ this_DT0 just_AV0 him_PNP being_VBG good_AJ0 at_PRP his_DPS job_NN1 ?_SENT I_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 sure_AJ0 ._SENT 
On_PRP the_AT0 cab_NN1 ride_VVB over_AVP ,_PUN I_PNP felt_VVD uneasy_AJ0 ._SENT "_PUQ Hey_ITJ ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP said_VVD to_PRP S._NP0 "_PUQ Do_VDB n't_XX0 leave_VVI me_PNP tonight_AV0 ._SENT Like_AV0 ,_PUN obviously_AV0 ,_PUN we_PNP can_VM0 go_VVI have_VHB our_DPS various_AJ0 conversations_NN2 ,_PUN blah_ITJ blah_ITJ ._SENT But_CJC just_AV0 ,_PUN like_AV0 ,_PUN when_CJS we_PNP 're_VBB walking_VVG around_AVP ?_SENT You_PNP know_VVB ?_SENT "_PUQ I_PNP put_VVD my_DPS hand_NN1 on_PRP his_DPS knee_NN1 ._SENT 
"_PUQ Okay_AV0 ,_PUN sure_AJ0 ,_PUN "_PUQ S_NP0 replied_VVD ,_PUN giving_VVG me_PNP a_AT0 kiss_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 lips_NN2 ._SENT "_PUQ No_AT0 problem_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ He_PNP looked_VVD handsome_AJ0 ,_PUN dressed_VVN down_AVP in_PRP a_AT0 crew-neck_AJ0 sweatshirt_NN1 and_CJC black_AJ0 Timbs_NN2 ,_PUN the_AT0 hair_NN1 on_PRP his_DPS face_NN1 at_PRP just_AV0 the_AT0 right_AJ0 length_NN1 to_TO0 accentuate_VVI his_DPS strong_AJ0 jawline_NN1 ._SENT 
One_CRD night_NN1 years_NN2 ago_AV0 ,_PUN before_CJS S_ZZ0 and_CJC I_PNP had_VHD started_VVN seeing_VVG each_DT0 other_NN1 romantically_AV0 ,_PUN he_PNP met_VVD me_PNP and_CJC a_AT0 group_NN1 of_PRF my_DPS friends_NN2 at_PRP a_AT0 hotel_NN1 party_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ Come_VVB by_AVP and_CJC hang_VVB ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP remember_VVB texting_VVG him_PNP ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD all_AV0 casual_AJ0 ,_PUN but_CJC I_PNP knew_VVD how_AVQ much_DT0 I_PNP liked_VVD him_PNP the_AT0 second_ORD he_PNP walked_VVD in_PRP the_AT0 door_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP was_VBD wearing_VVG black_AJ0 Timbs_NN2 then_AV0 ,_PUN too_AV0 ,_PUN the_AT0 same_DT0 ones_NN2 he_PNP wore_VVD to_PRP the_AT0 courthouse_NN1 when_CJS we_PNP got_VVD married_AJ0 ._SENT 
I_PNP 'd_VHD been_VBN drinking_VVG a_AT0 lot_NN1 that_CJT night_NN1 and_CJC feeling_NN1 light_NN1 and_CJC fizzy_AJ0 in_PRP a_AT0 good_AJ0 way_NN1 ._SENT Even_AV0 though_CJS we_PNP did_VDD n't_XX0 look_VVI at_PRP each_DT0 other_NN1 much_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP always_AV0 knew_VVD where_AVQ S_NP0 was_VBD in_PRP the_AT0 room_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP could_VM0 feel_VVI his_DPS attention_NN1 on_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN even_AV0 when_CJS I_PNP stole_VVD a_AT0 quick_AJ0 glance_NN1 and_CJC found_VVD him_PNP looking_VVG straight_AV0 ahead_AV0 ,_PUN talking_VVG to_PRP someone_PNI else_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP was_VBD shaking_VVG my_DPS hips_NN2 to_PRP the_AT0 music_NN1 ,_PUN knowing_VVG S_NP0 was_VBD watching_VVG ,_PUN when_CJS a_AT0 guy_NN1 came_VVD up_AVP and_CJC asked_VVD to_TO0 take_VVI a_AT0 photo_NN1 with_PRP me_PNP ._SENT "_PUQ Sure_AJ0 !_SENT "_PUQ I_PNP said_VVD ,_PUN bending_VVG over_AVP to_TO0 put_VVI my_DPS drink_NN1 down_AVP ._SENT He_PNP was_VBD thin_AJ0 and_CJC had_VHD an_AT0 accent_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP took_VVD him_PNP for_PRP a_AT0 European_AJ0 tourist_NN1 ._SENT 
I_PNP never_AV0 liked_VVD how_AVQ guys_NN2 would_VM0 find_VVI ways_NN2 to_TO0 touch_VVI me_PNP when_CJS they_PNP took_VVD pictures_NN2 with_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN but_CJC I_PNP was_VBD used_VVN to_PRP it_PNP ,_PUN and_CJC so_AV0 I_PNP 'm_VBB not_XX0 sure_AJ0 if_CJS I_PNP even_AV0 flinched_VVD when_CJS I_PNP felt_VVD this_DT0 guy_NN1 's_POS fingers_NN2 wrap_VVB around_PRP the_AT0 other_AJ0 side_NN1 of_PRF my_DPS bare_AJ0 midriff_NN1 ._SENT My_DPS attitude_NN1 was_VBD ,_PUN Ask_VVB them_PNP not_XX0 to_TO0 touch_VVI you_PNP and_CJC it_PNP makes_VVZ the_AT0 whole_AJ0 interaction_NN1 last_ORD longer_AV0 ,_PUN so_AV0 why_AVQ not_XX0 just_AV0 get_VVI it_PNP over_AVP with_PRP ?_SENT 
"_PUQ Hey_ITJ ,_PUN no_AV0 touching_VVG ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP heard_VVD S_NP0 say_VVI from_PRP behind_PRP us_PNP ._SENT I_PNP swiveled_VVD around_AVP to_TO0 see_VVI him_PNP ,_PUN leaning_VVG against_PRP a_AT0 couch_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP shook_VVD his_DPS finger_NN1 and_CJC furrowed_VVD his_DPS brow_NN1 ._SENT 
"_PUQ Sorry_AJ0 ,_PUN "_PUQ the_AT0 guy_NN1 said_VVD ,_PUN dropping_VVG his_DPS hands_NN2 from_PRP my_DPS body_NN1 instantly_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP 'd_VHD never_AV0 been_VBN with_PRP a_AT0 man_NN1 who_PNQ interjected_VVD himself_PNX in_PRP that_DT0 way_NN1 before_AV0 ._SENT My_DPS boyfriend_NN1 before_PRP S_ZZ0 would_VM0 never_AV0 speak_VVI up_AVP when_CJS someone_PNI approached_VVD or_CJC touched_VVD me_PNP ._SENT I_PNP assumed_VVD he_PNP meant_VVD to_TO0 be_VBI respectful_AJ0 ,_PUN showing_VVG that_CJT he_PNP knew_VVD I_PNP could_VM0 handle_VVI these_DT0 kinds_NN2 of_PRF situations_NN2 on_PRP my_DPS own_DT0 ,_PUN which_DTQ I_PNP 'd_VHD always_AV0 thought_VVN I_PNP appreciated_VVN ._SENT In_PRP that_DT0 moment_NN1 ,_PUN though_AV0 ,_PUN watching_VVG S_ZZ0 ,_PUN all_DT0 relaxed_VVD yet_AV0 assertive_AJ0 ,_PUN telling_VVG this_DT0 guy_NN1 to_TO0 back_VVI the_AT0 fuck_NN1 off_AVP ,_PUN I_PNP thought_VVD ,_PUN Wow_ITJ ,_PUN well_AV0 ,_PUN this_DT0 is_VBZ nice_AJ0 ._SENT 
In_PRP the_AT0 years_NN2 since_AV0 ,_PUN we_PNP 'd_VHD gotten_VVN together_AV0 and_CJC our_DPS careers_NN2 had_VHD changed_VVN ._SENT The_AT0 movie_NN1 S_ZZ0 had_VHD recently_AV0 produced_VVN had_VHD been_VBN well_AV0 received_VVN by_PRP critics_NN2 and_CJC performed_VVD well_AV0 at_PRP the_AT0 box_NN1 office_NN1 ._SENT People_NN0 wrote_VVD articles_NN2 about_PRP Oscar_NP0 buzz_NN1 and_CJC ,_PUN when_CJS the_AT0 film_NN1 was_VBD snubbed_VVN ,_PUN important_AJ0 directors_NN2 S_NP0 admired_VVD tweeted_AJ0 angrily_AV0 about_PRP the_AT0 "_PUQ injustice_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 Academy_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ When_CJS paparazzi_NN2 pictures_NN2 of_PRF us_PNP were_VBD published_VVN now_AV0 ,_PUN they_PNP described_VVD S_NP0 as_CJS "_PUQ a_AT0 successful_AJ0 producer_NN1 "_PUQ and_CJC even_AV0 sometimes_AV0 linked_VVN to_PRP a_AT0 trailer_NN1 for_PRP his_DPS movie_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD everything_PNI S_NP0 had_VHD been_VBN working_VVG toward_PRP for_PRP over_AV0 ten_CRD years_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP was_VBD proud_AJ0 of_PRF him_PNP ._SENT 
I_PNP ,_PUN on_PRP the_AT0 other_AJ0 hand_NN1 ,_PUN had_VHD decided_VVN to_TO0 stop_VVI being_VBG an_AT0 actor_NN1 ,_PUN at_PRP least_AV0 for_PRP the_AT0 time_NN1 being_VBG ._SENT I_PNP 'd_VHD auditioned_VVN for_PRP just_AV0 two_CRD roles_NN2 in_PRP two_CRD years_NN2 ,_PUN a_AT0 tiny_AJ0 fraction_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 number_NN1 of_PRF auditions_NN2 I_PNP 'd_VHD been_VBN doing_VDG when_CJS we_PNP started_VVD seeing_VVG each_DT0 other_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ I_PNP only_AV0 want_VVB to_TO0 do_VDI projects_NN2 that_CJT I_PNP can_VM0 produce_VVI or_CJC be_VBI a_AT0 part_NN1 of_PRF on_PRP a_AT0 creative_AJ0 level_NN1 ,_PUN "_PUQ I_PNP told_VVD everyone_PNI ,_PUN which_DTQ was_VBD true_AJ0 ,_PUN but_CJC it_PNP was_VBD also_AV0 true_AJ0 was_VBD that_CJT I_PNP no_AV0 longer_AV0 knew_VVD what_DTQ the_AT0 fuck_NN1 I_PNP wanted_VVD from_PRP Hollywood_NP0 ._SENT 
No_ITJ one_PNI in_PRP the_AT0 industry_NN1 knew_VVD why_AVQ I_PNP 'd_VHD stopped_VVN acting_VVG ,_PUN and_CJC most_AV0 assumed_VVD it_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 by_PRP choice_NN1 ._SENT Actors_NN2 and_CJC models_NN2 could_VM0 n't_XX0 possibly_AV0 want_VVI something_PNI else_AV0 ,_PUN they_PNP figured_VVD ._SENT Every_AT0 woman_NN1 wants_VVZ to_TO0 be_VBI rich_AJ0 and_CJC famous_AJ0 for_PRP being_VBG desirable_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP could_VM0 n't_XX0 fault_VVI them_PNP for_PRP thinking_VVG that_DT0 way_NN1 ._SENT Hell_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP 'd_VHD thought_VVN that_DT0 way_NN1 for_PRP most_DT0 of_PRF my_DPS twenties_CRD ._SENT 
Despite_PRP my_DPS better_AJC judgment_NN1 ,_PUN it_PNP bothered_VVD me_PNP that_CJT the_AT0 people_NN0 at_PRP this_DT0 party_NN1 would_VM0 look_VVI at_PRP me_PNP as_PRP a_AT0 failure_NN1 or_CJC nothing_PNI more_DT0 than_CJS a_AT0 piece_NN1 of_PRF ass_NN1 ._SENT Even_AV0 though_CJS I_PNP thought_VVD they_PNP were_VBD assholes_NN2 ,_PUN it_PNP frustrated_VVD me_PNP that_CJT I_PNP 'd_VHD lost_VVN their_DPS respect_NN1 ._SENT On_PRP a_AT0 good_AJ0 day_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP 'd_VM0 call_VVI people_NN0 sexist_AJ0 who_PNQ condemned_VVD a_AT0 woman_NN1 for_PRP capitalizing_VVG on_PRP her_DPS body_NN1 ._SENT On_PRP a_AT0 bad_AJ0 day_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP 'd_VM0 hate_VVI myself_PNX and_CJC my_DPS body_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC every_AT0 decision_NN1 I_PNP 'd_VHD made_VVN in_PRP my_DPS life_NN1 seemed_VVD like_PRP a_AT0 glaring_AJ0 mistake_NN1 ._SENT Mostly_AV0 ,_PUN though_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP knew_VVD I_PNP was_VBD a_AT0 whole_AJ0 ,_PUN complex_AJ0 person_NN1 with_PRP thoughts_NN2 and_CJC ideas_NN2 and_CJC things_NN2 I_PNP wanted_VVD to_TO0 make_VVI and_CJC say_VVI ._SENT I_PNP wanted_VVD so_AV0 desperately_AV0 to_TO0 prove_VVI them_PNP all_DT0 wrong_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP just_AV0 had_VHD n't_XX0 gotten_VVN the_AT0 chance_NN1 yet_AV0 ._SENT 
I_PNP liked_VVD being_VBG in_PRP control_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP 'd_VHD learned_VVN that_CJT an_AT0 actor_NN1 's_POS control_NN1 was_VBD limited_VVN ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD also_AV0 true_AJ0 that_CJT for_PRP some_DT0 time_NN1 I_PNP 'd_VHD been_VBN battling_VVG a_AT0 serious_AJ0 depression_NN1 that_CJT was_VBD ,_PUN at_PRP least_AV0 partially_AV0 ,_PUN the_AT0 result_NN1 of_PRF years_NN2 of_PRF making_VVG myself_PNX digestible_AJ0 for_PRP the_AT0 same_DT0 kind_NN1 of_PRF men_NN2 that_CJT S_NP0 now_AV0 laughed_VVD with_PRP over_PRP the_AT0 phone_NN1 ._SENT 
