CHAPTER_NN1 10_CRD 
A_AT0 LESSON_NN1 BEFORE_PRP DYING_VVG 
This_DT0 is_VBZ likely_AJ0 the_AT0 hardest_AJS chapter_NN1 I_PNP 'll_VM0 ever_AV0 write_VVI ._SENT And_CJC frankly_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP 'm_VBB not_XX0 even_AV0 sure_AJ0 if_CJS it_PNP fits_VVZ with_PRP the_AT0 themes_NN2 of_PRF Blackness_NN1 or_CJC queerness_NN1 or_CJC critical_AJ0 race_NN1 theory_NN1 in_PRP this_DT0 book_NN1 —_PUN nor_CJC do_VDB I_PNP really_AV0 care_VVB ._SENT This_DT0 chapter_NN1 is_VBZ the_AT0 most_AV0 important_AJ0 one_PNI because_CJS there_EX0 is_VBZ no_AT0 solution_NN1 ._SENT There_EX0 is_VBZ no_AT0 happy_AJ0 ending_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP 's_VBZ the_AT0 hardest_AJS lesson_NN1 we_PNP all_AV0 have_VHB to_TO0 learn_VVI about_PRP love_NN1 and_CJC loss_NN1 ._SENT No_ITJ one_PNI 's_POS days_NN2 are_VBB infinite_AJ0 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP ca_VM0 n't_XX0 keep_VVI anyone_PNI here_AV0 forever_AV0 ._SENT 
*_PUN *_PUN *_PUN 
Nanny_NN1 was_VBD never_AV0 too_AV0 shy_AJ0 to_TO0 say_VVI what_DTQ was_VBD on_PRP her_DPS mind_NN1 ._SENT She_PNP got_VVD to_PRP a_AT0 place_NN1 in_PRP her_DPS life_NN1 where_CJS she_PNP was_VBD simply_AV0 unfiltered_AJ0 —_PUN and_CJC knowing_VVG her_DPS life_NN1 story_NN1 ,_PUN she_PNP had_VHD rightfully_AV0 earned_VVN that_DT0 spot_NN1 ._SENT As_CJS I_PNP 've_VHB said_VVN ,_PUN Nanny_NN1 grew_VVD up_AVP as_PRP the_AT0 youngest_AJS of_PRF thirteen_CRD children_NN2 ._SENT When_CJS she_PNP was_VBD a_AT0 baby_NN1 ,_PUN she_PNP lost_VVD two_CRD brothers_NN2 and_CJC a_AT0 sister_NN1 to_PRP a_AT0 house_NN1 fire_NN1 ._SENT Throughout_PRP the_AT0 years_NN2 ,_PUN she_PNP would_VM0 lose_VVI more_DT0 brothers_NN2 and_CJC sisters_NN2 ._SENT And_CJC although_CJS she_PNP was_VBD the_AT0 baby_NN1 ,_PUN she_PNP was_VBD always_AV0 the_AT0 leader_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 group_NN1 ._SENT She_PNP did_VDD n't_XX0 know_VVI how_AVQ not_XX0 to_TO0 lead_VVI and_CJC did_VDD a_AT0 damn_AJ0 good_AJ0 job_NN1 holding_VVG that_DT0 position_NN1 down_AVP ._SENT 
By_PRP the_AT0 start_NN1 of_PRF this_DT0 particular_AJ0 story_NN1 ,_PUN we_PNP were_VBD all_DT0 teenagers_NN2 ._SENT Well_AV0 ,_PUN at_PRP least_AV0 Little_AJ0 Rall_NN1 ,_PUN Rasul_NP0 ,_PUN and_CJC my_DPS cousin_NN1 Thomas_NP0 were_VBD ._SENT Thomas_NP0 was_VBD my_DPS uncle_NN1 Bobby_NP0 's_POS son_NN1 that_CJT lived_VVD in_PRP Jersey_NP0 City_NN1 who_PNQ used_VVD to_TO0 visit_VVI us_PNP from_PRP time_NN1 to_PRP time_NN1 when_CJS we_PNP were_VBD growing_VVG up_AVP ._SENT Thomas_NP0 was_VBD always_AV0 a_AT0 joy_NN1 to_TO0 be_VBI around_AVP ,_PUN and_CJC always_AV0 had_VHD some_DT0 crazy_AJ0 story_NN1 about_PRP what_DTQ was_VBD going_VVG on_AVP in_PRP the_AT0 projects_NN2 of_PRF Jersey_NP0 City_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP had_VHD now_AV0 moved_VVN to_PRP Plainfield_NP0 and_CJC stayed_VVD with_PRP Nanny_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP was_VBD either_AV0 twelve_CRD or_CJC thirteen_CRD and_CJC Garrett_NP0 was_VBD nearly_AV0 ten_CRD years_NN2 old_AJ0 at_PRP the_AT0 time_NN1 ._SENT 
By_PRP now_AV0 we_PNP had_VHD left_VVN the_AT0 "_PUQ Big_AJ0 House_NN1 "_PUQ and_CJC Nanny_NN1 had_VHD moved_VVN to_PRP the_AT0 other_AJ0 side_NN1 of_PRF town_NN1 ,_PUN living_VVG with_PRP my_DPS aunt_NN1 Sarah_NP0 and_CJC aunt_NN1 Munch_VVB again_AV0 in_PRP a_AT0 split-level_AJ0 house_NN1 on_PRP Lewis_NP0 Avenue_NP0 —_PUN still_AV0 in_PRP Plainfield_NP0 ,_PUN though_AV0 ._SENT The_AT0 house_NN1 was_VBD n't_XX0 as_AV0 big_AJ0 as_CJS the_AT0 Big_AJ0 House_NN1 but_CJC it_PNP worked_VVD just_AV0 as_CJS well_AV0 ._SENT It_PNP had_VHD a_AT0 big_AJ0 backyard_NN1 and_CJC side_NN1 yard_NN1 and_CJC was_VBD in_PRP a_AT0 very_AV0 quiet_AJ0 neighborhood_NN1 ._SENT 
We_PNP all_AV0 used_VVD to_TO0 congregate_VVI there_AV0 after_PRP school_NN1 ,_PUN just_AV0 like_CJS we_PNP used_VVD to_TO0 do_VDI at_PRP the_AT0 Big_AJ0 House_NN1 ._SENT The_AT0 teen_NN1 years_NN2 were_VBD interesting_AJ0 for_PRP us_PNP because_CJS it_PNP meant_VVD we_PNP had_VHD no_AT0 real_AJ0 adult_NN1 supervision_NN1 most_DT0 days_NN2 ._SENT Little_AV0 Rall_NP0 and_CJC Thomas_NP0 were_VBD put_VVN in_PRP charge_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 house_NN1 ,_PUN which_DTQ meant_VVD that_CJT no_AT0 one_PNI was_VBD really_AV0 in_PRP charge_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 house_NN1 ._SENT We_PNP would_VM0 sneak_VVI and_CJC drink_VVI liquor_NN1 from_PRP the_AT0 liquor_NN1 cart_NN1 and_CJC refill_VVB the_AT0 bottles_NN2 with_PRP water_NN1 ._SENT My_DPS aunts_NN2 did_VDD n't_XX0 often_AV0 drink_VVI the_AT0 old_AJ0 stuff_NN1 sitting_VVG in_PRP the_AT0 cabinet_NN1 ,_PUN so_CJS they_PNP never_AV0 noticed_VVD ._SENT We_PNP would_VM0 watch_VVI the_AT0 inappropriate_AJ0 channels_NN2 on_PRP the_AT0 cable_NN1 box_NN1 ,_PUN curse_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC do_VDB everything_PNI we_PNP had_VHD no_AT0 business_NN1 doing_VDG ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD a_AT0 house_NN1 of_PRF puberty_NN1 ._SENT There_EX0 were_VBD high_AV0 fives_CRD and_CJC praise_VVB from_PRP one_PNI another_DT0 when_CJS we_PNP started_VVD growing_AJ0 pubic_AJ0 hair_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 first_ORD sign_NN1 that_CJT we_PNP were_VBD "_PUQ becoming_VVG men_NN2 ._SENT "_PUQ 
Of_PRF course_NN1 ,_PUN it_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 like_PRP this_DT0 all_DT0 the_AT0 time_NN1 ,_PUN since_CJS my_DPS aunts_NN2 and_CJC Nanny_NN1 did_VDD live_VVI there_AV0 ._SENT We_PNP just_AV0 knew_VVD their_DPS schedules_NN2 well_AV0 enough_AV0 to_TO0 find_VVI gaps_NN2 where_AVQ the_AT0 shenanigans_NN2 could_VM0 take_VVI place_NN1 ._SENT This_DT0 became_VVD our_DPS home_NN1 away_AV0 from_PRP home_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP thought_VVD it_PNP was_VBD great_AJ0 that_CJT we_PNP all_AV0 got_VVD the_AT0 chance_NN1 to_TO0 grow_VVI up_AVP as_PRP brothers_NN2 rather_AV0 than_CJS just_AJ0 cousins_NN2 ._SENT 
My_DPS favorite_AJ0 moment_NN1 at_PRP the_AT0 new_AJ0 house_NN1 was_VBD also_AV0 one_CRD of_PRF the_AT0 most_AV0 important_AJ0 life_NN1 lessons_NN2 I_PNP ever_AV0 learned_VVD and_CJC continue_VVB to_PRP practice_NN1 until_PRP this_DT0 day_NN1 :_PUN how_AVQ to_TO0 take_VVI care_NN1 of_PRF my_DPS elders_NN2 ._SENT It_PNP 's_VBZ something_PNI that_CJT I_PNP wished_VVD more_DT0 of_PRF us_PNP learned_VVD as_PRP children_NN2 —_PUN especially_AV0 Black_AJ0 children_NN2 ,_PUN who_PNQ will_VM0 inevitably_AV0 take_VVI on_PRP the_AT0 responsibility_NN1 as_PRP their_DPS parents_NN2 and_CJC grandparents_NN2 begin_VVB to_TO0 age_VVI ._SENT 
We_PNP were_VBD downstairs_AV0 in_PRP the_AT0 den_NN1 area_NN1 toward_PRP the_AT0 back_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 house_NN1 ._SENT There_EX0 was_VBD a_AT0 hallway_NN1 from_PRP that_DT0 room_NN1 that_CJT led_VVD to_PRP Nanny_NN1 's_POS room_NN1 ._SENT All_DT0 the_AT0 cousins_NN2 were_VBD there_AV0 watching_VVG TV_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC Nanny_NN1 yelled_VVD ,_PUN "_PUQ Thomas_NP0 ,_PUN come_VVN in_PRP here_AV0 really_AV0 quick_AJ0 ._SENT "_PUQ Thomas_NP0 got_VVD up_AVP and_CJC started_VVD walking_VVG down_AVP the_AT0 hallway_NN1 to_PRP Nanny_NN1 's_POS room_NN1 ._SENT He_PNP opened_VVD Nanny_NN1 's_POS door_NN1 and_CJC let_VVB out_AVP the_AT0 biggest_AJS scream_NN1 —_PUN not_XX0 one_CRD of_PRF fear_NN1 but_CJC more_AV0 along_PRP the_AT0 lines_NN2 of_PRF "_PUQ OMG_NN1 !_SENT "_PUQ 
Of_PRF course_NN1 ,_PUN we_PNP all_DT0 being_VBG nosy_AJ0 ran_VVD down_AVP the_AT0 hallway_NN1 and_CJC saw_VVD Nanny_NN1 standing_VVG there_AV0 in_PRP her_DPS girdle_NN1 with_PRP her_DPS stockings_NN2 on_AVP ,_PUN needing_VVG help_NN1 to_TO0 get_VVI undressed_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP started_VVD to_TO0 laugh_VVI at_PRP Thomas_NP0 's_POS over-the-top_AJ0 reaction_NN1 while_CJS Rall_NP0 also_AV0 turned_VVD away_AV0 laughing_AJ0 ._SENT But_CJC I_PNP was_VBD used_VVN to_PRP Nanny_NN1 like_PRP this_DT0 ._SENT 
You_PNP see_VVB ,_PUN Little_NP0 Rall_NP0 and_CJC Thomas_NP0 had_VHD just_AV0 recently_AV0 started_VVN staying_VVG with_PRP Nanny_NN1 again_AV0 ,_PUN so_CJS they_PNP were_VBD n't_XX0 familiar_AJ0 with_PRP helping_VVG her_PNP out_AVP like_CJS I_PNP was_VBD ._SENT I_PNP had_VHD assisted_VVN my_DPS grandmother_NN1 in_PRP getting_VVG dressed_VVN and_CJC undressed_VVN for_PRP years_NN2 already_AV0 ,_PUN so_CJS it_PNP was_VBD nothing_PNI to_PRP me_PNP ._SENT For_PRP them_PNP ,_PUN though_AV0 ,_PUN it_PNP was_VBD a_AT0 shock_NN1 ._SENT 
Helping_VVG Nanny_NN1 get_VVB ready_AJ0 required_VVN a_AT0 few_DT0 things_NN2 ._SENT She_PNP could_VM0 n't_XX0 always_AV0 snap_VVI her_DPS girdle_NN1 in_PRP the_AT0 back_NN1 ,_PUN so_CJS you_PNP would_VM0 sometimes_AV0 have_VHI to_TO0 help_VVI her_PNP do_VDI it_PNP ._SENT She_PNP was_VBD also_AV0 a_AT0 survivor_NN1 of_PRF breast_NN1 cancer_NN1 —_PUN twice_AV0 —_PUN and_CJC had_VHD to_TO0 have_VHI a_AT0 double_AJ0 mastectomy_NN1 ,_PUN which_DTQ meant_VVD the_AT0 removal_NN1 of_PRF both_DT0 breasts_NN2 ._SENT She_PNP was_VBD a_AT0 warrior_NN1 ,_PUN though_AV0 ,_PUN and_CJC her_DPS battle_NN1 scars_NN2 just_AV0 made_VVD her_PNP a_AT0 more_AV0 confident_AJ0 person_NN1 ._SENT She_PNP had_VHD these_DT0 cones_NN2 that_CJT she_PNP would_VM0 use_VVI to_TO0 fill_VVI out_AVP her_DPS bra_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP would_VM0 help_VVI her_PNP put_VVI them_PNP on_AVP ,_PUN too_AV0 ,_PUN sometimes_AV0 ._SENT 
So_AV0 ,_PUN we_PNP all_DT0 stood_VVD there_AV0 ,_PUN and_CJC Thomas_NP0 goes_VVZ ,_PUN "_PUQ Nanny_VVB ,_PUN put_VVB some_DT0 clothes_NN2 on_AVP ._SENT I_PNP do_VDB n't_XX0 want_VVI to_TO0 see_VVI you_PNP in_PRP your_DPS draws_NN2 !_SENT "_PUQ She_PNP responded_VVD ,_PUN "_PUQ You_PNP better_AV0 get_VVB used_VVN to_PRP it_PNP ._SENT You_PNP might_VM0 have_VHI to_TO0 wipe_VVI my_DPS ass_NN1 one_CRD day_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ 
We_PNP all_AV0 lost_VVD it_PNP at_PRP this_DT0 point_NN1 ._SENT She_PNP was_VBD laughing_VVG ,_PUN and_CJC we_PNP were_VBD screaming_VVG with_PRP laughter_NN1 ._SENT That_DT0 's_VBZ how_AVQ it_PNP always_AV0 was_VBD with_PRP us_PNP ._SENT This_DT0 was_VBD family_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC although_CJS she_PNP was_VBD our_DPS matriarch_NN1 ,_PUN at_PRP times_NN2 she_PNP was_VBD just_AV0 one_CRD of_PRF the_AT0 boys_NN2 ._SENT "_PUQ Having_VHG fun_NN1 with_PRP her_DPS grands_NN2 ,_PUN "_PUQ as_CJS she_PNP would_VM0 say_VVI ._SENT Eventually_AV0 ,_PUN the_AT0 laughter_NN1 subsided_VVD ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP walked_VVD into_PRP the_AT0 room_NN1 and_CJC helped_VVD her_PNP get_VVI adjusted_VVN ._SENT I_PNP grabbed_VVD her_DPS coverall_NN1 that_CJT she_PNP would_VM0 wear_VVI once_CJS she_PNP got_VVD home_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP believe_VVB most_AV0 call_VVB them_PNP muumuus_NP0 ._SENT 
She_PNP thanked_VVD me_PNP and_CJC then_AV0 got_VVN in_PRP the_AT0 bed_NN1 to_TO0 watch_VVI some_DT0 TV_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP went_VVD back_AVP into_PRP the_AT0 other_AJ0 room_NN1 to_TO0 hang_VVI with_PRP my_DPS cousins_NN2 ._SENT We_PNP all_AV0 laughed_VVD about_PRP it_PNP some_DT0 more_DT0 as_CJS the_AT0 two_CRD of_PRF them_PNP talked_VVD about_PRP how_AVQ they_PNP were_VBD going_VVG to_TO0 have_VHI to_TO0 get_VVI used_VVN to_PRP living_VVG with_PRP her_PNP ._SENT 
"_PUQ You_PNP might_VM0 have_VHI to_TO0 wipe_VVI my_DPS ass_NN1 one_CRD day_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ 
This_DT0 was_VBD a_AT0 sermon_NN1 ._SENT These_DT0 words_NN2 turned_VVD out_AVP to_TO0 be_VBI greater_AJC than_CJS anything_PNI I_PNP had_VHD ever_AV0 heard_VVN from_PRP her_PNP by_PRP this_DT0 point_NN1 in_PRP my_DPS life_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP have_VHB been_VBN carrying_VVG them_PNP with_PRP me_PNP since_AV0 ._SENT There_EX0 is_VBZ a_AT0 lot_NN1 of_PRF truth_NN1 in_PRP those_DT0 nine_CRD words_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP 'm_VBB not_XX0 really_AV0 sure_AJ0 when_CJS a_AT0 family_NN1 should_VM0 start_VVI talking_VVG to_PRP kids_NN2 and_CJC grandkids_NN2 about_PRP how_AVQ one_CRD day_NN1 "_PUQ the_AT0 child_NN1 becomes_VVZ the_AT0 parent_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ But_CJC for_PRP us_PNP ,_PUN that_DT0 was_VBD lesson_NN1 number_NN1 one_CRD ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP do_VDB n't_XX0 think_VVI any_DT0 of_PRF us_PNP ever_AV0 forgot_VVD it_PNP ._SENT 
It_PNP made_VVD me_PNP reflect_VVI on_PRP a_AT0 similar_AJ0 moment_NN1 when_CJS I_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 ready_AJ0 for_PRP that_DT0 role_NN1 ._SENT When_CJS I_PNP was_VBD ten_CRD ,_PUN my_DPS mother_NN1 had_VHD to_TO0 have_VHI her_DPS first_ORD brain_NN1 surgery_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP remember_VVB that_CJT surgery_NN1 and_CJC the_AT0 months_NN2 leading_VVG up_AVP to_PRP it_PNP and_CJC after_CJS it_PNP very_AV0 well_AV0 ._SENT She_PNP survived_VVD the_AT0 surgery_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC the_AT0 adults_NN2 did_VDD n't_XX0 want_VVI us_PNP to_TO0 see_VVI her_PNP like_VVI that_CJT after_PRP the_AT0 procedure_NN1 ,_PUN so_CJS we_PNP stayed_VVD with_PRP my_DPS grandmother_NN1 while_CJS she_PNP recovered_VVD ._SENT We_PNP finally_AV0 got_VVD to_TO0 see_VVI her_PNP a_AT0 few_DT0 weeks_NN2 later_AV0 ,_PUN when_CJS she_PNP came_VVD home_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP remember_VVB her_DPS having_VHG staples_NN2 in_PRP the_AT0 side_NN1 of_PRF her_DPS head_NN1 and_CJC my_DPS eyes_NN2 getting_VVG big_AJ0 as_PRP quarters_NN2 when_CJS I_PNP saw_VVD them_PNP ._SENT 
She_PNP could_VM0 see_VVI from_PRP our_DPS faces_NN2 that_CJT we_PNP were_VBD so_AV0 scared_AJ0 ,_PUN but_CJC she_PNP assured_VVD us_PNP that_CJT she_PNP was_VBD fine_AJ0 ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD great_AJ0 to_TO0 have_VHI my_DPS mother_NN1 back_AVP ._SENT But_CJC what_DTQ would_VM0 my_DPS responsibilities_NN2 be_VBI moving_VVG forward_AV0 ?_SENT What_DTQ did_VDD a_AT0 ten-year-old_AJ0 know_VVB about_PRP taking_VVG care_NN1 of_PRF a_AT0 parent_NN1 ?_SENT Hell_NN1 ,_PUN at_PRP that_DT0 time_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 really_AV0 doing_VDG much_DT0 of_PRF anything_PNI for_PRP myself_PNX besides_PRP pouring_VVG my_DPS own_DT0 cereal_NN1 and_CJC a_AT0 few_DT0 chores_NN2 around_PRP the_AT0 house_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 time_NN1 for_PRP me_PNP or_CJC my_DPS brother_NN1 as_PRP children_NN2 to_TO0 take_VVI up_AVP that_DT0 role_NN1 ._SENT 
My_DPS family_NN1 made_VVD the_AT0 decision_NN1 that_CJT it_PNP was_VBD n't_XX0 the_AT0 right_AJ0 time_NN1 for_PRP the_AT0 child_NN1 to_TO0 become_VVI the_AT0 adult_NN1 ._SENT My_DPS mother_NN1 would_VM0 be_VBI out_AVP of_PRF commission_NN1 for_PRP more_AV0 than_CJS six_CRD months_NN2 and_CJC my_DPS grandmother_NN1 and_CJC her_DPS church_NN1 friends_NN2 took_VVD it_PNP upon_PRP themselves_PNX to_TO0 care_VVI for_PRP her_PNP ._SENT They_PNP cooked_VVD and_CJC cleaned_VVD and_CJC made_VVD sure_AJ0 that_CJT we_PNP got_VVD to_PRP school_NN1 every_AT0 day_NN1 ._SENT Nanny_NN1 practically_AV0 moved_VVN into_PRP the_AT0 guest_NN1 room_NN1 to_TO0 take_VVI care_NN1 of_PRF her_PNP ._SENT My_DPS family_NN1 always_AV0 seemed_VVD to_TO0 make_VVI a_AT0 way_NN1 out_AVP of_PRF no_AT0 way_NN1 ._SENT Thankfully_AV0 ,_PUN my_DPS family_NN1 ensured_VVD that_CJT us_PNP kids_NN2 got_VVD to_TO0 remain_VVI kids_NN2 ._SENT 
However_AV0 ,_PUN by_PRP the_AT0 time_NN1 I_PNP was_VBD fifteen_CRD ,_PUN I_PNP would_VM0 have_VHI to_TO0 take_VVI up_AVP more_DT0 of_PRF this_DT0 caretaking_AJ0 role_NN1 ._SENT Nanny_NN1 's_POS sister_NN1 Auntie_NP0 Evelyn_NP0 would_VM0 call_VVI on_PRP me_PNP to_TO0 help_VVI her_PNP with_PRP her_DPS husband_NN1 —_PUN Uncle_NP0 Lester_NP0 —_PUN who_PNQ had_VHD a_AT0 stroke_NN1 and_CJC was_VBD unable_AJ0 to_TO0 really_AV0 do_VDI much_DT0 for_PRP himself_PNX anymore_AV0 ._SENT She_PNP would_VM0 need_VVI me_PNP to_TO0 run_VVI errands_NN2 from_PRP time_NN1 to_PRP time_NN1 and_CJC would_VM0 call_VVI me_PNP to_TO0 come_VVI and_CJC watch_VVI him_PNP ._SENT 
It_PNP was_VBD interesting_AJ0 at_PRP first_ORD because_CJS my_DPS aunts_NN2 and_CJC uncles_NN2 would_VM0 all_AV0 suggest_VVI that_CJT they_PNP could_VM0 watch_VVI him_PNP ,_PUN but_CJC she_PNP did_VDD n't_XX0 want_VVI them_PNP to_TO0 do_VDI it_PNP ._SENT She_PNP specifically_AV0 asked_VVD me_PNP to_TO0 help_VVI ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP was_VBD glad_AJ0 to_TO0 ._SENT I_PNP remember_VVB my_DPS mom_NN1 checking_VVG in_AVP with_PRP me_PNP the_AT0 first_ORD time_NN1 ,_PUN like_AV0 ,_PUN "_PUQ You_PNP sure_AJ0 you_PNP want_VVB to_TO0 do_VDI this_DT0 ?_SENT "_PUQ I_PNP told_VVD her_PNP ,_PUN "_PUQ Yeah_ITJ ,_PUN it_PNP 's_VBZ my_DPS uncle_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP should_VM0 want_VVI to_TO0 help_VVI take_VVI care_NN1 of_PRF him_PNP ._SENT "_PUQ She_PNP would_VM0 drop_VVI me_PNP off_AVP over_AVP there_AV0 and_CJC I_PNP would_VM0 watch_VVI him_PNP for_PRP a_AT0 few_DT0 hours_NN2 ._SENT Auntie_NP0 Evelyn_NP0 would_VM0 pay_VVI me_PNP ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP would_VM0 go_VVI back_AVP home_AV0 ._SENT 
It_PNP never_AV0 dawned_VVD on_PRP me_PNP at_PRP the_AT0 time_NN1 how_AVQ big_AJ0 a_AT0 responsibility_NN1 it_PNP actually_AV0 was_VBD ._SENT Caring_VVG for_PRP older_AJC human_AJ0 beings_NN2 is_VBZ truly_AV0 a_AT0 blessing_NN1 ._SENT They_PNP are_VBB our_DPS living_AJ0 ancestors_NN2 and_CJC something_PNI they_PNP did_VDD paved_VVD a_AT0 way_NN1 for_PRP us_PNP to_TO0 exist_VVI ._SENT It_PNP 's_VBZ the_AT0 least_AV0 that_CJT we_PNP can_VM0 do_VDI to_TO0 care_VVI for_PRP them_PNP ._SENT 
Nanny_NN1 really_AV0 meant_VVD that_CJT we_PNP may_VM0 have_VHI to_TO0 wipe_VVI her_DPS ass_NN1 one_CRD day_NN1 ._SENT 
On_PRP July_NP0 23_CRD ,_PUN 2018_CRD ,_PUN we_PNP all_AV0 sat_VVD in_PRP the_AT0 waiting_AJ0 room_NN1 of_PRF Overlook_VVB Hospital_NN1 in_PRP Summit_NN1 ,_PUN New_NP0 Jersey_NP0 ._SENT Just_AV0 days_NN2 before_PRP this_DT0 ,_PUN the_AT0 doctors_NN2 had_VHD said_VVN they_PNP found_VVD a_AT0 mass_NN1 on_PRP your_DPS brain_NN1 ,_PUN Nanny_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP was_VBD a_AT0 rare_AJ0 form_NN1 of_PRF cancer_NN1 known_VVN as_PRP glioblastoma_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC they_PNP would_VM0 need_VVI to_TO0 do_VDI surgery_NN1 to_TO0 remove_VVI it_PNP ._SENT There_AV0 I_PNP was_VBD ,_PUN having_VHG just_AV0 turned_VVN in_PRP this_DT0 book_NN1 with_PRP the_AT0 end_NN1 of_PRF this_DT0 chapter_NN1 written_VVN so_AV0 differently_AV0 ._SENT The_AT0 saying_NN1 you_PNP coined_VVD in_PRP jest_NN1 so_CJS many_DT0 years_NN2 ago_AV0 was_VBD now_AV0 coming_VVG to_PRP fruition_NN1 ._SENT 
I_PNP took_VVD a_AT0 week_NN1 off_AVP in_PRP August_NP0 to_TO0 come_VVI and_CJC watch_VVI you_PNP while_CJS my_DPS mom_NN1 and_CJC aunts_NN2 went_VVD out_AVP of_PRF town_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP was_VBD there_AV0 to_TO0 take_VVI you_PNP to_PRP your_DPS first_ORD round_NN1 of_PRF radiation_NN1 and_CJC chemotherapy_NN1 treatment_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP cooked_VVD your_DPS breakfast_NN1 and_CJC helped_VVD you_PNP get_VVI dressed_VVN every_AT0 day_NN1 ._SENT Measured_VVN out_AVP your_DPS insulin_NN1 and_CJC gave_VVD you_PNP your_DPS shots_NN2 three_CRD times_NN2 a_AT0 day_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP even_AV0 helped_VVD you_PNP shower_NN1 and_CJC I_PNP changed_VVD the_AT0 potty_NN1 you_PNP had_VHD by_PRP your_DPS bed_NN1 ._SENT There_EX0 was_VBD n't_XX0 a_AT0 single_AJ0 time_NN1 when_CJS I_PNP did_VDD n't_XX0 want_VVI to_TO0 do_VDI those_DT0 things_NN2 for_PRP you_PNP ._SENT Here_AV0 was_VBD the_AT0 lesson_NN1 you_PNP taught_VVD twenty_CRD years_NN2 ago_AV0 playing_VVG out_AVP ._SENT 
And_CJC in_PRP this_DT0 moment_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP know_VVB why_AVQ this_DT0 chapter_NN1 defines_VVZ the_AT0 entire_AJ0 book_NN1 ._SENT There_EX0 would_VM0 be_VBI no_AT0 book_NN1 without_PRP you_PNP ._SENT There_EX0 would_VM0 be_VBI no_AT0 stories_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC I_PNP would_VM0 n't_XX0 have_VHI turned_VVN out_AVP to_TO0 be_VBI this_DT0 person_NN1 telling_VVG this_DT0 story_NN1 if_CJS you_PNP were_VBD n't_XX0 there_AV0 to_TO0 guide_VVI my_DPS ship_NN1 ._SENT To_TO0 protect_VVI me_PNP on_PRP my_DPS journey_NN1 from_PRP childhood_NN1 ,_PUN to_PRP adolescence_NN1 ,_PUN right_AV0 on_AVP up_AVP to_PRP being_VBG an_AT0 adult_NN1 ._SENT Even_AV0 in_PRP your_DPS darkest_AJS and_CJC most_AV0 fearful_AJ0 time_NN1 ,_PUN you_PNP told_VVD me_PNP that_CJT your_DPS only_AJ0 regret_NN1 was_VBD leaving_VVG us_PNP behind_AV0 ._SENT 
If_CJS the_AT0 rest_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 world_NN1 could_VM0 learn_VVI anything_PNI from_PRP you_PNP and_CJC this_DT0 story_NN1 ,_PUN it_PNP is_VBZ that_DT0 love_NN1 is_VBZ an_AT0 unconditional_AJ0 thing_NN1 ._SENT That_DT0 taking_AJ0 care_NN1 of_PRF someone_PNI who_PNQ took_VVD care_NN1 of_PRF you_PNP is_VBZ one_CRD of_PRF the_AT0 most_AV0 powerful_AJ0 and_CJC transformative_AJ0 things_NN2 you_PNP could_VM0 do_VDI on_PRP this_DT0 earth_NN1 ._SENT Your_DPS saving_NN1 me_PNP will_VM0 allow_VVI me_PNP ,_PUN my_DPS words_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC our_DPS story_NN1 to_TO0 save_VVI others_NN2 ,_PUN because_CJS at_PRP the_AT0 end_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 day_NN1 ,_PUN this_DT0 is_VBZ all_DT0 about_PRP storytelling_NN1 ._SENT 
