Today_AV0 ._SENT August_NP0 1_CRD ,_PUN the_AT0 Back_AJ0 Woods_NP0 ._SENT 
6_CRD :_PUN 30_CRD A.M._AV0 
Things_NN2 come_VVB from_PRP nowhere_AV0 ._SENT The_AT0 mind_NN1 is_VBZ empty_AJ0 and_CJC then_AV0 ,_PUN inside_PRP the_AT0 frame_NN1 ,_PUN a_AT0 pear_NN1 ._SENT Perfect_AJ0 ,_PUN green_AJ0 ,_PUN the_AT0 stem_NN1 atilt_NN1 ,_PUN a_AT0 single_AJ0 leaf_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP sits_VVZ in_PRP a_AT0 white_AJ0 ironstone_NN1 bowl_NN1 ,_PUN nestled_VVN among_PRP the_AT0 limes_NN2 ,_PUN in_PRP the_AT0 center_NN1 of_PRF a_AT0 weathered_AJ0 picnic_NN1 table_NN1 ,_PUN on_PRP an_AT0 old_AJ0 screen_NN1 porch_NN1 ,_PUN at_PRP the_AT0 edge_NN1 of_PRF a_AT0 pond_NN1 ,_PUN deep_AV0 in_PRP the_AT0 woods_NN2 ,_PUN beside_PRP the_AT0 sea_NN1 ._SENT Next_ORD to_PRP the_AT0 bowl_NN1 is_VBZ a_AT0 brass_NN1 candlestick_NN1 covered_VVN in_PRP drips_NN2 of_PRF cold_AJ0 wax_NN1 and_CJC the_AT0 ingrained_AJ0 dust_NN1 of_PRF a_AT0 long_AJ0 winter_NN1 left_VVN on_PRP an_AT0 open_AJ0 shelf_NN1 ._SENT Half-eaten_AJ0 plates_NN2 of_PRF pasta_NN1 ,_PUN an_AT0 unfolded_AJ0 linen_NN1 napkin_NN1 ,_PUN dregs_NN2 of_PRF claret_NN1 in_PRP a_AT0 wine_NN1 bottle_NN1 ,_PUN a_AT0 breadboard_NN1 ,_PUN handmade_AJ0 ,_PUN rough-hewn_AJ0 ,_PUN the_AT0 bread_NN1 torn_VVN not_XX0 sliced_AJ0 ._SENT A_AT0 mildewed_AJ0 book_NN1 of_PRF poetry_NN1 lies_VVZ open_AJ0 on_PRP the_AT0 table_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ To_PRP a_AT0 Skylark_NN1 ,_PUN "_PUQ soaring_VVG into_PRP the_AT0 blue_AJ0 —_PUN painful_AJ0 ,_PUN thrilling_AJ0 —_PUN replays_NN2 in_PRP my_DPS mind_NN1 as_CJS I_PNP stare_VVB at_PRP the_AT0 still_AJ0 life_NN1 of_PRF last_ORD night_NN1 's_POS dinner_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ The_AT0 world_NN1 should_VM0 listen_VVI then_AV0 ,_PUN as_CJS I_PNP am_VBB listening_VVG now_AV0 ._SENT "_PUQ He_PNP read_VVD it_PNP so_AV0 beautifully_AV0 ._SENT "_PUQ For_PRP Anna_NP0 ._SENT "_PUQ And_CJC we_PNP all_DT0 sat_VVD there_AV0 ,_PUN spellbound_AJ0 ,_PUN remembering_VVG her_PNP ._SENT I_PNP could_VM0 look_VVI at_PRP him_PNP and_CJC nothing_PNI else_AV0 for_PRP eternity_NN1 and_CJC be_VBI happy_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP could_VM0 listen_VVI to_PRP him_PNP ,_PUN my_DPS eyes_NN2 closed_VVD ,_PUN feel_VVB his_DPS breath_NN1 and_CJC his_DPS words_NN2 wash_VVB over_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN time_NN1 and_CJC time_NN1 and_CJC time_NN1 again_AV0 ._SENT It_PNP is_VBZ all_DT0 I_PNP want_VVB ._SENT Beyond_PRP the_AT0 edge_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 table_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 light_NN1 dims_VVZ as_CJS it_PNP passes_VVZ through_PRP the_AT0 screens_NN2 before_PRP brightening_VVG over_AVP the_AT0 dappled_AJ0 trees_NN2 ,_PUN the_AT0 pure_AJ0 blue_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 pond_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 deep-black_AJ0 shadows_NN2 of_PRF the_AT0 tupelos_NN2 at_PRP the_AT0 water_NN1 's_POS edge_NN1 where_CJS the_AT0 reach_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 sun_NN1 falters_VVZ this_DT0 early_AJ0 in_PRP the_AT0 day_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP ponder_VVB a_AT0 quarter-inch_NN1 of_PRF thick_AJ0 ,_PUN stale_AJ0 espresso_NN1 in_PRP a_AT0 dirty_AJ0 cup_NN1 and_CJC consider_VVB drinking_VVG it_PNP ._SENT The_AT0 air_NN1 is_VBZ raw_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP shiver_VVB under_PRP the_AT0 faded_AJ0 lavender_NN1 bathrobe_NN1 —_PUN my_DPS mother_NN1 's_VBZ —_PUN that_CJT I_PNP put_VVD on_PRP every_AT0 summer_NN1 when_CJS we_PNP return_VVB to_PRP the_AT0 camp_NN1 ._SENT It_PNP smells_VVZ of_PRF her_PNP ,_PUN and_CJC of_PRF dormancy_NN1 tinged_VVN with_PRP mouse_NN1 droppings_NN2 ._SENT This_DT0 is_VBZ my_DPS favorite_AJ0 hour_NN1 in_PRP the_AT0 Back_AJ0 Woods_NP0 ._SENT Early_AJ0 morning_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 pond_NN1 before_PRP anyone_PNI else_AV0 is_VBZ awake_AJ0 ._SENT The_AT0 sunlight_NN1 clear_AJ0 ,_PUN flinty_AJ0 ,_PUN the_AT0 water_NN1 bracing_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 whippoorwills_NN2 finally_AV0 quiet_AJ0 ._SENT Outside_PRP the_AT0 porch_NN1 door_NN1 ,_PUN on_PRP the_AT0 small_AJ0 wooden_AJ0 deck_NN1 ,_PUN sand_NN1 has_VHZ built_VVN up_AVP between_PRP the_AT0 slats_NN2 —_PUN it_PNP needs_VVZ to_TO0 be_VBI swept_VVN ._SENT A_AT0 broom_NN1 leans_VVZ against_PRP the_AT0 screen_NN1 ,_PUN indenting_VVG it_PNP ,_PUN but_CJC I_PNP ignore_VVB it_PNP and_CJC head_VVB down_AVP the_AT0 little_AJ0 path_NN1 that_CJT leads_VVZ to_PRP our_DPS beach_NN1 ._SENT Behind_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN the_AT0 door_NN1 hinges_VVZ shriek_NN1 in_PRP resistance_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP drop_VVB my_DPS bathrobe_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 ground_NN1 and_CJC stand_VVB naked_AJ0 at_PRP the_AT0 water_NN1 's_POS edge_NN1 ._SENT On_PRP the_AT0 far_AJ0 side_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 pond_NN1 ,_PUN beyond_PRP the_AT0 break_NN1 of_PRF pine_NN1 and_CJC shrub_NN1 oak_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 ocean_NN1 is_VBZ furious_AJ0 ,_PUN roaring_AJ0 ._SENT It_PNP must_VM0 be_VBI carrying_VVG a_AT0 storm_NN1 in_PRP its_DPS belly_NN1 from_PRP somewhere_AV0 out_AVP at_PRP sea_NN1 ._SENT But_CJC here_AV0 ,_PUN at_PRP the_AT0 edge_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 pond_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 air_NN1 is_VBZ honey_NN1 still_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP wait_VVB ,_PUN watch_VVB ,_PUN listen_VVB ..._PUN the_AT0 chirping_NN1 ,_PUN buzzing_VVG of_PRF tiny_AJ0 insects_NN2 ,_PUN a_AT0 wind_NN1 that_CJT stirs_VVZ the_AT0 trees_NN2 too_AV0 gently_AV0 ._SENT Then_AV0 I_PNP wade_VVB in_AVP up_AVP to_PRP my_DPS knees_NN2 and_CJC dive_VVB headlong_AV0 into_PRP the_AT0 freezing_AJ0 water_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP swim_VVB out_AVP into_PRP the_AT0 deep_AJ0 ,_PUN past_PRP the_AT0 water_NN1 lilies_NN2 ,_PUN pushed_VVD forward_AV0 by_PRP exhilaration_NN1 ,_PUN freedom_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC an_AT0 adrenaline_NN1 rush_NN1 of_PRF nameless_AJ0 panic_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP have_VHB a_AT0 shadow-fear_NN1 of_PRF snapping_VVG turtles_NN2 coming_VVG up_AVP from_PRP the_AT0 depths_NN2 to_TO0 bite_VVI my_DPS heavy_AJ0 breasts_NN2 ._SENT Or_CJC perhaps_AV0 they_PNP will_VM0 be_VBI drawn_VVN by_PRP the_AT0 smell_NN1 of_PRF sex_NN1 as_CJS I_PNP open_VVB and_CJC close_VVB my_DPS legs_NN2 ._SENT I_PNP 'm_VBB suddenly_AV0 overwhelmed_VVN by_PRP the_AT0 need_NN1 to_TO0 get_VVI back_AVP to_PRP the_AT0 safety_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 shallows_NN2 ,_PUN where_CJS I_PNP can_VM0 see_VVI the_AT0 sandy_AJ0 bottom_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP wish_VVB I_PNP were_VBD braver_AJC ._SENT But_CJC I_PNP also_AV0 love_VVB the_AT0 fear_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 catch_NN1 of_PRF breath_NN1 in_PRP my_DPS throat_NN1 ,_PUN my_DPS thrumming_AJ0 heartbeat_NN1 as_CJS I_PNP step_VVB out_AVP of_PRF the_AT0 water_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP wring_VVB as_CJS much_AV0 as_CJS I_PNP can_VM0 from_PRP my_DPS long_AJ0 hair_NN1 ,_PUN grab_VVB a_AT0 threadbare_AJ0 towel_NN1 from_PRP the_AT0 clothesline_NN1 my_DPS mother_NN1 has_VHZ strung_VVN between_PRP two_CRD scraggly_AJ0 pines_NN2 ,_PUN lie_VVB down_AVP on_PRP the_AT0 warm_AJ0 sand_NN1 ._SENT An_AT0 electric-blue_AJ0 dragonfly_NN1 lands_NN2 on_PRP my_DPS nipple_NN1 and_CJC perches_VVZ there_AV0 before_PRP moving_VVG on_AVP ._SENT An_AT0 ant_NN1 crawls_VVZ over_PRP the_AT0 Saharan_AJ0 dunes_NN2 my_DPS body_NN1 has_VHZ just_AV0 created_VVN in_PRP its_DPS path_NN1 ._SENT 
Last_ORD night_NN1 I_PNP finally_AV0 fucked_VVD him_PNP ._SENT After_PRP all_DT0 these_DT0 years_NN2 of_PRF imagining_VVG it_PNP ,_PUN never_AV0 knowing_VVG if_CJS he_PNP still_AV0 wanted_VVD me_PNP ._SENT And_CJC then_AV0 the_AT0 moment_NN1 I_PNP knew_VVD it_PNP would_VM0 happen_VVI :_PUN all_DT0 the_AT0 wine_NN1 ,_PUN Jonas_NP0 's_POS beautiful_AJ0 voice_NN1 in_PRP ode_NN1 ,_PUN my_DPS husband_NN1 Peter_NP0 lying_VVG on_PRP the_AT0 sofa_NN1 in_PRP a_AT0 grappa_NN1 haze_NN1 ,_PUN my_DPS three_CRD children_NN2 asleep_AJ0 in_PRP their_DPS cabin_NN1 ,_PUN my_DPS mother_NN1 already_AV0 at_PRP the_AT0 sink_NN1 washing_VVG dishes_NN2 in_PRP her_DPS bright_AJ0 yellow_AJ0 rubber_AJ0 gloves_NN2 ,_PUN ignoring_VVG her_DPS dinner_NN1 guests_NN2 ._SENT Our_DPS eyes_NN2 lingered_VVD one_PNI beat_VVI too_AV0 long_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP got_VVD up_AVP from_PRP the_AT0 noisy_AJ0 table_NN1 ,_PUN took_VVD my_DPS underpants_NN2 off_AVP in_PRP the_AT0 pantry_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC hid_VVD them_PNP behind_PRP the_AT0 breadbox_NN1 ._SENT Then_AV0 I_PNP went_VVD out_AVP the_AT0 back_NN1 door_NN1 into_PRP the_AT0 night_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP waited_VVD in_PRP the_AT0 shadows_NN2 ,_PUN listening_VVG to_PRP the_AT0 sounds_NN2 of_PRF plate_NN1 ,_PUN water_NN1 ,_PUN glass_NN1 ,_PUN silver_NN1 clunking_VVG together_AV0 beneath_PRP the_AT0 suds_NN2 ._SENT Waited_VVN ._SENT Hoped_VVN ._SENT And_CJC then_AV0 he_PNP was_VBD there_AV0 ,_PUN pushing_VVG me_PNP up_AVP against_PRP the_AT0 wall_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 house_NN1 ,_PUN reaching_VVG under_PRP my_DPS dress_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ I_PNP love_VVB you_PNP ,_PUN "_PUQ he_PNP whispered_VVD ._SENT I_PNP gasped_VVD as_CJS he_PNP shoved_VVD himself_PNX into_PRP me_PNP ._SENT And_CJC I_PNP thought_VVD :_PUN now_AV0 there_EX0 is_VBZ no_AT0 turning_VVG back_AVP ._SENT No_ITJ more_DT0 regrets_VVZ for_PRP what_DTQ I_PNP have_VHB n't_XX0 done_VDN ._SENT Now_AV0 only_AV0 regrets_VVZ for_PRP what_DTQ I_PNP have_VHB done_VDN ._SENT I_PNP love_VVB him_PNP ,_PUN I_PNP hate_VVB myself_PNX ;_PUN I_PNP love_VVB myself_PNX ,_PUN I_PNP hate_VVB him_PNP ._SENT This_DT0 is_VBZ the_AT0 end_NN1 of_PRF a_AT0 long_AJ0 story_NN1 ._SENT 
I_PNP am_VBB screaming_VVG ._SENT I_PNP scream_VVB and_CJC gasp_VVB until_CJS ,_PUN at_PRP last_ORD ,_PUN my_DPS mother_NN1 realizes_VVZ something_PNI is_VBZ wrong_AJ0 ._SENT She_PNP races_VVZ with_PRP me_PNP to_PRP the_AT0 doctor_NN1 's_POS office_NN1 ,_PUN imagining_VVG herself_PNX Miss_NP0 Clavel_NP0 as_CJS she_PNP runs_VVZ up_AVP Park_NP0 Avenue_NP0 ,_PUN terrified_AJ0 ,_PUN clutching_VVG her_DPS three-month-old_AJ0 baby_NN1 ._SENT My_DPS father_NN1 is_VBZ racing_AJ0 ,_PUN too_AV0 ,_PUN briefcase_NN1 in_PRP hand_NN1 ,_PUN up_PRP Madison_NP0 Avenue_NP0 from_PRP the_AT0 Fred_NP0 F_NP0 ._SENT French_AJ0 Building_NN1 ._SENT Thoughts_NN2 stammering_AJ0 ,_PUN afraid_AJ0 of_PRF his_DPS own_DT0 impotence_NN1 ,_PUN now_AV0 ,_PUN as_CJS in_PRP everything_PNI he_PNP does_VDZ ._SENT The_AT0 doctor_NN1 tells_VVZ them_PNP there_EX0 's_VBZ no_AT0 time_NN1 —_PUN if_CJS they_PNP wait_VVB ,_PUN the_AT0 baby_NN1 will_VM0 die_VVI —_PUN and_CJC rips_VVZ me_PNP from_PRP my_DPS mother_NN1 's_POS arms_NN2 ._SENT On_PRP the_AT0 operating_NN1 table_NN1 ,_PUN he_PNP slices_VVZ me_PNP open_AJ0 across_PRP the_AT0 belly_NN1 like_PRP a_AT0 ripe_AJ0 watermelon_NN1 ._SENT A_AT0 tumor_NN1 has_VHZ snaked_VVN itself_PNX around_PRP my_DPS intestines_NN2 ,_PUN and_CJC a_AT0 toxicity_NN1 of_PRF shit_NN1 has_VHZ built_VVN up_AVP behind_PRP its_DPS iron_NN1 grasp_NN1 ,_PUN pushing_VVG poison_NN1 into_PRP my_DPS tiny_AJ0 body_NN1 ._SENT The_AT0 shit_NN1 always_AV0 builds_VVZ up_AVP ,_PUN and_CJC surviving_VVG it_PNP is_VBZ the_AT0 key_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC this_DT0 I_PNP will_VM0 not_XX0 learn_VVI for_PRP many_DT0 years_NN2 ._SENT While_CJS the_AT0 doctor_NN1 is_VBZ inside_PRP me_PNP ,_PUN he_PNP cuts_VVZ off_AVP an_AT0 ovary_NN1 ,_PUN careless_AJ0 ,_PUN rushing_VVG to_TO0 carve_VVI the_AT0 death_NN1 out_AVP of_PRF life_NN1 ._SENT This_DT0 ,_PUN too_AV0 ,_PUN I_PNP will_VM0 not_XX0 learn_VVI for_PRP many_DT0 years_NN2 ._SENT When_CJS I_PNP do_VDB ,_PUN my_DPS mother_NN1 cries_VVZ for_PRP me_PNP for_PRP the_AT0 second_ORD time_NN1 ._SENT "_PUQ I_PNP 'm_VBB so_AV0 sorry_AJ0 ,_PUN "_PUQ she_PNP says_VVZ ._SENT "_PUQ I_PNP should_VM0 have_VHI made_VVN him_PNP be_VBI more_AV0 careful_AJ0 ..._PUN "_PUQ —_PUN as_CJS if_CJS she_PNP 'd_VHD had_VHN the_AT0 power_NN1 to_TO0 change_VVI my_DPS fate_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC chosen_VVN not_XX0 to_TO0 use_VVI it_PNP ._SENT Later_AV0 I_PNP lie_VVB in_PRP a_AT0 hospital_NN1 cot_NN1 ,_PUN arms_NN2 tied_VVD down_AVP at_PRP my_DPS sides_NN2 ._SENT I_PNP scream_VVB ,_PUN cry_NN1 ,_PUN alive_AJ0 ,_PUN livid_AJ0 with_PRP rage_NN1 at_PRP this_DT0 injustice_NN1 ._SENT They_PNP will_VM0 not_XX0 let_VVI my_DPS mother_NN1 feed_VVI me_PNP ._SENT Her_DPS milk_NN1 dries_VVZ up_AVP ._SENT Almost_AV0 a_AT0 week_NN1 passes_VVZ before_CJS they_PNP free_VVB my_DPS hands_NN2 from_PRP their_DPS shackles_NN2 ._SENT "_PUQ You_PNP were_VBD always_AV0 such_DT0 a_AT0 happy_AJ0 baby_NN1 ,_PUN "_PUQ my_DPS father_NN1 says_VVZ ._SENT "_PUQ Afterward_AV0 ,_PUN "_PUQ my_DPS mother_NN1 says_VVZ ,_PUN "_PUQ you_PNP never_AV0 stopped_VVD screaming_VVG ._SENT "_PUQ 
1966._CRD December_NP0 ,_PUN New_NP0 York_NP0 City_NN1 ._SENT 
7_CRD :_PUN 30_CRD A.M._AV0 
I_PNP roll_VVB over_AVP onto_PRP my_DPS stomach_NN1 ,_PUN rest_VVB my_DPS head_NN1 on_PRP my_DPS forearms_NN2 ._SENT I_PNP love_VVB the_AT0 salty_AJ0 sweet_AJ0 way_NN1 my_DPS skin_NN1 smells_VVZ when_CJS I_PNP 've_VHB been_VBN lying_VVG in_PRP the_AT0 sun_NN1 —_PUN a_AT0 nut-gold_NN1 ,_PUN musky_AJ0 smell_NN1 ,_PUN as_CJS if_CJS I_PNP 'm_VBB being_VBG cured_VVN ._SENT Down_PRP the_AT0 path_NN1 that_CJT leads_VVZ from_PRP the_AT0 main_AJ0 house_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 bedroom_NN1 cabins_NN2 I_PNP hear_VVB a_AT0 quiet_AJ0 slam_NN1 ._SENT Someone_PNI is_VBZ up_AVP ._SENT Feet_NN2 crunch_VVB on_PRP dry_AJ0 leaves_NN2 ._SENT The_AT0 outdoor_AJ0 shower_NN1 is_VBZ turned_VVN on_AVP ._SENT Pipes_NN2 groan_VVB awake_AJ0 for_PRP the_AT0 day_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP sigh_VVB ,_PUN grab_VVB my_DPS bathrobe_NN1 from_PRP the_AT0 beach_NN1 ,_PUN and_CJC head_VVB back_AVP up_AVP to_PRP the_AT0 house_NN1 ._SENT Our_DPS camp_NN1 has_VHZ one_CRD main_AJ0 building_NN1 —_PUN the_AT0 Big_AJ0 House_NN1 —_PUN and_CJC four_CRD one_CRD bedroom_NN1 cabins_NN2 along_PRP a_AT0 pine-needled_AJ0 path_NN1 that_CJT hugs_VVZ the_AT0 shoreline_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 pond_NN1 ._SENT Small_AJ0 clapboard_NN1 huts_NN2 ,_PUN each_DT0 with_PRP a_AT0 roof_NN1 pitched_VVD to_TO0 keep_VVI the_AT0 snow_NN1 off_AVP ,_PUN a_AT0 single_AJ0 skylight_NN1 ,_PUN long_AJ0 clerestory_AJ0 windows_NN2 on_PRP either_DT0 side_NN1 ._SENT Old-fashioned_AJ0 ,_PUN rustic_AJ0 ,_PUN no_AT0 frills_NN2 ._SENT Exactly_AV0 what_DTQ a_AT0 New_AJ0 England_NP0 cabin_NN1 should_VM0 be_VBI ._SENT Between_PRP the_AT0 path_NN1 and_CJC the_AT0 pond_NN1 is_VBZ a_AT0 thin_AJ0 windbreak_NN1 of_PRF trees_NN2 —_PUN flowering_AJ0 clethra_NN1 ,_PUN bay_NN1 and_CJC wild_AJ0 blueberry_NN1 bushes_NN2 —_PUN that_DT0 protects_VVZ us_PNP from_PRP the_AT0 prying_AJ0 eyes_NN2 of_PRF fishermen_NN2 and_CJC the_AT0 overenthusiastic_AJ0 swimmers_NN2 who_PNQ manage_VVB to_TO0 make_VVI it_PNP across_AV0 to_PRP our_DPS side_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 pond_NN1 from_PRP the_AT0 small_AJ0 public_AJ0 access_NN1 beach_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 far_AJ0 shore_NN1 ._SENT They_PNP are_VBB n't_XX0 allowed_VVN to_TO0 come_VVI aground_AV0 ,_PUN but_CJC sometimes_AV0 they_PNP will_VM0 tread_VVI water_NN1 five_CRD feet_NN2 away_AV0 ,_PUN directly_AV0 in_PRP front_NN1 of_PRF our_DPS tree_NN1 line_NN1 ,_PUN oblivious_AJ0 to_PRP the_AT0 fact_NN1 that_CJT they_PNP are_VBB trespassing_VVG on_PRP our_DPS lives_NN2 ._SENT 
Down_PRP a_AT0 separate_AJ0 path_NN1 ,_PUN behind_PRP the_AT0 cabins_NN2 ,_PUN is_VBZ the_AT0 old_AJ0 bathhouse_NN1 ._SENT Peeling_AJ0 paint_NN1 ,_PUN a_AT0 rusted_AJ0 enamel_NN1 sink_NN1 covered_VVN in_PRP the_AT0 beige_AJ0 flecks_NN2 of_PRF dead_AJ0 moths_NN2 drawn_VVN to_PRP the_AT0 overhead_AJ0 light_NN1 at_PRP night_NN1 ;_PUN an_AT0 ancient_AJ0 claw-foot_AJ0 tub_NN1 that_CJT has_VHZ been_VBN there_AV0 since_PRP my_DPS grandfather_NN1 built_VVD the_AT0 camp_NN1 ;_PUN an_AT0 outdoor_AJ0 shower_NN1 —_PUN hot_AJ0 and_CJC cold_AJ0 pipes_NN2 attached_VVN to_PRP a_AT0 tupelo_NN1 tree_NN1 ,_PUN water_NN1 pooling_VVG straight_AV0 into_PRP the_AT0 ground_NN1 ,_PUN runneling_VVG the_AT0 sandy_AJ0 path_NN1 ._SENT 
The_AT0 Big_AJ0 House_NN1 is_VBZ one_CRD large_AJ0 room_NN1 —_PUN living_VVG room_NN1 and_CJC kitchen_NN1 ,_PUN with_PRP a_AT0 separate_AJ0 pantry_NN1 —_PUN built_VVN of_PRF cinder_NN1 blocks_NN2 and_CJC tar_NN1 paper_NN1 ._SENT Wide-board_AJ0 floors_NN2 ,_PUN heavy_AJ0 beams_NN2 ,_PUN a_AT0 massive_AJ0 stone_NN1 fireplace_NN1 ._SENT On_PRP rainy_AJ0 days_NN2 ,_PUN we_PNP close_VVB up_AVP the_AT0 doors_NN2 and_CJC windows_NN2 and_CJC sit_VVB inside_AV0 ,_PUN listen_VVB to_PRP the_AT0 crackle_NN1 of_PRF the_AT0 fire_NN1 ,_PUN force_VVB ourselves_PNX to_TO0 play_VVI Monopoly_NN1 ._SENT But_CJC where_CJS we_PNP really_AV0 live_VVB —_PUN where_CJS we_PNP read_VVB ,_PUN and_CJC eat_VVB ,_PUN and_CJC argue_VVB ,_PUN and_CJC grow_VVB old_AJ0 together_AV0 —_PUN is_VBZ on_PRP the_AT0 screen_NN1 porch_NN1 ,_PUN as_CJS wide_AJ0 as_CJS the_AT0 house_NN1 itself_PNX ,_PUN which_DTQ faces_VVZ out_AVP to_PRP the_AT0 pond_NN1 ._SENT Our_DPS camp_NN1 is_VBZ n't_XX0 winterized_AJ0 ._SENT There_EX0 would_VM0 be_VBI no_AT0 point_NN1 ._SENT By_PRP late_AJ0 September_NP0 ,_PUN when_CJS the_AT0 weather_NN1 turns_VVZ chilly_AJ0 and_CJC all_DT0 the_AT0 summer_NN1 houses_NN2 have_VHB been_VBN shut_VVN down_AVP for_PRP the_AT0 season_NN1 ,_PUN the_AT0 Back_AJ0 Woods_NP0 is_VBZ a_AT0 lonely_AJ0 place_NN1 —_PUN still_AV0 beautiful_AJ0 in_PRP the_AT0 starker_AJC light_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC solemn_AJ0 and_CJC sepulchral_AJ0 ._SENT No_ITJ one_PNI wants_VVZ to_TO0 be_VBI here_AV0 once_AV0 the_AT0 leaves_NN2 fall_VVB ._SENT But_CJC when_CJS summer_NN1 breaks_VVZ again_AV0 ,_PUN and_CJC the_AT0 woods_NN2 are_VBB dense_AJ0 ,_PUN and_CJC the_AT0 blue_AJ0 herons_NN2 come_VVB back_AVP to_TO0 nest_VVI and_CJC wade_VVI in_PRP the_AT0 bright_AJ0 pond_NN1 ,_PUN there_EX0 is_VBZ no_AT0 better_AJC place_NN1 on_PRP earth_NN1 than_CJS this_DT0 ._SENT The_AT0 moment_NN1 I_PNP step_VVB back_AVP inside_AV0 ,_PUN onto_PRP the_AT0 porch_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP 'm_VBB hit_VVN by_PRP a_AT0 wave_NN1 of_PRF longing_NN1 ,_PUN a_AT0 quicksilver_NN1 running_VVG through_PRP my_DPS solar_AJ0 plexus_NN1 like_PRP homesickness_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP know_VVB I_PNP should_VM0 clear_VVI the_AT0 table_NN1 before_PRP the_AT0 others_NN2 come_VVN in_PRP for_PRP breakfast_NN1 ,_PUN but_CJC I_PNP want_VVB to_TO0 memorize_VVI the_AT0 shape_NN1 of_PRF it_PNP —_PUN re-live_VVB last_ORD night_NN1 crumb_NN1 by_PRP crumb_NN1 ,_PUN plate_NN1 by_PRP plate_NN1 ,_PUN etch_VVB it_PNP with_PRP an_AT0 acid_NN1 bath_NN1 onto_PRP my_DPS brain_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP run_VVB my_DPS fingers_NN2 over_PRP a_AT0 purple_AJ0 wine_NN1 stain_NN1 on_PRP the_AT0 white_AJ0 linen_NN1 tablecloth_NN1 ,_PUN put_VVD Jonas_NP0 's_POS glass_NN1 to_PRP my_DPS lips_NN2 and_CJC try_VVB to_TO0 taste_VVI him_PNP there_AV0 ._SENT I_PNP close_VVB my_DPS eyes_NN2 ,_PUN remembering_VVG the_AT0 slight_AJ0 pressure_NN1 of_PRF his_DPS thigh_NN1 against_PRP mine_PNP under_PRP the_AT0 table_NN1 ._SENT Before_CJS I_PNP was_VBD sure_AJ0 he_PNP wanted_VVD me_PNP ._SENT Wondering_VVG ,_PUN breathless_AJ0 ,_PUN whether_CJS it_PNP was_VBD accident_NN1 or_CJC intention_NN1 ._SENT In_PRP the_AT0 main_AJ0 room_NN1 ,_PUN everything_PNI is_VBZ exactly_AV0 as_CJS it_PNP has_VHZ always_AV0 been_VBN :_PUN pots_NN2 hanging_VVG on_PRP the_AT0 wall_NN1 above_PRP the_AT0 stove_NN1 ,_PUN spatulas_NN2 on_PRP cup_NN1 hooks_NN2 ,_PUN a_AT0 mason_NN1 jar_NN1 of_PRF wooden_AJ0 spoons_NN2 ,_PUN a_AT0 faded_AJ0 list_NN1 of_PRF telephone_NN1 numbers_NN2 thumbtacked_VVN to_PRP a_AT0 bookshelf_NN1 ,_PUN two_CRD director_NN1 's_POS chairs_NN2 pulled_VVD up_AVP to_PRP the_AT0 fireplace_NN1 ._SENT Everything_PNI is_VBZ the_AT0 same_DT0 ,_PUN and_CJC yet_AV0 ,_PUN as_CJS I_PNP cross_VVB the_AT0 kitchen_NN1 to_PRP the_AT0 pantry_NN1 ,_PUN I_PNP feel_VVB as_CJS though_CJS I_PNP am_VBB walking_VVG through_PRP a_AT0 different_AJ0 room_NN1 ,_PUN more_AV0 in_PRP focus_NN1 ,_PUN as_CJS if_CJS the_AT0 air_NN1 itself_PNX has_VHZ just_AV0 awakened_VVN from_PRP a_AT0 deep_AJ0 sleep_NN1 ._SENT I_PNP let_VVB myself_PNX out_AVP through_PRP the_AT0 pantry_NN1 door_NN1 ,_PUN stare_VVB at_PRP the_AT0 cinder-block_AJ0 wall_NN1 ._SENT Nothing_PNI shows_VVZ ._SENT No_AT0 traces_NN2 ,_PUN no_AT0 evidence_NN1 ._SENT But_CJC it_PNP was_VBD here_AV0 ,_PUN we_PNP were_VBD here_AV0 ,_PUN embedding_VVG ourselves_PNX in_PRP each_DT0 other_NN1 forever_AV0 ._SENT Grinding_AJ0 ,_PUN silent_AJ0 ,_PUN desperate_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP suddenly_AV0 remember_VVB my_DPS underpants_NN2 hidden_VVN behind_PRP the_AT0 breadbox_NN1 and_CJC am_VBB just_AV0 pulling_VVG them_PNP on_AVP under_PRP my_DPS bathrobe_NN1 when_CJS my_DPS mother_NN1 appears_VVZ ._SENT 
"_PUQ You_PNP 're_VBB up_AVP early_AV0 ,_PUN Elle_NP0 ._SENT Is_VBZ there_EX0 coffee_NN1 ?_SENT "_PUQ An_AT0 accusation_NN1 ._SENT 
"_PUQ I_PNP was_VBD just_AV0 about_AV0 to_TO0 make_VVI it_PNP ._SENT "_PUQ 
"_PUQ Not_XX0 too_AV0 strong_AJ0 ._SENT I_PNP do_VDB n't_XX0 like_VVI that_CJT espresso_NN1 stuff_NN1 you_PNP use_VVB ._SENT I_PNP know_VVB —_PUN you_PNP think_VVB it_PNP 's_VBZ better_AJC ..._PUN "_PUQ she_PNP says_VVZ ,_PUN in_PRP a_AT0 false_AJ0 ,_PUN humoring_AJ0 voice_NN1 that_CJT drives_VVZ me_PNP insane_AJ0 ._SENT 
